The Dragon in my Dreams

James / June 21st, 2010

This is sort of a psycho-analysis of myself. It’s about my earliest memory and what drove me to make movies.

Special thanks to everyone who submitted music. I had plenty of stuff to listen through and will always look back if I need more.

Also thanks to the workers for allowing me to film there. They told me the dragon is being moved to the front of the park. Nevertheless, it was my last time seeing it the way I remembered.

Comments

  • ZidaneTribal

    June 21, 2010 at 1:59 pm

    Finally ready to watch.

  • Simon

    June 21, 2010 at 2:07 pm

    Thanks a lot James for making up this movie :) you sure know how to do a great job man, your efforts and the results always proove it.

  • ZidaneTribal

    June 21, 2010 at 2:10 pm

    Oh yeah, memories and dreams are mankind’s mightiest tool.

  • enzio

    June 21, 2010 at 2:13 pm

    This video reminds of my childhood nightmares and good old times too.
    Times have changed

  • MonkMovies

    June 21, 2010 at 2:15 pm

    Ow wow ….. That was not at all what I expected ! which is a good thing! I really am happy that you made it in time to see the dragon. it’s so strange to think that if you would have been later you couldn’t have seen it

    very emotional and heartwarming movie.

    keep up the good work :)

  • June 21, 2010 at 2:18 pm

    Wow James, that is unbelievable. I was expecting something humorous and informative, but I think this is the most emotionally involved video you have ever done. I feel it has a sort of similarity to Toy Story 3 that I saw yesterday, where it’s tough to let go of the past only memories serve as treasures and we can be ready to embrace the future!

    Watching you taking a look at the dragon for the last time truly reminds me of the moment at the end of the movie where Andy hands over his beloved toys. It’s both sad and beautiful and I’m sure most of us are ready for the future, but we’ll always have our childhood memories to remember upon for the rest of our lives.

  • gonzoneil

    June 21, 2010 at 2:20 pm

    that was amazing. I’ve never seen you tackle such an emotional subject before and it was incredible. it made me sad and optimistic at the same time. nostalgia mixed with excitement for the future. well done man, fucking well done.

  • Kremenadla

    June 21, 2010 at 2:21 pm

    Beutiful mini doc ;)

  • Murtada

    June 21, 2010 at 2:28 pm

    so fucking sad

  • DreamUnicorn

    June 21, 2010 at 2:30 pm

    Wow, James… that was a great, great video. It really inspired a lot of emotion in me. I’m sure that many people owe you a great big thank you for that. Very powerful.

  • Yalskey

    June 21, 2010 at 2:30 pm

    James:
    Thank you for sharing that beautiful and vulnerable moment with us. You are a true artist / creator. I respect you and your journey. You inspire me to believe in my dreams and myself.

  • June 21, 2010 at 2:37 pm

    That was simply incredible, a great documentary that has surely inspired me. Let me tell you something, I hate documentary’s, but when you make them, theres just something else involved…a connection I feel between your story and myself. James….you rock man. Hopefully one day that big motion picture will finally happen…till than, so long till the next vid!

  • Stravagante

    June 21, 2010 at 2:37 pm

    Fund raise for James to buy that dragon fountain! LOL, James is tracing a dragon and acctualy caught it.

  • hitcher82

    June 21, 2010 at 2:39 pm

    Beautiful

  • simby23

    June 21, 2010 at 2:47 pm

    this is sad

  • maikii

    June 21, 2010 at 2:52 pm

    That was simply beautiful. I’m not ashamed to say there were definitely some tears welling up in my eyes while you were seeing the dragon for the last time. I know that feeling too well. It’s hard to let something go that meant so much to you as a child, even if it is just an inanimate object.

  • June 21, 2010 at 2:54 pm

    Beautiful

  • KernCore

    June 21, 2010 at 2:55 pm

    HOLY SH*T! The Nerd’s mom!
    Great video dude! I almost cried :’)

  • June 21, 2010 at 2:56 pm

    really beautiful

  • June 21, 2010 at 2:57 pm

    wow, that was pretty moving.

  • Butch Bitch

    June 21, 2010 at 2:59 pm

    Wow James, that was your most emotional and poignant work to date! It shows that not only do you know how to make us, your audience, laugh and be frightened, but you also know how to display a lot of heart and emotion into as well.

    You are also very insightful in your work, something that is evident also in your reviews. You are extremely lucky to have seen the dragon for the last time before it disappeared forever.

    Well done James, you have always given me joy with your videos, and you have done it once again!

  • Pizza

    June 21, 2010 at 3:00 pm

    Amazing work, beautiful.

  • mastamuzz

    June 21, 2010 at 3:02 pm

    Brother I think I speak for all of us here when I say you have our support for that full feature project, I wish I had a lot of money so I could invest in your movies cause you truly are one of a kind!

    If we relate so much with your work is because in some way you have the ability to portrait what is in our minds and shape it in the best way possible!

    welcome to the best part of your life! the 30′s are when you are no longer a kid but a young adult, you prepared for a long time and now is time to show how well prepared you are to face the world on your own! it can only get better from here!

    you have that special touch to tell any story, I remember well that last good bye to casper, you made me cry on that one and also on this one cause I haven’t face my dragon yet.

  • the fan

    June 21, 2010 at 3:06 pm

    i must say, that this is indeed a touching piece of video.
    i must admit that it nearly brought a tear to my eye.

  • June 21, 2010 at 3:06 pm

    This is by far my favorite video of yours James. All the editing, filming techniques, and effort that went in to this movie paid off. Your skills as a movie maker are truly astonishing.

    Lately people have been commenting on your posts that your fans only like you for AVGN. I hope those people are not so narrow-minded as to miss this. Anyone who believe that James is simply a foul-mouthed angsty gamer needs to see this.

    Your story, and also the way you tell it, is incredible. You have truly come a long way from photo albums and comic books. I, and all of your other true fans, look forward to your bright future of movie production. Keep up the good, diverse work. And thank you for the inspirational entertainment.

  • Salohcin

    June 21, 2010 at 3:06 pm

    Such a sweet little flick.

    Fate kept that dragon alive for you, until just the right moment.

  • Dave Beckner

    June 21, 2010 at 3:08 pm

    Excellent, James. I too am turning 30 this year. I always knew we were close in age, but I didn’t realize it was the same year and all.

    I had a similar experience to yours as shown in the film a couple of summers ago, when I visited the playground behind my elementary school. Some things were the same, a lot was different, but it was overwhelming. I sat down at the bench next to the softball/ kickball field and could hear the kids playing, even though it was getting dark and there was no one around. Haunting nostalgia.

    “There are places I’ll remember
    All my life, though some have changed
    Some forever, not for better
    Some have gone and some remain
    All these places had their moments
    With lovers and friends, I still can recall
    Some are dead and some are living
    In my life, I’ve loved them all…”

  • GoldRoger

    June 21, 2010 at 3:13 pm

    James, that was undoubtedly the most emotional video you’ve ever done. And I never thought you would actually pull out something like that at this moment, especially when you’re doing a celebrative video like that.

    I wish had such a vivid memory like yours, and even if I had, I would love to revisit that memory. That was simply amazing. And we finally had the chance to meet Mrs. Rolfe.

    Congratulations for making 300 great videos, and I hope that your next 300 are even more successful, recognizable, memorable and that they may lead you to whatever you want to accomplish.

    Wishing you all the best,

    Your biggest fan from Rio de Janeiro, Brazil.

  • June 21, 2010 at 3:21 pm

    Hey James,

    I just wanted to let you know this piece really touched me. It wasn’t as long as Cinemassacre 200 (which is one of my favorite works of yours, ironically enough), but it was a nice little reflection that worked really well for what it was.

    It was almost very sad in a lot of ways, as looking back on childhood and realizing it’s over can often be. As a film student myself, I really hope that you go for it and try to make a feature. With the Red camera systems, technology is at your disposal. You can make some really top notch stuff.

    I for one, as much as I enjoy the nerd, wouldn’t mind you giving it a rest to peruse your dreams.

    Good luck and may you achieve your goals! I’ll stay a fan regardless of what path you take.

  • June 21, 2010 at 3:22 pm

    Excellent short…what a pleasant surprise!
    Keep up the awesome work, and thanks for sharing that part of you with us.

    Randy Miller III
    http://www.DVDtalk.com

  • pox1337

    June 21, 2010 at 3:32 pm

    *sniff, sniff*

  • Bimmy

    June 21, 2010 at 3:32 pm

    So you actually got to the playground, 30 years later, just one day before it was demolished? Alright. You know, the first thing that popped up in my head was: What the fuck are the odds? That’s one coincidential demolition, right there.

  • Perry

    June 21, 2010 at 3:33 pm

    Great video James. I just turned 30 also and I think it must be that stage in everyone’s life that we desperately embrace our childhood as to avoid feeling older. Its sad to see monuments in our pasts that invoke such great feelings of simpler and innocent times as children. Our imaginations ran rampant to no end and the future seemed endless. By your 30′s, you’re going on 65 with a 9 to 5 and a 401k… future seems to be coming to an end…

  • mistahtom

    June 21, 2010 at 3:33 pm

    Shit pickle.

  • dan_54673

    June 21, 2010 at 3:40 pm

    That was brilliant james. The ending made me cried a bit. Keep up the great work man!

  • June 21, 2010 at 3:52 pm

    Awesome movie! I’ve got tears on my eyes.
    By the way, your mom is very cute! I too remember my first nightmare, I was four years old and in this dream I’ve got the letter from someone, and everybody who read this message started to stare on me with very scary eyes and tried to catch me like some monsters or zombies or something, and I’m trying to run away from those people. In the end I gave that letter to some unknown lady and ran away. It was freaky…

  • ulmuchiha

    June 21, 2010 at 3:54 pm

    that was at a emotional level i didn’t know you had.
    Well done.

  • Juanako25

    June 21, 2010 at 3:55 pm

    Truly beautiful.

    The park my parents used to take me to when I was a child also contains objects, like your dragon, which I can relate to my childhood, and whenever I go back I experience similar feelings.

    Well done, and let’s hope we can enjoy of your talent for many years to come. After all, staying true to yourself and your dreams is the key to happiness.

  • ScaryManiac

    June 21, 2010 at 3:56 pm

    Oh..This is so sad, and yet so beautiful… I have no words.. You made me get very sentimental..

  • Nathan B

    June 21, 2010 at 3:57 pm

    Excellent video. I admire the concept for this video. You found a way to make a retrospective that breaks the norm set with Cinemassacre 200.

  • Moertel

    June 21, 2010 at 3:59 pm

    For me as a 15 year old, damn interesting to see.
    i think it´s normal that i didn´t have memories like that now,right?
    Gorgeous video.

    Greets from Germany.

  • Darth House

    June 21, 2010 at 4:09 pm

    I would ask if that was acting, how many takes there were, how it was done when the camera was switched, how genuine it is, but I won’t because it was good.

    Best of luck on anything you want to do James. Oh, and I bet if you showed the demolition guys this video they’d give you that dragon.. or like it’s head.. I mean why not?

    It’d be a cool thing for you to have sitting around.. like your origin.. a relic.. like in Turtles in Time with the TGRI canister.. lol.. Horrible example.

  • marcs

    June 21, 2010 at 4:10 pm

    Childhood memories accompany you for the rest of your life, it doesn’t matter how many films or reviews you have made or how old you are. What it matters is the passion that run through your veins never vanishes but grows stronger every day.

    So long director James, i really hope to see you on the big international cinema, so i can say to my friends “I know him, he’s James Rolfe, i watched every video he made, i knew he’s going to make into the big screen”. (heck i bet that all the people on this site hope for this)

    Your doing a great job Mr,Rolfe, i wish you luck.

    from an Italian fan, Marco

  • Hadamar

    June 21, 2010 at 4:14 pm

    Nice video James.
    Don’t stop with your work!

  • JayRam

    June 21, 2010 at 4:16 pm

    As an aspiring filmmaker myself, I know that feeling of needing to be creative; It’s just something you gotta do no matter if people think your dreams are too far-fetched. It’s like that saying “find something you love doing, and you’ll never work a day in your life.”

    You’re an inspiration, man. Really.

  • ChildrenofBodom

    June 21, 2010 at 4:18 pm

    What an inspiring piece of work. I think someday you will get that huge break you deserve.

  • June 21, 2010 at 4:20 pm

    Touching and amazing story James, thank you for sharing it with us.

  • June 21, 2010 at 4:22 pm

    Man, i feel your pain this happened to me a few years back.
    And a touching video thank you for sharing.

  • Drakulas

    June 21, 2010 at 4:26 pm

    The dragon will live on.

  • Nightmare19

    June 21, 2010 at 4:27 pm

    This was so beautiful. Well done James “sniff” :(

  • June 21, 2010 at 4:31 pm

    That was nice to see a video of you being you, not the Nerd. I really admire the way you persue your dreams. I’m actually doing the same. I’m quiting Medic University to start studying games programing =]
    The best for you bro

    from you biggest fan, from Belo Horizonte, Brazil

  • Kwitset

    June 21, 2010 at 4:39 pm

    That was great video. It is amazing how you found the dragon just in the nick of time.

    I also had a dream when I was a kid about an ET-like face looking through my bedroom window.

  • Ai the Cutie

    June 21, 2010 at 4:40 pm

    Tearfully wonderful, and absolutely fantastic.

  • VGRetro

    June 21, 2010 at 4:40 pm

    Undoubtedly the greatest video you have ever made. You brought me to tears, but not laughing tears, emotional tears. Now, I feel bad when I sit through AVGN videos, knowing there is an emotional side to you that I never saw before. Making movies means more to you than many of us could ever imagine. Perhaps soon will be the time to leave the nerd behind and follow your dreams; become the film maker you were born to be.

  • Js_dancer

    June 21, 2010 at 4:43 pm

    that…was….beautifull…amasing…wonderfull…loved every second of it…

  • Twiglet47

    June 21, 2010 at 4:44 pm

    James, i dont know hw relevant this quote may be to you, but it sure means a hell of a lot for me. It’s from the series finale of Frasier.

    “It may be that the gulfs will wash us down;
    It may be we shall touch the Happy Isles,
    And though we are not now that strength which in old days
    Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are—
    [Scene shifts to Frasier’s KACL booth.]
    Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will;
    To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.”
    I’ve been thinking about that poem a lot lately. And I think what it says is that, while it’s tempting to play it safe, the more we’re willing to risk, the more alive we are. In the end, what we regret most are the chances we never took. And I hope that explains, at least a little, this journey on which I am about to embark. I have loved every minute with my KACL family, and all of you. For eleven years you’ve heard me say, “I’m listening.” Well, you were listening too. And for that I am eternally grateful. Goodnight, Seattle.”

  • Jericho

    June 21, 2010 at 4:44 pm

    Damn. That was moving. I can’t wait to see your masterpiece grace the silver screen, because I know it will. I’ve got high hopes for you man. Best of luck from Canada.

  • Treleus

    June 21, 2010 at 4:45 pm

    That’s magic if I’ve ever seen it. Godspeed, James Rolfe.

  • June 21, 2010 at 4:48 pm

    A short film that could have been a long documentary, but is still one of the best of the “300″.

    It feels so sad that the dragon appear to be destroyed.

    But thinking about it makes it seem like the dragon has rather been released from the ground to spread out the wings and fly.

    At least thats a thought to lighten up the mood afterwards.

  • Mishobu

    June 21, 2010 at 4:50 pm

    absolutely beautiful you made me cry literally. Good work JAmes

  • June 21, 2010 at 4:51 pm

    This was truly beautiful. You are an inspiration to me. Keep up the life-changing work.

  • goncalo2kit

    June 21, 2010 at 4:51 pm

    awsome james. i think you made a spectacular work (and all thanks to that dragon) you can put your videos on television. you deserve it. you also must make a movie or something.
    from your fan: Gonçalo Valentim from Portugal

  • June 21, 2010 at 4:56 pm

    EASILY your best work yet. bravo! man, now i REALLY want to see you make a feature film!

  • June 21, 2010 at 4:56 pm

    This was very moving. Thanks for sharing it with us.

  • Syph

    June 21, 2010 at 5:01 pm

    Wow. The sense of nostalgia is so strongly conveyed there that it brings up memories of places I was taken to as a kid that I had long since forgotten. You really should be making those big movies you dreamed of. I’d pay to see anything you made and I think anyone familiar with your work would too.

  • enter12

    June 21, 2010 at 5:01 pm

    wow

  • mightypirate

    June 21, 2010 at 5:03 pm

    Congratulations James, this is really a masterpiece.

  • rocklord

    June 21, 2010 at 5:05 pm

    that dragon blessed you with mans most powerful
    gift imagination. that dragon inspired you as you inspired us its magic if I’ve ever seen it.

  • nerdyguy64

    June 21, 2010 at 5:06 pm

    dear god, that was beautiful, no joke, but I cried!

  • bibadobo

    June 21, 2010 at 5:08 pm

    OMFG i was listening to the song “brand new day” right before i turned this on!

  • June 21, 2010 at 5:18 pm

    Isn’t interesting how one moment can define you for the rest of your life and how that moment continues to follow you thought you life, even if you never knew its true meaning.

    Also I think that when you enter a new chapter of your life you tend to remember the things that brought you there. I happened to me during my fourth year of college and was having a meeting with my academic adviser on decide my course for next semester. I thought it was just for next semester, but it end up being my academic for my whole entire schedule for the next year and a half. I never really thought that things could be decided so easily it just fifteen minutes. Especially, when the issues of apply for graduation came up.

    When I was walk back I though of this statement:

    “Today, I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. I am a little bit frightened, a little bit overwhelmed, and a little bit sad of what is nearing, but I can do it.”

    It gave me the feeling, that even though it still is in the middle of semester, that the gap between the real world and college is slowly filling in and soon I will be in the workforce. I did not think that these things could happen so quick until I saw it staring at me right in the face.

    However, I also made me feel like achieved something great. That through all the struggles I when to as a little kid to the adult I am now all paid off.

    I guess what I saying is that everybody has these moments that we feel lost and feel the need to look back to the past to find our answers.

    I’m glad you found your dragon and thankful that you shared this with us.

  • bladebrent

    June 21, 2010 at 5:22 pm

    happy belated birthday! I bet you wanted to kill that dragon huh? lol, jk. sweet video, real sad. least your dreams made sense.

  • Eccid

    June 21, 2010 at 5:23 pm

    That was amazing. I’m glad not to be the only one crying :P Very well done, and definitely your best directed work. I’m looking forward to the day you finally get your silver screen breakthrough. Following your dreams can be tough, and unfortunately at 21 I’m still not sure where to take things with my life. I don’t have any overwhelming dreams of where I want my life to go, but I hope when i find it I can have even half the drive that you do. Thanks for being an amazing inspiration James, and never giving up on what you know you were meant to do.

  • June 21, 2010 at 5:26 pm

    Wow, great video. Thanks for sharing it with us.
    From your biggest fan all the way from Amsterdam.

  • Spokavriel

    June 21, 2010 at 5:28 pm

    Did you get a chance to ask what would happen with the Dragon or was it just not a time for it?

    I’ve had so many pieces of the playgrounds I use to go to taken away like that. Every time I can I try to ask what they will do with the equipment or swings and most of the time they are sent to the Scrap yard or landfill because parents groups have gotten them determined unsafe for kids.

    Even a Cement Triceratops I use to play on.

    I’ve taken pictures of most of them and hope to some day be able to get them remade at least officially as sculptures. But I’ve been losing most of what were my playgrounds starting at least 20 years ago. And because of it the song “This use to be my Playground” often leaves me crying over what is no longer there.

    I’m glad you got to see your Dragon again.

  • June 21, 2010 at 5:31 pm

    That was an awesome video
    I have to admit I was on the edge of my seat hoping that the Dragon was still their
    I’m very glad it was, even though it might have been it’s last few days.

    it’s really inspiring to watch where people find their creative edge :D

  • June 21, 2010 at 5:33 pm

    Wow, That was a touching video that showed so much sentimental value. It brought back a lot of childhood memories for me too. A great way for you to face the past and bring your fear to conclusion. Great job and keep up the good work.

  • Cece-InspiredByJamesRolfe

    June 21, 2010 at 5:40 pm

    That was amazing!!!! Another inspiring video! It all the more shows me why you are my film-making hero James. I will be transitioning soon from my current college to UCLA to get a MFA for film. I will always say you are my biggest inspiration and the ultimate artist of this medium. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

    -Cecelia

  • Liam Gauci

    June 21, 2010 at 5:52 pm

    Thanks for this James. Amazing video. When you went looking for the dragon I was thinking “I hope it’s still there” because we all go looking for symbols of our youth when we feel like we’re on the threshold of a new period in our lives and we’re not always lucky enough to find them again. I don’t know whether we do it to be able to say our final goodbyes to our youth or to actually find ourselves again so that the two sides of ourselves (young/old) can confront each other and see eye to eye so that they can move forward together. Don’t know…

    Anyway, great video because it touches the heart and makes it easy for us to relate to the transition you’re going through atm. I wish you luck as you prepare to embark on your most ambitious project yet!

  • majingrim

    June 21, 2010 at 5:53 pm

    Amazing video as always James. Keep up the great work

  • avgnfan96

    June 21, 2010 at 5:59 pm

    wow this kinda made me cry a little bit… a lot different than your other videos

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:01 pm

    Very interesting to see your source of inspiration. Different from your usually more comedic movies, it definitely had more sentimental value.

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:03 pm

    Congrats James- this was your finest hour.

  • MorePAIN

    June 21, 2010 at 6:05 pm

    Good job man!

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:05 pm

    Great work James. Very interesting piece.

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:07 pm

    oh my god that was so touching. I cried so much when you found your dragon before it was too late. That was amazing. I know EXACTLY what it feels like to have important things in your life taken away.

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:13 pm

    This was truly touching James, I hope one day you will make the films you dream of.

  • A_ninja

    June 21, 2010 at 6:13 pm

    Cool…Did you ask them if you could keep the dragon?

  • jedidude

    June 21, 2010 at 6:15 pm

    Amazing video James. As alot of people have already said it reminds me of alot of old times like the playground for example. It’s truly amazing when you get the chance to see something that influenced you so greatly as a child.

    I’m glad you had that chance. It’s a rare oppertunity. Again thank you for yet another great video.

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:17 pm

    This was really amazing work. It’s really nice to see a part of what inspired you.

  • Nafxl123

    June 21, 2010 at 6:22 pm

    Bravo, James. I’m glad you got to see the thing that started it all, and I thank you for sharing that moment with all of us.

  • mactruck81

    June 21, 2010 at 6:23 pm

    Very good James; Very good.
    I am glad you were able to share that with us.

  • GuitarKirby

    June 21, 2010 at 6:24 pm

    James, I’m proud to share your name.
    That was easily the most touching video you’ve ever produced. Seeing that dragon was incredible. It reminded me of when I got to visit my old street in Carson City, and passing by my old school was amazing. I hope you get to make your dreamed-of movies, and I hope you get to direct something big someday. I can see it’s what you love, and it amazes me to see such a commitment. Good luck, Mr. Rolfe!

  • Rawdeal

    June 21, 2010 at 6:25 pm

    Well, I’m glad I saved my debut comment for this video.. What we have here ladies and gentlemen, is TALENT. Really emotional.. Moving.. I will be watching this from time to time. For many years to come.
    This touched me deeply..

    I’m a very, very nostalgic person. Too much, really, as it tends to take over at times. But I refuse to see this as something bad. I don’t believe that we can let go of our past.. It’s impossible to say goodbye. Why can’t we look forwards AND backwards? Our memories are part of what make us human.

    This reminded me somewhat of my own childhood. I’m 31 now, and the memories keep on and on and on as I grow older. Gaining in strength..

    Thank You SO MUCH James for not just this video but for everything you put up. For letting us glance into your fascinating life..

    All the best,
    /Carl from Gothenburg, Sweden

  • gorteous

    June 21, 2010 at 6:25 pm

    this is one of your best videos yet. it was so touching and it made me feel a connection to that dragon and it shows me how important my childhood can be and how it can affect who you are and what you do. great video as always james, keep it up!

  • chriskoopa

    June 21, 2010 at 6:27 pm

    this video is just wow it should have been longer…make an extended version :)

  • NicksComments

    June 21, 2010 at 6:28 pm

    i cried.

  • CharlieBrownGhostAss

    June 21, 2010 at 6:31 pm

    Did you get the nightmare from seeing the Jabberwocky in the 80′s version of “Alice In Wonderland” as a child? You said that you ran from the TV crying.

  • newch

    June 21, 2010 at 6:34 pm

    Wow. I’m glad you’re taking your time with your videos. It really shows.

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:37 pm

    That was really touching!

    I remember after my first semester of college, I drove by my old high school, and what starts playing in my car: The Memory Remains by Metallica. It was really eerie.

    I’ve always wanted to do something similar, visiting places of my youth. I have no doubt it would be overwhelming like this was for you!

  • Kiarachu

    June 21, 2010 at 6:38 pm

    Amazing and very touching video, James!It made me cry when you found the dragon…literally.Great video and keep it up like this.I like it very much!

  • Navesregge

    June 21, 2010 at 6:48 pm

    This quite literally moved me to tears (manly tears, mind you!). It got me thinking about what could have inspired me at my childhood. My growing passion is music (trumpet, mainly), so I wonder if there was something long ago that I saw that made me like it so much. I sometimes use my father’s trumpet which he used about 40 years ago. There’s a picture of him playing in a marching band at the capital building of my state. Maybe seeing that picture of him back then spurred me on to liking the trumpet so much…

    Great film, James. May there be many more!

  • RasmusKudahl

    June 21, 2010 at 6:49 pm

    This was really touching.
    Keep up the awesome work and keep that awesome dragon in your dreams!

  • June 21, 2010 at 6:56 pm

    I feel for you, James. I’m 27 and I had similar things in my life as a child. I believe my was the octopus. I used to go to Sherwood park all the time and play on that purple octopus with the great big smile. I wouldn’t be surprised if they tore that creature down by now. Next time I go back to my hometown I am going to take a look at my park. It’s sad when things we cherished as a child have all but seemed to vanish right from under us. Good work as usual. Can’t wait for the next project you’re working on.

  • June 21, 2010 at 7:20 pm

    It always saddens me to see parks turn from organic material to plastic and metal.

    It’s odd to leave old securities behind.

  • Casper666

    June 21, 2010 at 7:31 pm

    If you know, were they actually taking down the dragon, or were they just repairing it? Either way, very touching.

  • marigold23

    June 21, 2010 at 7:36 pm

    I’ve been waiting a while for this one, James. I’m really glad to see it. When I was very little, I went ONCE to a neighborhood park with my grandmother and aunt, and I remembered only one thing about it: A see-saw made out of a giant Yogi Bear head! Then I saw it years later, though I was still young enough to play on Yogi, and it was such a novel thing to play on that it was a symbol for me of the playground itself, although I didn’t know that at the time. Then, after a long absence, I returned to the park as a teen- and Yogi was gone. I didn’t know why it hurt, but I guess you, I, and a lot of other people have figured it out now. Thanks so much, James.

  • kingrat2314

    June 21, 2010 at 7:38 pm

    Really amazing and touching video. I’m 20 now, but when I’m close to 30, I can only hope I’ve accomplished half of what you have, James. I’m actually going to college to be an editor, but I know how it is doing all the work on a short film. You’re actually an inspiration to me. I hope you can continue to make these kinds of videos on cinemassacre for as long as you can.

  • June 21, 2010 at 7:43 pm

    Aww, that’s sad about what happened to the dragon. I would have liked to see the dragon get redone. It’s good to revisit your past and your roots while there’s still time left. Bravo, James.

  • favselector

    June 21, 2010 at 7:45 pm

    that’s a cute and touching story

  • murphy2112

    June 21, 2010 at 7:51 pm

    Damn, James. You really caught me off guard with this one. Got a little glass-eyed when I saw that dragon. Keep it up, buddy.

  • sanchokobe

    June 21, 2010 at 7:55 pm

    I also turned 30 this year, and this really hit home with me. Thanks for letting me know I’m not alone, James.

  • June 21, 2010 at 7:55 pm

    This was a very emotional video. I could shed a tear right now. Such a Great video. And it’s so true when you say it’s time to go on and do bigger things.

    It reminds me of the dreams that i had groing up. My dreams were always the same, “i was so close to the thing i was aiming for but then somebody shuved me of the Mountain”. Later on in life i was always the kid that overcame the odds. Nobody believed me when i said that growing up i wanted to do something that involved Video Games or Playing Hockey. Everybody said to me your not that kind, you could not stand one day of it. Well i prooved them wrong, now i am doing great in a school that the goal is to learn all the stuff you need to know to make a game, we are making games and so on. And i am going to start hockey this october here in Sweden. Now that i have the time. Thank you so much for all the work you have been doing for a long time!, You are a role model to me!. Thank you so much James!

    - Niklas

  • patrick

    June 21, 2010 at 8:07 pm

    All my childhood memories have been renovated or redone.

  • June 21, 2010 at 8:13 pm

    what an amazing video james, it touched my inner child who is always looking for that certain something from his childhood …as a avid watcher of your work i want to see you succeed in making your 1st full feature film

  • The Stonehill

    June 21, 2010 at 8:23 pm

    i know that feeling even though i am 21, its hard seeing the old go into the new, the hospitial of which i was born has now been demoloished and a new one out in its place but i shall never ever be at the height or room where i was born, another thing happened my college where i studied for my A-levels has recently been demolished and all the memories within it are now one, having seen the new one and been inside it i am slighty jealous but alos sad as these students haven never spent the time that i did and now will never see it as it was… the jealously part of me is that the film studies department now have a proper private cinema rather then a blackout room to view films in… Thou its better i wouldn’t change it for the world.

  • June 21, 2010 at 8:25 pm

    Wow… it really touched me. Those tears you almost dropped were… seemed like mine.

    I’m a huge fan of yours in Republic of Korea. I first saw you in the AVGN: Silver Surfer. That was the time you were first introduced to Korean Internet Society. Then, I watched every single AVGN related videos you made. It was simply amazing.

    Next I found your other movies, which were your original intention. I realized something else. I originally liked you because of your interest in video games, but now it has changed. I really admire you, and respect you as a role model. I never had a chance to find the person who works really hard to achive his/her dream.

    It’s been almost 3 years of being your fan, and I’m very greatful to be your fan. Even though the dream is different from each other, the dream of yours made people around the world remind their own dreams. I’m always here to encourage you, James. Keep up the good work, and thanks.

    Again, thanks a lot, James.

  • bartman12345

    June 21, 2010 at 8:29 pm

    That is so sad they are taking it out. you looked sad and I don’t like seeing my idol like that

  • June 21, 2010 at 8:30 pm

    First of all, sorry for my english I say something wrong.

    This video was very emotional, well crafted and I loved how you tell your story. Those child-like draws, and the music, and the real fact that the dragon was almost going to be destroyed that day, made the video very touching.

    In some ways also, this video makes me feel a little sad and envy. I don’t know if I am using the correct word, but is in a good way. Because it’s amazing how your child passion was serius and how you could make it survive until you could make your life of it. I said I was envy, because when I was a child a a teenager, I always had an very hiperactive imagination, and making videos was also a passion. Even if it doesn’t had any major sense. Even shooting simple things and trying to give them another perspective, another angle that people usually doesn’t look, or trying to convert a normal event into an exciting one or at least beautiful one by trying to tell it by anoter way. But I growth and I though “that isn’t viable”. And everybody told me I was very good at school, that I was “smart” and that I should became a great “standard professional”. Now I’m 22, I’m not old of course. but I’m already in the fourth year of law studies at the best Chile’s Law School. Honestly, I feel quite frustrated about it, I think that erased all my creativity, but I have studied this career with a expensive credit that’s waiting to be paid. So, the decision was taken with no step back. I’m in 4 fourth year at the university, and four years ago, I killed my own dragon.

  • suolperos

    June 21, 2010 at 8:31 pm

    Excellent retrospective! It actually made me tear up… I can most definitely relate to this, albeit in a different way. When I was a little kid (maybe 5 to 7), we had Japanese neighbors that lived across the street who would occasionally babysit me. I remember being awestruck by the way they talked. It was unlike anything I’d ever imagined before and I wanted to learn how to talk like them. After about a year of seeing these folks pretty much daily (they also had a kid close to my age who I played with), I was speaking to them in near-fluent Japanese. Me and my friend code-switched around our monolingual parents to mischievous ends and even made our own Japanenglish hybrid :P When we moved away, I was real sad when I couldn’t use my new skill anymore. I started losing the language from not using it (which frustrated me and often made me cry!) and became obsessed with studying and creating them – it was sort of an anchor for me to keep those memories of discovery and fascination. Today at age 26, language in all its form is my personal passion.

  • Jigglysaint

    June 21, 2010 at 8:31 pm

    That was an awesome and inspiring movie James! You know it’s funny but I really do see a bit of myself in you. The only difference is that instead of letting my dreams lead me to develop a talent, instead it served as a place of refuge. Heck, I still walk by the very monster that started it all every single day. I would be so lucky to have somthing as epic as a dragon be the catalyst for my passion. You got the dragon monster in the park, I got an malicious lighting fixture that goes very fast and shoots fireballs. Heh, almost like a dragon in a way.

  • Extrema

    June 21, 2010 at 8:37 pm

    Touching and very personal video, didn’t see this one coming!

  • Rasengan999

    June 21, 2010 at 8:39 pm

    man, if I wasn’t a too-proud, hard-headed jerk, I would have cried. Now, I’m teary-eyed…I wish I was humble enough to cry…

    Anyway, you should have found the owner of that park, maybe he’d sell you the dragon, and if they’re taking it down, and in it’s condition, he’d probably be happy to sell it for a cheap price.

    So…James…you follow that dragon, your dreams, your heart, and God, and those dreams may be fulfilled, God willing. If you put your mind to it, and if your heart is in it, God willing, you can do anything. Do what you think is right for your dreams. If that means quitting The Nerd, and even Cinemassacre altogether, so be it, Do what YOU want, not what anybody else tells you. Keep God and your dreams in your heart, and no matter what, you can do anything.

  • spideyman2099

    June 21, 2010 at 8:50 pm

    Really Touching short but good Keep those movies coming.

  • Flamzeron

    June 21, 2010 at 9:17 pm

    I’d love to watch it, if it would finish buffering!

  • cloob1

    June 21, 2010 at 9:24 pm

    This video almost had me crying. In my opinion, this is your best work. It was like having James back from the brink of being burnt out. It was magical and almost unearthly; like it was sent from the heavens. I can’t wait to see a full motion picture done by you.

  • SuperNintendoChalmers

    June 21, 2010 at 9:29 pm

    look forward to watching this later. keep those videos coming!

    I’m curious what kind of feature film you would make first.

  • videogamehunter

    June 21, 2010 at 9:46 pm

    That kinda sucks about dragon. I’m glad you were able to meet him last time.

  • Lesley M.

    June 21, 2010 at 9:50 pm

    This is such a beautiful film!
    I cried a bit…
    I look forward to what your dreams bring.

    Well done.

  • chimeradave

    June 21, 2010 at 9:59 pm

    You had the dragon, in my neighborhood there was a house that had stone lions on either side of the driveway. At a young age they totally captivated me. Maybe it’s something universal for children, that we start to think of things bigger than ourselves and of the larger world but it starts by sort of focusing on one thing that holds wonder for us.

    They say that really young children don’t think about anything but themselves, but as they grow they begin to realize they aren’t the center of the world.

  • June 21, 2010 at 10:32 pm

    This caught me completely off guard and I’m actually crying big man tears right now. I can’t remember what my “dragon” is, but this video have inspired me to make a search. Thank you.

  • June 21, 2010 at 10:36 pm

    Great stuff James. One of your best videos ever.

  • joliet_jane

    June 21, 2010 at 10:38 pm

    James… not only am I a fan of yours, but I am PROUD to call myself a fan of yours. Your work is really special.

  • iamspider

    June 21, 2010 at 10:41 pm

    Phenomenal work!

  • fireworka

    June 21, 2010 at 10:43 pm

    Goddamn, that was great. Really touching.
    You should have bought the dragon! They were removing it anyway…
    Great work.

  • misfitsfiend316

    June 21, 2010 at 11:06 pm

    Bravo. I really enjoy all of the “James” pieces you have done. You’re so much more than AVGN and all the other characters you play. You have a real talent and I wish you luck in everything that you do.

  • Cory Power

    June 21, 2010 at 11:13 pm

    What is this video hosted on? I much prefer the blip.tv player.

  • carlossmasher

    June 21, 2010 at 11:27 pm

    james muchas felicidades por este filme numero 300 te deseo lo mejor y me encanto the dragon in my dreams sigue con todos tus proyectos porque eres un exelente cineasta y te admiro mucho

  • JustCody

    June 21, 2010 at 11:49 pm

    This was such a sincere and powerful film. Thank you for being an inspiration, and godspeed with your dreams.

  • Undertaker

    June 22, 2010 at 12:08 am

    Very interesting and touching. i never really thought of you like this before but i look forward to seeing more like this and a feature film by you. Keep up the good work!

  • June 22, 2010 at 12:14 am

    …James, you have the goods…
    …and you speak the language…
    …to succeed as a feature film maker…
    …in the medium of light, and sound…
    …you are right up there with my favourites…
    …from one to another, you are an artist…
    …well done man…

  • MarceloLuis

    June 22, 2010 at 12:35 am

    Oh shit! you made me cry.

    Like you, i have a dream every night, but I can’t remember in the morning, i wish i could find “my dragon”

    You are amazing, and your videos are great!

  • theguyinyourhead

    June 22, 2010 at 12:46 am

    hey james way to make me all teary eyed seriously james rolfe you are truly one of a kind. we wanted video game reviews in the beginning and through the years you’ve allowed us into your life with your movies your documentaries and your awesome imagination even as a kid this was great stuff cant wait for your big movie premiere ill even pre order the ticket when its hits theaters

  • June 22, 2010 at 12:56 am

    Nice and touching James. Dude,u have tremendous talent. Eventually im sure u will make a masterpice film.Cant wait for that day to come. Kep up the good work man and never give up. \m/ \m/ Stay metal ,stay brutal!!!!!!!!!

  • KoosaLaGoopaGoop

    June 22, 2010 at 12:59 am

    Very touching James, thanks for sharing this. Makes me wonder if I have a “dragon” in my life…Great music to those who sent it to him, it added to the emotion a lot. :)

    If you decide to visit the dragon again in the future, post up a picture of it in it’s new home.

  • June 22, 2010 at 1:36 am

    Wow. Just wow.
    I have been watching your videos since the early “Angry Nintendo Nerd” and I’ve watched you evolve as a cinematographer and director. Your videos have been getting better and better, and this is by far your greatest so far. It was emotionally moving, beautiful, and humble.
    You’re so close to that dream of yours, and I think when you finally make that feature film you have in your head, it’ll be a truly spectacular experience.
    Keep up the amazing work,
    Your films and your videos inspire so many of us

  • June 22, 2010 at 1:39 am

    that is very touching! great work!

  • bick.benedict

    June 22, 2010 at 1:41 am

    I liked this. It was touching and personal and that made it authentic and real. Great job James.

  • Laughs

    June 22, 2010 at 1:41 am

    That was actually quite touching… I’m glad the dragon survived and that you got to see it the way you remembered, before it was moved.

  • C-O-L-T

    June 22, 2010 at 1:57 am

    It was really very touching. Never thought to see the “Angry Videogame Nerd” so close to his life. Thank God that you could see the dragon on it´s old place for one more time… Greetings from Austria

  • Storm captain

    June 22, 2010 at 2:05 am

    Im moved by this video and inspired to earch after my own dragon

  • DoubleFacePL

    June 22, 2010 at 2:16 am

    Looks like we have another wonderful video from Cinemassacre. Very touching, nostalgic. You’r so lucky that you can see dragon in his old place for last time. But where we can find him? Can you tell us where he is?

  • June 22, 2010 at 2:52 am

    u_u
    I must admit it…

    …I did cried watching this.

  • Dukenukemx

    June 22, 2010 at 2:59 am

    I nearly cried watching that. Just turning 30 myself, I feel compelled to look back to my earliest memories. Trying to remember all the things I liked, and all the things I hated.

    Just recently I decided to watch all of Thundercats because of this. Surprisingly, there’s a lot of things I saw from it, that effects me to this day.

  • UneX100

    June 22, 2010 at 3:03 am

    This video about your past reminded me of the that one Twilight episode. I can’t really remember it’s name, but there’s a guy that figures to go for a walk and he visited his old neighborhood, sites he visited as a child.

  • The Shamster

    June 22, 2010 at 3:27 am

    I love dragons!

  • Lotem

    June 22, 2010 at 3:33 am

    Very touching.
    I have almost the same experience, where the first thing I remember of myself was a dream about a big bear in my room, looking through the window. It actually seemed pretty real since I remember touching it and feeling it.
    After I realized that it’s not my brother in a costume, I started crying and my parents came to my room and told me it was just a dream.
    I’d really like to experience this dream again, since even though I know it isn’t real, some of me think it was. It’s just weird.

  • Cuber1

    June 22, 2010 at 3:38 am

    I gotta admit James, you got me crying with this video..
    And I know I sound like almost everyone else commenting here, but I can relate to your nightmare story ALLOT!

    When I was allot younger I dreamed about a ghost who took my mom away from me, and that also had something to do with the playground I used to visit almost everyday..

    I’m not making this up, I’m not trying to be interesting or something.. Just wanted to tell..

  • Olli S.

    June 22, 2010 at 3:47 am

    A stunning piece of art, that you have created with this movie, I must admit.
    It put me to tears, when I first watched it. I had to stop for a moment, till they were gone before I watched it again… and again…. and again. And evrytime I took another peak at it, it was getting better and better. Thank you alot for this very emotional video, which, in my opinion, is one of your best til now. Keep up your work Mr. Rolfe. You doing us all a favour. Thanks alot.
    Greetings from Germany, Olli S.

  • Squall85

    June 22, 2010 at 4:16 am

    You are a lucky person to have such inspiration and goals in life and you can keep on to them. I almost cried too watching this, it was very moving. Happy birthday and live long, James!

  • c00lbeatZ

    June 22, 2010 at 5:13 am

    truly an epic story

  • June 22, 2010 at 5:21 am

    Aww James that was great! I loved this and think it’s one of the best things that I’ve seen of yours. Thanks 4 sharing :)

  • Johnny Deformed

    June 22, 2010 at 5:49 am

    This is really epic in a heartwarming way.

  • galymcd13

    June 22, 2010 at 6:00 am

    Looks like you trained your dragon, but considering I’m still 13, I have a lot to learn. I haven’t found my “dragon” or any similar entity of that kind, but when I do, just like you have, I will be inspired even more than I am now. Happy birthday, James and Dragon, and Good Luck.

  • guilhugas

    June 22, 2010 at 6:13 am

    You have mastered your art form with this epic motion picture, and managed to touch people’s hearts. I wish you best of luck for the future.

    -Guilherme Santos, Azores, Portugal

  • TyroneAlfonso

    June 22, 2010 at 6:30 am

    Great work, James.

    Thank you for being such an inspiration and positive influence for so many. Can’t wait for your next video, much less the big one! Rock on.

  • June 22, 2010 at 7:01 am

    Very well done. I just turned 28 and I am a filmmaker who also attended The Art Institute. This actually hit me hard. How are we going to overthrow Hollywood, if we aren’t making these feature films that they want? It’s an everyday struggle. Love this vid, James!

  • HolyJerk

    June 22, 2010 at 8:12 am

    Very nice, i was surprised when i saw this video. It’s interesting to know that a dragon inspired James to become a film maker. Really heartwarming. Great vid.
    PS: Where were you born exactly james?

  • June 22, 2010 at 8:31 am

    I’m sincerely touched.

    The dragon as a symbol for creativity and imagination. I like that metaphor. CG Jung would be proud seing his archetype still going strong. Personally I was also inspired by dragons as a child. This after reading a book in our local library about a really greedy one.

    Thanks for sharing this with us!

  • FanNR2

    June 22, 2010 at 8:37 am

    you mean if not for that dragon there wont be cinemassacre.com :( thats horible imagine no avgn no movie revievs no films :( i would kill my self !

  • ITS_ALIVE

    June 22, 2010 at 8:44 am

    We have to follow our dreams if we don’t then we have to face the fact that we might not get a second chance. James you have our support in anything you do because we’re your fans and your friends.

  • DreamMephisto

    June 22, 2010 at 8:54 am

    That was…wow. Just really good and very moving. Great job. Now you have me wondering…where’s my fountain of youth?

  • ReiKo

    June 22, 2010 at 8:56 am

    I can only say that James is one of kind… great videos, great story and please keep up the good work.

  • M3n747

    June 22, 2010 at 9:28 am

    You got me all teary-eyed. Great video, James, as always.

  • Umdrum

    June 22, 2010 at 9:43 am

    Its like that Dragon surfaced from the Earth just long enough to give that message.

  • Droid2055

    June 22, 2010 at 9:45 am

    It makes me so sad to think that they are taking your insparation away. I hope what replaces inspires just as many children to make videos like you

  • zelda-chan

    June 22, 2010 at 9:48 am

    wow just wow. amazing video James. wow. loved it!

  • AnKun

    June 22, 2010 at 9:54 am

    Wow James, I think that if you made a sobby teary drama with a mix of awesome action that would be one hell of a movie

  • fudnik

    June 22, 2010 at 10:16 am

    Really touching, James. I nearly cried ^^

    Well, what else can I say? Just keep up the good work and let’s hope you will entertain us many many years to come.

  • June 22, 2010 at 10:45 am

    Thank you. I was touched, beautiful work of yours.

  • June 22, 2010 at 10:46 am

    Wow. Great.

  • HouseMD

    June 22, 2010 at 10:46 am

    Awesome Vid! You really can make great vids, especially like this one. I enjoyed your analysis. Great Stuff.

  • Nintendo_Master

    June 22, 2010 at 11:11 am

    I was also touched by this, James. Keep it up.

  • SpikeShowdown

    June 22, 2010 at 11:15 am

    Wow James…That was…Beautiful it really made me think what my inspiration was for wanting to work with Video Games. I realized it’s a character I’ve followed all my life…Sonic it was the first game I ever played Sonic 2 and it also explains why I felt so fufilled finally beating that game…If I ever meet you I will give you a hug you most deserved

  • physicskid

    June 22, 2010 at 11:44 am

    I can’t put to words what I am feeling after watching this. As I grow and age, I always find myself looking back at my past for reflections. I just wished I learned the means to express myself with all my experiences and memories. In a way, watching this clip kinda gives me that satisfaction that there are others that feel the connection to the past and know the means to express and convey the feelings and connections. Thanks James!

  • IDaCashman

    June 22, 2010 at 12:17 pm

    Life is a really crazy ride ain’t it?

  • bick.benedict

    June 22, 2010 at 12:25 pm

    I respect a man who’s not too embarrassed to kneel down before like that before a toy in a park.

  • Jossa

    June 22, 2010 at 12:26 pm

    Great video. It’s refreshing to see some “James” from time to time and not the “Nerd” always. Keep up the good work.

  • Sakura4anime25

    June 22, 2010 at 12:47 pm

    wow that was amazing James it made me cry. I’m a Film and Video Studies major at my college. I haven’t found my “dragon” yet so I’m not sure what exactly I’m going to do but I’m sure I will someday. Hearing you talk about your first memory reminded me of my first memory. It was the day my parents adopted my little brother. We were waiting and I fell asleep on the couch and when I woke up, I had a new little brother.

  • doguapo

    June 22, 2010 at 12:49 pm

    very inspirational. this is a great piece of art, James, and I truly hope you reach as far as your aspirations will allow…and then beyond. having enjoyed your movies now for a couple years, i’m always impressed with each new piece that you produce.

    don’t stop.

  • nintendoguy15

    June 22, 2010 at 12:55 pm

    that was so touching i almost cried.Keep up the good work James.

  • June 22, 2010 at 1:07 pm

    This was just Great and impressive!

  • June 22, 2010 at 1:08 pm

    Very nice and moving.

  • June 22, 2010 at 1:17 pm

    amazing…

  • June 22, 2010 at 1:23 pm

    That’s what you get for playing too much bloody Dragon’s Lair for NES when you were a kid.

  • nintendoguy15

    June 22, 2010 at 1:26 pm

    You have really inspired me to make movies and draw comics.Your my hero James.I cry every time i watch this video.Im not gay but i love you James.You seem like a big brother to me.I’ll never forget you.

    -nintendoguy15(a.k.a Austin Brewer)

    p.s. there are tears all over my keyboard

  • Tria

    June 22, 2010 at 1:27 pm

    Very powerful. Had me crying at the end. Thank you for thsi view into the soul of an artist.

  • daggereye

    June 22, 2010 at 1:29 pm

    Really cool, I was expecting at the end to show you in the bed falling asleep dreaming the dragon waking up smiling and going back to bed happy.

  • June 22, 2010 at 1:34 pm

    Seriously, I believe that making movies, creating new stories, even writing poems, is the way we have to keep in touch with the world of dreams buried deep inside our heads, a world we can only see while falling, finally happy, in the loving arms of Morpheus.

    And now, as my poems are about to come out in a book for the first time, I had the same urge James, had….to look back, and re unite with the scary, horrifying, disturbing, smiing, beautiful monster who used to keep us company when we were little, a friend we later killed and buried during that sad process called growing up.

    But then again, I’m getting too sentimental too..

    PS: Sorry about my bad English, I’m from Italy :D

  • J-Smash

    June 22, 2010 at 1:41 pm

    Wow, I almost started crying!

  • enzio

    June 22, 2010 at 1:56 pm

    Great video James truly an inspiring one.:)

  • Vimaser

    June 22, 2010 at 1:57 pm

    Am I the only one who expected him to say “Fuck it, I’m taking it home with me” then you see him drive off in the sunset with this huge ass green dragon head on his car.

  • June 22, 2010 at 2:02 pm

    I had the same creepy ET vision when i was a kid… :-(

  • June 22, 2010 at 2:13 pm

    I really was enjoing watching this! i think its nice that you post thes kind of videos! Keep making movies!!

  • June 22, 2010 at 2:38 pm

    I cried.
    This is the first time I ever comment one of your videos, tho I’ve been a fan, since 2006.
    I admire your job.

  • MikeBridges88

    June 22, 2010 at 2:45 pm

    I thought he was gonna take it with him

  • Modigs

    June 22, 2010 at 2:48 pm

    Gaah this is so touching .. I love u james!

  • Filmmassacre

    June 22, 2010 at 2:48 pm

    WOW
    i also almost starting to cry
    this is one of your best movies james even if it’s only 9 minutes long!

  • June 22, 2010 at 3:56 pm

    I admire and respect your love and passion of films and film making. You’re truly talented.

  • LivingInFame

    June 22, 2010 at 3:59 pm

    I almost started crying, too.
    And I have to agree with Filmmassacre.

  • Kassandravie

    June 22, 2010 at 3:59 pm

    This is really touching.
    I wanted to cry!
    I wish I could have had that kind of experience but I think it’s too late now.

  • Mr. Simon

    June 22, 2010 at 4:03 pm

    Extremely inspiring. So glad for you to have found your life’s passion so early in your life. You are very fortunate my friend.

  • June 22, 2010 at 4:28 pm

    Very bittersweet and emotional. I respect that you’re not afraid to show a more personal side to yourself. When you talked about moving on from the past, it made me think back to your favorite Twilight Zone episode, “Walking Distance,” and how you shared a similar theme with the main character.

    Thank you for sharing your talent and dreams.

  • creecreehoneybee

    June 22, 2010 at 4:57 pm

    That’s an EPIC video. You are amazing at setting the mood of a film. KUDOS TO YOU AND ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HELP WITH THESE!

  • June 22, 2010 at 5:05 pm

    This is a really inspiring and emotional video. Thanks for showing your human side and sharing the origin that fed your talents. Keep up the good work.

  • gamingeek13

    June 22, 2010 at 5:26 pm

    Amazing. I came to tears when you stood in front of the dragon. James, incredible work.

  • June 22, 2010 at 5:38 pm

    I enjoyed this. Inspires me to unleash this imagination of my own.

  • June 22, 2010 at 6:06 pm

    I cried. That was great!

  • mestre12

    June 22, 2010 at 6:08 pm

    i Loved James and i fink we all have a dragon in ours dreams

  • Robban.swe

    June 22, 2010 at 6:24 pm

    Wow James i really liked watching this, its nice to see your soft side, it was almost homosexual. But if you are gay, then i am gay, and together we will be husband and wife.

    I love you James.

    Alwaaaays i wanna beee with you, and maaaake believe with you and liiive in HAAARMOOONY HAAARMOOONY!! (Erasure – Always)

    /Robert from Sweden

  • June 22, 2010 at 6:47 pm

    @ 5:15 james forgets to take off his seatbelt. heh.

  • Xois

    June 22, 2010 at 7:12 pm

    To be honest, I liked this alot. I first came here watching some disgruntled gaming geek, But I stayed really for the other things; and I might be called a loser,melodramatic or a myriad of far worse things, But this, and the cinemassacre 200 video really made me look, and I am really inspired and want persue filmaking aswell. I Don’t know what i’ll make, but I’ll always remember James

  • DarkMagicianAVPFan

    June 22, 2010 at 7:28 pm

    We’ve all had a childhood dream or nightmare that influences us later. I used to have a nightmare where the TV would turn on and somehow, I would see the Cryptkeeper on the screen. It stuck with me for all these years, just like your dragon.

  • June 22, 2010 at 7:57 pm

    Truly touching and amazing.

    Now it’s time to move on forward and make more epic videos.

    I will be waiting for them, you have my unconditional support.

    Good luck James

  • Purkinje

    June 22, 2010 at 7:58 pm

    James, thank you so much for sharing this with us. I feel like I’ve come to know you over the past few months that I’ve been watching your movies, and you have inspired me as a fan of film.

  • Bueller_007

    June 22, 2010 at 8:14 pm

    Really, really fucking good.

  • June 22, 2010 at 8:41 pm

    u r fucking awesome james. U make me a better film fan and a better gamer u r my idol and i hope u never change.

  • Unrefined

    June 22, 2010 at 9:11 pm

    Really nice piece. I really enjoyed it, gets you thinking about the past. Thanks.

  • June 22, 2010 at 9:15 pm

    Great movie James. This was one of your best, right up there with the castlevania trilogy. It was a very personal and touching story for everyone who watched, I’m sure.

  • NickReaper

    June 22, 2010 at 9:20 pm

    i’ve never known someone i relate to in so many ways, but i won’t get into that.
    my oldest memory is also of a nightmare.

    when i was very little my brother once chased me around the house with a werewolf mask. i remember when my dad caught him he tore the mask into shreds over the garbage can the next night a had a nightmare like an ed wood horror movie. i was lying in my crib and my bedroom started to get foggy, i blinked and then there were clotheslines with werewolf masks hanging on them by clothes pins. my brother appeared in my room and then it got wider and he took one of the masks off a clothesline and put it on and started coming toward me. i turned around and for whatever reason there was a skinny red cow sitting in my crib. when i woke up a shouted “DADDY DADDY DADDY” hopping up and down. my brother and sister came in and i kept yelling “DADDY DADDY”. i still remember how my dad looked in his boxers with no shirt on.

    I don’t think i’ve cried so much from an online video, i also get really sentimental about old memories, and not just nostalgia…i’ll keep this with me forever, just like that dream and the events surrounding it.

  • Classy Snake

    June 22, 2010 at 9:41 pm

    Wonderful film. I felt a bit choked up at the end when you realized it was being taken down.

  • ranto1

    June 22, 2010 at 9:55 pm

    I had a recurring nightmare involving a dragon too.. i don’t know the origin of it, but in the nightmare, i was being chased around by a huge dragon through a labyrinth, and no matter how hard i tried i couldn’t find my way. It would always end the same way, the dragon would finally catch me, and i would wake up screaming and crying..

    Very well done video. Congratulations!

  • Bran-Cor

    June 22, 2010 at 9:57 pm

    Nice to see the range James has for movies. It was a treat to see yet another side of him and his filmaking. As a fan it kind of puts a nice balance to all the AVGN stuff. I am looking forward to seeing his career take off. And I am sure eyerone else agrees

  • June 22, 2010 at 10:42 pm

    You are great… this video made me cry, it’s awesome. Please keep doing what you do as the way you do. Can’t wait to see your name at the big screen someday meanwhile keep giving us all your knowledge. Congrats.

  • Halfy

    June 22, 2010 at 10:44 pm

    Did you ask the gentleman who was taking it down if you could take it home, or were you not interested?

  • HurricaneSeb

    June 22, 2010 at 10:47 pm

    Deep video, James. I had a reoccuring dream where I was on this island called “Box Island” because there was a river in the middle of the island with boxes and tv’s and toys and stuff going through the middle! The last time i had it, i was swimming through the ocean while it was raining, then, an old lady saved me and i was in her little hut house thing that was like in the middle of the ocean! I’m gonna ask my parents or something about this!

  • June 22, 2010 at 10:59 pm

    Watched this with my kid (both of us have been long time fans) and he was rather emotional for you because you were in a way loseing your past or it looked like they were going to dispose of the dragon. He teared up about it and I guess it hit home. Very sad video James but well done.

  • mttellek

    June 22, 2010 at 11:19 pm

    This is what a real film genius does – connects to the audience. You do it, not only in film, but personally. You actually make me feel like we’re friends! That’s how good you are man. I really hope you make the feature film. I’d support you.
    ~

  • nickS

    June 22, 2010 at 11:31 pm

    very touching, good work

  • June 22, 2010 at 11:55 pm

    After just finishing Stephen King’s IT, my summer book, I’m rather surprised to see this film touching on the very same subject. I doubt you’ve missed the film version, so perhaps you know where I’m going with this (though I can’t vouch for it, having never watched it). It’s not so much about a killer clown, so much as it is about childhood, desire, imagination, the power of memory, and how it all gets altered over time as we grow up. In the story, a group of children who find the dragon of _their_ dreams and defeat it have all grown up and forgotten exactly what it was that haunted their childhoods. Now, as adults who have moved on and grown up, they forgot not only their old friends but what it was that made them who they are. They’re called back to their town to finish the deed and remember their past.

    Your film reminds me of that in many ways. One gets the sense that there’s only the vague recollection of what it was that sparked the direction of your life, and that in learning the facts surrounding it, you’re surprised and motivated. The magic of finding a place you associate more with dreams and memory than fact and substance comes across clearly and honestly. The homemade/documentary aesthetic of the filming really brought me into the shoes of someone who might be experiencing that magic firsthand.

    I feel that bearing your soul can leave a person feeling naked, or frustrated that the total sensation/experience/gravity can’t be perfectly conveyed. However, you have not hit this stumbling block, so much as I can tell. I feel that you’ve brought the viewer into your life, ever so briefly, and showed them exactly how you (intend for them to) feel.

    Thanks for this film. I feel like it’s half dedicated to all of us who grew up. Looking forward to 100 more. b ^_^ d

  • HelloFade3

    June 23, 2010 at 12:00 am

    Man if we would have known well in advance they were planning to tear that dragon down we all could have rallied together and told them not to.

  • June 23, 2010 at 12:03 am

    Very cool, James. I can totally relate.
    It’s great that you got to see it the way you remembered it, one last time. I had a very similar experience around the time I was turning thirty.

    This whole experience would make a great starting point for “feature film” *wink wink*

  • yehielc

    June 23, 2010 at 12:29 am

    thank you james
    for the videos, for the inspiration
    i’m sure you’re going to make a feature film,
    i’m waiting to check it out :)

  • PepeTopo

    June 23, 2010 at 1:10 am

    That was really awesome James.

    I think dreams are the essence of what we like to call reality,and also the source of all that can be called fiction. Every fiction has a reality that touches at least a piece of the human soul, therefore, it is no coincidence that you have so many followers. Human emotion is the place where dreams (and also, nightmares) can be shared, and as a consequence, they can be cherished.

    Think of numbers as Landmarks. Keep doing what you do best, and enjoy the hell out of it.

    Congratulations form the far side of the world!

  • MegatronPrime

    June 23, 2010 at 1:49 am

    that was touching. i always thought i was destined to do something great with my life. the most earliest dreams i had were about clocks, airplanes, cars, and destruction and ruin of the world. is this like a vision, or just a dream? and if it’s a vision, why me? why do i have that vision? who knows. did i see 2012? i dont know, i dont believe in 2012. i want to be a chef, but my gut and heart is telling me thats not the only thing you will accomplish. you’re destined to become someone greater and stronger then you are now. and when that moment comes, just hope you’re ready to face the challenges that lye ahead. it’s, like you said, about facing our fears. thats my biggest fear. everyone, everything, gone. just like that. but i also had another occurring dream. and its in the present. about facing my greatest enemies and overcoming my greatest fears.

  • Rambling Man

    June 23, 2010 at 1:52 am

    Bravo, James! This is a perfect video to wrap up the last 300 films you’ve made. I know you have the talent and the passion to make it to the big leagues! I for one can’t wait to see your first feature film.

    P.S. – I own the exact same Godzilla T-shirt you’re wearing at 4:11!

  • June 23, 2010 at 1:53 am

    That was moving. I feel sympathetic with you James, quite a bit.

    Very good flick.

  • RedAssFan

    June 23, 2010 at 1:57 am

    This was great! I don’t speak english very well, so I won’t write an essay.

  • namelesswar

    June 23, 2010 at 2:23 am

    This was an absolutely fantastic video james. Both moving and interesting, and probably the best way to celebrate your 300th video.

    james never stop doing what you love, you can do what ever you want, as long as it makes you happy.

    good luck with the rest of your flim making

    sam

  • June 23, 2010 at 2:36 am

    A really heartwarming video :) <3
    I wish you the best James, when you do make your first feature film i'll definatly get it !

  • June 23, 2010 at 3:02 am

    You should of taken the Dragon with you….

  • leon

    June 23, 2010 at 3:24 am

    I feel proud of you, James. Good work. Keep chasing your dreams! We all need to follow your example.

  • Stylix

    June 23, 2010 at 3:47 am

    Its always hard to revisit the things we loved so much as children. The mind of an adult can no longer see the same magic in things that it did in its childhood years.

  • KingB

    June 23, 2010 at 4:22 am

    I really loved this video it was so fantastic how it was set out and I think it was perfect
    My rating 10/10
    Im very proud of you James
    Good luck with ur future work

  • Doctor Cheesius

    June 23, 2010 at 4:39 am

    That’s awesome. I have a similar memory of a playground when I was very little, of a tower that I was able to climb up inside of, I remember getting so high up and it was really scary. I went back to see it again as an adult, you could no longer climb up inside the tower, but it was still there, and it actually was pretty tall.

    Good job, James.

  • Bronson

    June 23, 2010 at 4:55 am

    Very touching.

  • Ed Sigma

    June 23, 2010 at 5:07 am

    Beautiful little piece this! I was actually the same sort of way with this old spider climbing frame thing in one of the playgrounds round my way; it was the slightly creepy painted face and the way it had a bit of rust covering it that did it.

  • theymademedoit

    June 23, 2010 at 5:24 am

    I always really enjoy these little retrospective moments that you share with us and once again I feel very moved. It’s rare these days to come across such a driven individual as yourself and I know that this drive, along with your passion for movie making, will ensure that you succeed in your ambition to make that big feature. Thanks once again for giving us all further insight into the psyche of James Rolfe. I look forward to your next piece of work!

  • saboniniiam

    June 23, 2010 at 6:14 am

    wow. you probably won’t read this james, but you are a really big inspiration to me. I started out watching your AVGN videos, like most of your fans, and then i discovered that you have the same passion as me. I always say to myself that I won’t be able to do it, that I won’t be able to make movies, but you give me hope. So personally, thanks, and I might be just another person telling you the same old thing, but what you’ve done, is great and I can’t thank you enough for making these movies. Keep doing what you’re doing, and I’ll gladly keep watching. Thanks.

  • Davifflaelan

    June 23, 2010 at 8:06 am

    Very Touching.

  • June 23, 2010 at 8:08 am

    this is one the best things i’ve seen lately. There’s so much passion, creativity, sadness, hope and… i don’t know but i’m deeply moved by those 9 minutes of moving images and sound. Thank you James for being both an inspiration for me/us and for doing what you are – what you love to be at the same time, that’s a rare thing nowdays

  • June 23, 2010 at 8:58 am

    I like how your “fountain of youth” was quite literally a fountain :p
    I’m kind of the same way actually, when I was young(er) I constantly had nightmares but a light didn’t help me like it did for you so I always ran upstairs to my parent’s bedroom when I had one.
    I had a lot of different dreams but my most often recurring one was one about my parents pulling on my feet and aliens pulling on my hands (or the other way around I have no idea) but then one of them let go and I went flying off into the woods.

  • June 23, 2010 at 9:25 am

    Wow, all I can say is, I can see why you called it “Dragon in My Dreams”.

    Well done on 300 videos, hope we get to see a Cinemassacre 400!

    You know you’re early life is very similar to mine, I’m 14 right now but the way you liked to make movies is like how I make them. Although now we can get access to all kinds of cameras and programs you could only dream of as a kid. Just goes to show you, a great idea can go far.

  • k22k

    June 23, 2010 at 10:46 am

    Wow, this is fantastic. i’m really glad for you James and i hope you will keep doing what you are doing!

  • SuperNESFreak

    June 23, 2010 at 11:05 am

    Weird, my earliest memories are my dreams too.
    Happy 30th Birthday, James!

  • toyman2581

    June 23, 2010 at 12:14 pm

    James, this was really moving and truly inspirational. I was tearing up thinking about your experiences and my own childhood memories, having to grow up and move on with our lives. What a wonderful film. Thank you for all these glimpses into your life as a artist and as an intelligent and thoughtful person.

  • Heep

    June 23, 2010 at 12:29 pm

    This video makes me wonder how fast life really goes on… Do I live my life to the fullest?

    Great and touching work James!

  • AssassinJordi

    June 23, 2010 at 12:43 pm

    Amazing. There’s really nothing else I’d say.

  • Kilplix

    June 23, 2010 at 1:09 pm

    I used to hate on you a long time ago, but then after actually watching your clips I instantly connected. I’m in the same generation as you and watching your clips and seeing you express the EXACT things I feel and felt as a kid makes me feel even more nostalgic. The 80s and 90s will simply never be topped, they were seriously the best times ever for a person to live in. I find myself agreeing with nearly all of your opinions, and even the ones I don’t agree with, I understand your point of view because you explain them so well. This clip is just filled with feeling and nostalgia, it’s simply amazing. I thank you for all the clips you’ve made and shared, they’re always a nice gateway to my childhood.

  • June 23, 2010 at 1:25 pm

    man oh man i feel like crying
    james you are a master director you made me jump u made me laugh u made suprised but i never thought about were it all came from
    jAMES YOUR DOING GREAT AND IN THE FUTER U WILL DO BETTER AND MAKE THOSE FEATURE FILMS AWSOME :)

  • Rodimus440

    June 23, 2010 at 1:39 pm

    Fantastic video, James. Now I realize why I’ve always had the feeling we were kind of “built on the same frame”. This is a great message for us all.

  • cyrad

    June 23, 2010 at 2:47 pm

    It was a very touching. It makes me want to look back to where my aspirations originally came from. Where my dream of game development began.

    Thank you for sharing this with us.

  • futuramafinland

    June 23, 2010 at 2:47 pm

    This video realy moved me. Thank you, James! :D

  • WatchmenFTW

    June 23, 2010 at 2:51 pm

    Wow, I’m speechless, that was a brilliant film, you could win a bloody award for that! Bravo!

  • June 23, 2010 at 3:35 pm

    James…that video was amazing. I really felt genuinely touched by how much that dragon haunted your memories, and how it was almost a symbol for your imagination and love of film. I’m so used to your comedic videos that this was a complete surprise – and I can relate as well, because I majored in Communications and studied filmmaking. Keep at it, bro!

  • AFX

    June 23, 2010 at 3:41 pm

    I love you.

  • June 23, 2010 at 3:43 pm

    “He’s gonna take you back to the past…”

  • klone576

    June 23, 2010 at 3:46 pm

    James you’re such an inspiration! Keep it up dude!

  • Fah

    June 23, 2010 at 4:35 pm

    I’m glad you found and met with what makes you do what you do in life. It will probably inspire you for as long as you live, it has done for me so far (what inspired me to start composing). Now on towards that big goal man, making that big debut movie ! :)

  • June 23, 2010 at 4:46 pm

    I normally don’t comment on websites, but let me tell you something James, this video was so touching and inspirational to me that I had to congratulate you. You see, I’m getting really close to the “dreaded” 30′s too, and looking at all the things you’ve accomplished makes me remember my own dreams, wishes and accomplishments. I know that you probably aren’t as happy or content with what you’ve done as you, of course, should be (quoting from the video that you have never made a big debut movie), but let me tell you something. Although you don’t have achieved that dream of yours yet, never forget that the strength of your convictions is the way to open to new and higher achievments. Keep struggling to get there, never let your guard down and someday I will have the honor of watching on a big screen your name as a director and will say proudly: “Hey! James finally made it”.
    Greetings from Mexico, James and never forget that we fans will always be by your side in all the decisions you make and will support you in any way you can.

  • June 23, 2010 at 4:49 pm

    always flow you dreams no matter what my dreams are very different but i was reborn into the madness no matter keep moving on tel your energy fades away and to be reboren again

  • Wesley26508

    June 23, 2010 at 4:51 pm

    Bravo James! As a man who became 30 last July. I welcome you to the 3-0 club. Follow your dreams to the end. Leave no stone unturned and no door shut. You will be a great success if you stay true to your form and your fans.
    Keep up the good work and your fans will keep watching.

    Good Luck
    Wes G.

  • Evil milkbottle

    June 23, 2010 at 4:54 pm

    At least they didnt take the dragon away, they only moved it

  • June 23, 2010 at 5:27 pm

    Wonderful video, James. It brought me to tears.

  • Lurch80

    June 23, 2010 at 5:31 pm

    HÉ James!

    I know what you feel. I will turn 30 too this summer. It seem that a time of ours life that we want to take a look to the past. Last week, I begin a trip back to the past… by wathing the good old Transformers series! This is my origin! That what makes me the geek I am today! I am proud of it! There is nothing to be ashame of!

    This video stirs a lot of things inside of me! It good to see that I am not the only one! I just can’t wait to see you become a great film maker!

  • Zeblid

    June 23, 2010 at 5:41 pm

    A very touching and inspirational video, I must say.
    I really enjoyed reading Demonslayer’s comment(although I liked everyone else’s, too). To add to the whole “big debut movie” part, I feel the need to say that whether you know this or not: If you are truly passionate and dedicated to something, and are willing to do the grunt work, and never give up, even when you’re feeling down… You -will- achieve your goal. I live by these words, you know… Its just unfortunate that my near 19 year-old mind only realized them this very year.
    I know that you have it in you to be a director(hell, you are a director)… I know that someday I will be watching films in the theatres made by the famous Angry Video Game Nerd that I first discovered in 2007.
    The only person that can stop you from reaching your goals is yourself.(Also words that I live by, heh)

    PS: You scored major points for showing Dragon Fighter. I love that game, so much. *thumbs up*

  • Paulballsftw

    June 23, 2010 at 6:09 pm

    OMG I had the same kinda of past as you. I was always into new stuff with my friends and we had alot of imagination. I guess we never stuck with things and moved on to something new. I guess you stuck with making movies and came a long way. I always wanted to be an actor but just kept it to myself. Anyway I like how you showed us how you all became the person you are today and the video was good enough to watch. If I were you I would have asked for the dragon if they were taking it down. You could put it in your yard for memories.

  • MaximusPM

    June 23, 2010 at 6:58 pm

    that was really awesome James… nice work…

  • Anemptybox

    June 23, 2010 at 7:01 pm

    A very touching video, absolutely wonderful.

    Keep doing what you do best, James. I wish you all the best!

  • ZEON

    June 23, 2010 at 8:14 pm

    I cried
    A touching movie

  • Pruxa

    June 23, 2010 at 8:17 pm

    my god, you’re turning 30 already? Imagine, in ten years you’ll be 40 and already an old man. : ) Very inspirational video and it also made me think about my origins. Nice work as usual James.

  • TyroneAlfonso

    June 23, 2010 at 9:38 pm

    I commented yesterday but this film has made me reflect a lot on my own childhood over the last 24 hours. James, you’re a master of your art. Thanks again.

  • June 23, 2010 at 9:54 pm

    James, this is truly a touching story. You have alot to teach those of us who’ve lost touch with our inner roots.

    I remember a park from a young age myself, there was a wall there that seemed 20 feet high to me and I would always climb it and stand tall on top of it. conquering that wall filled me with a sense of achievement like I could over come anything that stood over me. I’m going to visit that park and see if that wall is still there. I haven’t seen it in probably 20 years. I hope I can touch a piece of my roots and feel a connection I’ve lost touch with again too.

    Thank you for the inspiration.

  • Cheznar

    June 23, 2010 at 10:16 pm

    wow that one got me all choked up thanks for sharin’ james…

  • Corax

    June 23, 2010 at 10:56 pm

    Great video, i think everyone has something nostalgic like this in their lives and can relate.

  • June 23, 2010 at 11:01 pm

    I think my earliest memory is from Raiders of the Lost Ark… In a similar fashion, I had asked my mom if there was a movie where a man was running from a giant rolling rock.

  • Killua Zaoldyeck

    June 23, 2010 at 11:17 pm

    Just Awesome… I love these videos, it’s like we (the viewers) get to know you better and understand how yo feel about making movies… I realy envy your motivation an dedication… the passion for what you’re doing… how your life makes sence when you make a movie… I’d love to have something that motivates me that much… You’re very lucky. You’re Awesome, James

  • June 23, 2010 at 11:35 pm

    Wow man. Awesome work! Hah, almost brought a tear to my eye.

  • cornbred9

    June 23, 2010 at 11:51 pm

    Loved it. Wonderful video. It made me think about the many figurative and literal symbolism that existed in my past that effects me today. Thanks for all the hard work and great passion.

  • hate those fucking shitty games

    June 23, 2010 at 11:59 pm

    That was touching James. brining us to when you were a child and briefing us in your history is always refreshing. Somewhat depressing but in a good way. Always remember to move forward and do what makes you happy. It may sound corny but it’s the truth. You’re so lucky to have such wonderful memories as a child. One of my earliest memories of a dream was similar to yours but it scared the shit out of me when I was a kid, instead of inspiring me. There were creatures that look like the Aliens from the movie Alien, and in my nightmare it seemed like they were hunting me down and no matter where I went they were always a few steps behind me until I woke up.

    I’m sure everyone wants to know more about you James so keep making videos and remember that all of us fans also feel like you are one of our best friends!! keep on going !! ^.^

  • JaydenCrimson

    June 24, 2010 at 12:08 am

    I think without an ounce of doubt that you have the ability to become one of if not the greatest Film makers of our generation. You work is just astounding and it never ceases to amaze me. I can only hope for the sake of everyone that you continue your passion and never give up on your dreams.

  • zastrow

    June 24, 2010 at 12:18 am

    I hope some day some rich producer gives you a pile of money to make something with. I think you could really shine with more resources.

  • June 24, 2010 at 12:25 am

    Wow….. I don’t even know what to say. While I enjoyed the touching story, this video really got me thinking about my early childhood.

    It’s the strangest feeling going to places from your early childhood, especially if you haven’t been there in a while. Our family moved right after I turned 9. We still have family who lives near where I grew up, so when we visit, we sometimes take a detour to go visit our old house and the surrounding area. We go to the parks, stores, etc. It brings back floods of memories and feelings you weren’t even aware of, and it’s honestly a little overwhelming.

    So while this video is a nice touching personal story, it’s more than that. It’s something everyone can relate to, and anybody with a heart will understand as their memories come rushing back.

  • TheChosen

    June 24, 2010 at 12:36 am

    Man….almost cried while watching this.

    You go and make that big movie James. You got the skills, and I think you deserve that change.

  • Gorgoroth

    June 24, 2010 at 1:16 am

    Pretty fuckin epic dude, I was getting all emotional lol, i can relate to that fiom well done!

  • astraton

    June 24, 2010 at 1:39 am

    Fantastic James.

    As a filmmaker who just turned 40 and ready to make my first serious movie I was wondering when you would find the time in your busy schedule to make yours. You may have answered my question, will have to wait and see.

    Many of us at this age can really relate to your sense of nostalgia and I am even surprised that you feel it so strongly at 30, but I believe it is a result of a happy childhood and some unfulfilled dreams.

    Go and make that damn movie. You have a guaranteed audience and I for one can’t wait to see what you do. That alone must be scary. Even if the film is no good I know the commentary and extras would be a blast .

    Fan for life man.

  • astraton

    June 24, 2010 at 1:42 am

    Oh, and I can’t believe they where actually about to pull the dragon out as you got there. That has to be some kind of fate or sign or whatever.

  • June 24, 2010 at 2:51 am

    damn,u shuld make a video.It would be the next hit.This world needs a good movie nowa days.

  • June 24, 2010 at 3:04 am

    Wow James that was amazing, very emotional, I really hope you do get to make a big movie, and maybe you will go back to see the dragon again someday.

  • westy_2929

    June 24, 2010 at 4:08 am

    This was really good! I used to have nightmares about E.T in almost the exact same way, looking in through the window! Whats amazing is throughout my childhood it was my most watched movie because I loved it! Keep up the brilliant work! If i ever become rich Ill throw money your way to make that feature film!

  • June 24, 2010 at 7:07 am

    Wow it’s amazing and really touching…
    A man who chases a childs dream … even through reality bites hard

    I assume that you are planning to make some big fictured movie?
    I really want to see your movie in theater

    But don’t make another horror movie, yourture talent is not with special effect or making mindless holywood movies. I think you should write somthing that is in your heart, like this one.

  • Gavie

    June 24, 2010 at 7:08 am

    Awesome man, you have some guts to share your youth story and emotions with your audience. I can imagine it’s hard not always knowing how your fans will react to your work.
    On the other hand, viewers that get to know you will become hooked to your videos more easily. I know I am.

    Thanks for sharing, and I’m sure you will make that feature film one day. Especially since we live in a time where tv and internet are merging, the big audience (and producers) will find you one day.

  • Isuru-SL

    June 24, 2010 at 7:49 am

    This fucker isn’t loading…

  • Karate Kid Icarus

    June 24, 2010 at 8:06 am

    I have had a lot of things happening in my life for a while now…i wish i could have sent you something i made to help

    i think we can all connect with that photo though and the loss that would be inherent to one…you portrayed that connection well…shame i wasn’t able to send you my music

  • June 24, 2010 at 8:34 am

    You sir are amazing. Love this video more than the “nerd” ones. This just seems like the real James as himself just being honest. More like this for sure but don’t give up the nerd! We need our monthly nerd fix. This did almost bring a tear to my eye and made me think of my childhood as I am almost 30 too. Thank you James, never stop!

  • Aberrance

    June 24, 2010 at 9:07 am

    As always, no comment:) I like all of your videos nerd, bullshit man and all others. I’m happy for you that you can make the thing that make you feel alive. I’m just like your age, so the movie has touched me very deeply. Sorry for my bad english. Cheers from Bulgaria:)

  • Alyxx

    June 24, 2010 at 9:50 am

    I cried. I rarely cry at internet movies but this did. All i can say is that I have the deepest respect for your work and passion for it.

  • PMart15

    June 24, 2010 at 10:17 am

    Wow, that was amazing, I used to have a reoccuring dream where I would fall asleep and a car would drive down my driveway and monsters would come trough my window, it sparked my love for fear and movies as well

  • Crowbar

    June 24, 2010 at 10:53 am

    The fucking ScrewAttack-Player doesn’t work -.-

  • Crowbar

    June 24, 2010 at 11:05 am

    Okay, now it works. And… wow. Just wow.

  • JayEff

    June 24, 2010 at 11:13 am

    This might very well be your most awesome film, at least among the ones I’ve watched yet (judged by how much I enjoyed watching it – otherwise how could I compare it to AVGN or a horror movie?). Most of what I’d like to say has already been said by Killua, in fact, what he said is exactly what I feel, too (funny, how he likes the same manga character as I do). It was indeed very touching. I love it when you tell us about what you’re thinking, as in “the head incident” and I demand more. :)
    I’m also amazed how many people actually decided to write a comment on this non-AVGN-film, all I can say is: it deserves this.

  • sloth_machine

    June 24, 2010 at 11:21 am

    I didn’t think you could top Cinemassacre 200, but 300 was amazing.

    I am the same age as you James, so I can relate with all the same technology that we grew up with and creative measures we had to take with our limited resources. Only books, radio, television and imagination. It is surprizing to think how different it would be if internet and more common place digital technology was available then, but I am proud to grow up in a generation just before the boom of online and digital technology.

    Both 200 and 300 made me reflect on my youth as well. I feel just like how you feel, nostaligia is one of man’s greatest pleasures. It’s always an amazing feeling to look back on what made you who you are today. Toys, games, art, films, family, the house you grew up in, the bike you rode, or in your case, the Dragon at the park. It’s a powerful emotion that at the same times makes you move forward with what you have experienced and learned.

    I turn 30 at the beginning of next year, I have a wife and a 8 month old son. Everything him and I go through makes me reflect on how I was raised, and what my parents went through with me. I make sure to take plenty of photos and video of him because one day this will be a nostaligic moment that my future self will want to revist, and my adult son will want to see. And I will always encourage him with where ever his talents will want to take him, just as our parents did for us.

    Best of luck to you James! I look forward to everything you create.

    -nick

  • Jimfuruncle

    June 24, 2010 at 11:55 am

    This is the end my friends… James is revered as a god… No talent anymore, just “me” “my mom” “my life””my dreams” … I wont suck you balls like everyone…
    Stop crying and try to make subtiltles for non-English people (coz we like your work so much in europe but i gess you don’t care)

  • June 24, 2010 at 12:51 pm

    Incredibly charming video, James. That shit pumps me to go do things and I’m not even really into film.

  • ReynoldsM

    June 24, 2010 at 12:52 pm

    Thank you, James, for showing us the facets of your heart and mind. To explore where we come from, especially our most simple of thoughts and feelings that make us human, is something to treasure and learn from.

  • BlackEyeVision

    June 24, 2010 at 2:34 pm

    I guess this is goodbye to the angry video game nerd as well…
    * sniff * sniff
    Good luck trying to make it BIG with your films!

  • June 24, 2010 at 3:13 pm

    This was wonderful. I really enjoyed watching it and it makes me reflect on some of my own childhood memories. The direction, audio, and camera work was fantastic! I give it a 10 / 10!

  • June 24, 2010 at 3:34 pm

    Nice bit of cinematography James. Pushed all the right buttons.

  • June 27, 2010 at 9:43 pm

    Glad to see your site has returned to working order, James. Hope everything else is ok after the tornado disaster. Have a good week, James.

  • June 27, 2010 at 9:55 pm

    @TwistedSpeech

    Thanks buddy!

  • Butch Bitch

    June 27, 2010 at 10:06 pm

    YES! Cinemassacre is back up! I hope that no serious shit went down during the storm. It’s great to hear back from you man!

  • JayRam

    June 27, 2010 at 10:49 pm

    Great video, man. Very inspiring.
    I got ahold of a documentary a few days ago on the history of special effects in movies and how it inspired filmmakers of today to make their own movies. Some of the people who are interviewed are Peter Jackson, John Landis & Ray Harryhausen, among others. It’s called “The Sci-Fi Boys.” If you haven’t seen it, check it out. It’s worth watching.

  • bluewinkle

    June 27, 2010 at 10:58 pm

    WOW! Another Cinemassacre masterpiece! It brought tears to my eyes. James, I love your films. They are heartfelt pieces of shear brilliance, and i think this is one of your best films yet! I would love to see your films on the silver screen someday!

  • strint519

    June 27, 2010 at 11:37 pm

    Great film James. Very touching.

  • June 28, 2010 at 12:02 am

    This is beautiful!! it made me cry!! me being 16, i did not go from sound to video, not like you did. i did, however have Mr Micraphone (i think thats what its called) and then, i used to love to play with my moms vhs recorder. she then upgraded to a dvd recorder and i was given the vhs recorder. it was about 10 years old, and it messed up in a couple years. moms also broke. we then got a camera a short time later. it took video and it had a huge memory cartrige! that was given to me when she bought her kodak. i love to make video and i love to act (mostly behind a camra) this video really inspired me to do what i want in life! Thank you James, thank you!!

  • Spoongoonkay

    June 28, 2010 at 1:08 am

    It’s never easy to to let go of your childhood. I really enjoyed this video, it seemed kinda sad though, but it really captured other moods too. I look forward to seeing more videos or even a future film from you. Dont let go of your dream, your really good at what you do.

  • Gioray

    June 28, 2010 at 1:20 am

    I cant describe my emotions… But this film touchs the heart.

  • Jayden

    June 28, 2010 at 1:32 am

    u really know how 2 tell a story

  • nightsystem

    June 28, 2010 at 2:20 am

    This was by far the most moving video that I have ever seen. It really reminds me of how it felt for me when I was a kid with all that fear locked up in mind at night, and to realize that it was just my imagination running wild. What makes really happy about seeing this video is that James works hard to achieve his dreams. He works hard and loves what he does. I look up to him because he just a normal person just like all of us that have those dreams that need to be accomplished. I cried when I was moved by the fact that James keeps on working hard ever since he was kid to be where he as at right now. I look up to you James and I hope that others will do the same and keep working hard for what they love the most…regardless how long it may take.

  • Sir Vejeiro

    June 28, 2010 at 4:45 am

    very touching and completely diff style but still by far the best video you posted james.

    maybe thats another step into diff perspective that you should explore.

    glad u back and good luck on future projects.

  • June 28, 2010 at 5:47 am

    James thank you for sharing this amazing piece of your private side and search for the source for your creativity.
    This movie had so much power and emotion and constantly kept me interest in what will he show/tell next. The pace is so amazlingly slow for your doing that it just feels different but it is still a 100% CM.
    Being a viewer for 3 years already made this movie feeling kind of personal.
    If you EVER need some help with audio or something todo with Holland I am your man.
    Long time fan.
    Lots of creative and game love from Amsterdam.

    Carf!

  • 19Szabolcs91

    June 28, 2010 at 6:00 am

    Once again, this is so inspirational!

    I love your works, James, you deserve every bit of fame you have on the internet.

  • bergAgreb

    June 28, 2010 at 7:18 am

    Nice Work James,
    Love your work,I wish you and your family all the best!

    PS: When will there be a new AVGN Episode?

  • Pzsnr

    June 28, 2010 at 7:28 am

    “I am the Dragon. And you call me insane. You are privy to a great becoming, but you recognize nothing. To me, you are a slug in the sun. You are an ant in the afterbirth. It is your nature to do one thing correctly. Before me, you rightly tremble. But, fear is not what you owe me. You owe me awe.”
    Recognize? :D Just thought it was a suitable quote since you probably like that movie.

  • oomdb

    June 28, 2010 at 8:53 am

    Eh… ok.. a dragon huh ?
    Funny stuff but…
    MORE A V G N please !

  • Argentines_dont_wear_sombreros

    June 28, 2010 at 9:07 am

    Wow… amazing! you’ve made it so simple, but so moving! I think that is with this kind of videos that you really shou your talent, because you prove humor is not the only think you can do, nor the best.
    I hope to see that big movies soon!

  • nerdy nerd

    June 28, 2010 at 10:58 am

    I agree with argentines dont wear sombreros but i think it´s sad that they move away the bottom of over 300 movies.

  • June 28, 2010 at 11:06 am

    James,

    I don’t think you could ever know how many people this video spoke to but going by the comments so far the list is endless. This isn’t just a good video for the fans but a truely great video that anyone who had a childhood MUST see.

    When I was a kid my earliest memories were at a schoolyard playground by my grandparents’ house. (Both are still standing today.) The playground has had many a facelift over the 3 decades, (I’m 33,) but this one wooden structure with a pirate ship wheel has never changed. It’s exactly the same way it was when I took a dive into the flooded waters in the spring of 1980-81.

    I still go there to this day at night whenever I need to do some serious thinking or to find direction. It’s always our earliest memories that help shape our future good or bad.

    I hope you continue making videos on the web because there are few in our industry that are on your level and nobody does it quite like you do. Jerry Garcia said it best;

    “To become truely great you have to go beyond being the best at what you do and become the ONLY one who does what you do.”

    You have done that over the years and we definitely need you as the industry gets bigger. If you do end up making features, I’m sure they will be every bit as good as your past works here.

    Drop me a line if you ever need any help getting a feature made.

    Thank you for posting this video, hopefully the weather is improving where you are and have a happy early 30th Birthday!

    Chris G.

  • June 28, 2010 at 11:27 am

    that was verry sad and thats the only time i saw a picture of the exorcist and wasnt scared.

  • June 28, 2010 at 1:30 pm

    1992-2001 Penguins Logo FTW!!!!

  • ZombiePaul

    June 28, 2010 at 1:56 pm

    Impressive yet again, James.

    Powerful stuff.

  • JediRob

    June 28, 2010 at 5:23 pm

    Fantastic job James. You surprise me every time.

  • aryanthegreat

    June 28, 2010 at 5:39 pm

    I love all of James’ videos but this one made me quite emotional. The nostalgia in this short-movie was palpable and I felt every attached to James’ dragon even though I knew nothing about it before seeing this. I suppose it made me think of my own past and the things which had inspired me that made me who I am today. James said something in there that made me think, it is true we need to move forward and leave the past in the past, as much as we love our memories we cannot let our nostalgia hinder our progressio into the future, however what we take from our memories is its inspiration WHICH I THINK is what James was getting at.

    JAMES I LOVED THIS VIDEO! BRAVO MAN!

  • mirbo

    June 28, 2010 at 6:35 pm

    Another great movie!

  • nammm3

    June 28, 2010 at 7:09 pm

    super touching. great video!

  • juswhitey

    June 28, 2010 at 8:27 pm

    Awesome. I got goosebumps

  • fattyluvboat

    June 28, 2010 at 9:09 pm

    WHY DIDN’T YOU TAKE THE DRAGON WITH YOU BEFORE THEY RENOVATED THE PLAYGROUND NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! That would have been so awesome if you put it on top of your car and kept it inside your house!!

    Anyways, this was a such a great short film. You did a wonderful job on what is important to you without it being cheesy, and anyone can relate to their nostalgia from their childhood. It was genuinely touching, which is difficult to pull off these days. Someday you really need to make a feature film and destroy the garbage that is considered movies these days.

  • Hardgrave

    June 28, 2010 at 9:37 pm

    I cried. lol the nerd made me cry because I know exactly how it feels to face somthing from your past. not so much because its sad but I honestly don’t know what it is I’m not so good with emotions.

  • June 28, 2010 at 10:03 pm

    That is good stuff and especialy its very moving about ur origin. It is very sad that something from your childhood is being renivated it is like the samething were i live there removing stuff changing everything that was there when I was a kid. I want you to be on the big screen, LITERALLY I want to see your name on there.

  • June 28, 2010 at 10:59 pm

    Wow James. That was great.

    I don’t know what to say really. I loved it. It was simple yet powerful.

  • Zlagie

    June 28, 2010 at 11:52 pm

    That was inpiring, not to mention sad. Another grat job james. How can you NOT be on the big screen by now!?!?

  • June 29, 2010 at 12:33 am

    James, I was really moved to tears, man…….this was amazing…..probably your first real dramatic masterpiece. It speaks volumes, the level of emotion you managed to elicit. It made me start thinking of the playground near and around the neighborhood where I grow up. Where I saw my friend break his arm, were I learned how to run up a slide, where I’d grow up and have my first kiss………and it got me thinking, now that I’m also 30, I think it’s about time I go back and visit that place.

    We all have dreams, and those dreams are what make us who we are. You’re a true artist, James. This is by far my favorite video…….feature, AVGN, Board James, SPIKE, etc….everything. Don’t ever stop making film, man. This is who you are.

    Again, thanks.

    Joe

  • timster

    June 29, 2010 at 1:15 am

    Wow… Very moving and inspiring. I really enjoyed watching this piece, and I could see that you really put your mind and heart to this one. Dreams, in an indirect manner, are there to guide and instill something in us, and you had yours to shine a path of inspiration in your life in the form of a Dragon. Going to that spot where it all began for you must have been a big charge of nostalgia and emotion, and sharing this special moment with your fans is really touching. Great work James, and let the dragon continue to inspire you!

    Tim

  • June 29, 2010 at 3:12 am

    Best movie yet

  • June 29, 2010 at 3:21 am

    I literally bawled when you found your fountain of youth and this is the second time I’ve watched it

  • June 29, 2010 at 6:38 am

    great video james! now start making a full lenght film! :D

  • avgnfan3

    June 29, 2010 at 11:02 am

    Oh My …. I am so stupid for watching this video only now. I saw that drawing on this page with the title “the dragon in my dreams” and i thought it was just a random video of James, nothing avgn related or other of his things, so i didn’t bother to watch it, until today when I read the smaller letters that said “cinemassacre 300″ . I was like AAHHH!!! I can’t believe i missed this since last monday!!!!

    But nevertheless, I watched it, and I was happy to, it’s such a warm and fguzzy feeling to go back to something in your past, and remember, and painfully put it behind you and look forward. I so agree, it’s very touching and sentimental. Thank You James for this. I am sure years down the line, many people will remember you when they see your name in the credits of a movie trailer.

  • June 29, 2010 at 12:55 pm

    this is a massive piece of art. the whole story and the video with the music just went so well . i also had my own connection i always had a fear of E.T. with recurring dreams with odd stuff in. just had to say this was amazing and thnak you

  • tman3944

    June 29, 2010 at 2:23 pm

    Execellent story James, Seeing that video and watching you describe the origin of your imagination was awesome. I’m sure your defintely going to get a real movie deal with your talent. Keep it James!!

  • June 29, 2010 at 2:25 pm

    I really love the emotion that this video was trying to get across. I love how It’s like visiting the holy grounds of a forgotten mythical lost city or artifact like an Indiana Jones movie. Very well thought out and very well executed my only wish was that this should be submitted to the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences so I could be qualified for an Oscar nomination for best Documentary Short. I know I sound a little unrealistic but that how I really felt after seeing it. It’s by far the best work you have done.

  • Endless Mike

    June 29, 2010 at 5:15 pm

    Man, that was touching. Great work, so much heart in it, thanks alot.

  • June 29, 2010 at 5:23 pm

    Hi James!
    Im 20 years old man from Finland. I have been your huge fan since 2007-08(dont remember) and this is my first post to you!

    Reason I commented this video is because u made my tears fall. You just spoke so sensitively and everyone in this world have something what has affected their imagination.

    Thanks James! Thanks!
    you just made my life worth living of. ;’ )
    Olli

  • Xaviervonrottie

    June 29, 2010 at 8:08 pm

    30 is only a number. It has come and gone for me. You will see nothing ever changes about your self but your age. You and only you decide what you wish to follow. Never give up on a dream.

  • 67celtic

    June 29, 2010 at 8:59 pm

    Wow James what a very moving vid. Keep up the goood work!

  • June 29, 2010 at 9:02 pm

    Wow dude. You’re my favorite movie make and I must say that this short-film was one of the most touching things I have ever seen. I thank you for this

  • KO Stradivarius

    June 29, 2010 at 9:33 pm

    I’m so happy for you that you got to revisit the dragon. Like you, my earliest vivid memory is a nightmare I had when I was five. It’s amazing how much of an effect our childhood experiences influence who we become. Rather than a camera, my imagination led me to write. Admittedly, you James have inspired me to write “Angry Literature Nerd” essays. You and this video are an inspiration.

  • Rigel7

    June 29, 2010 at 10:36 pm

    Wow. Just wow. 300 movies, and still counting. Hope to see 400, 500, and beyond, and that your dream of creating a feature length film comes true.

  • June 29, 2010 at 10:38 pm

    Incredible work James, you need to be a hollywood movie director man. Keep following your dreams, you’ll get there for sure. You have too much talent.

  • N0body

    June 29, 2010 at 10:43 pm

    Manly tears were shed this day.
    I’ll be following till the day you stop.

  • Solati

    June 29, 2010 at 10:51 pm

    This was, without a doubt, the most touching video I’ve ever seen. It was so emotional, and I think it’s awesome being able to see the origins of such a great filmmaker.

    Keep it up, James. Keep following your dreams of entertaining the masses, you never fail at that.

  • stayordie

    June 29, 2010 at 11:34 pm

    Im a 12 yr old guy who is very sad for some reason and when I watched this it really got to me because even tho im depressed and 12 everything about my past makes me smile the home movies,the pictures i just loved my youth and its almost over and i can know what it fells like. sentimental.

  • Enochcain

    June 29, 2010 at 11:37 pm

    I have been a fan of yours for quite some time James, I have never created an account before this video though. I clicked on this link expecting some silly or slapstick comedy or horror and never expected this. I was moved to tears, I can really relate with what you said. I am but 22 years old but have already started to feel the stings of nostalgia creep up. I don’t really know how else to say this but it was just really moving and inspiring, I personally hope you never stop making movies because I guarantee I will always be there to watch them.

    Good luck in the future my friend.

    Enochcain.

  • Absu315

    June 30, 2010 at 12:30 am

    your best work yet, in my opinion

  • jklinkhardt

    June 30, 2010 at 12:30 am

    You walk funny

  • June 30, 2010 at 12:33 am

    it really touched me!! I love your films

  • cbanc

    June 30, 2010 at 1:11 am

    wow this is truly a masterpiece of film even though it was less than 10 minutes this actually sent chills down my spine of how amazing this truly was. I have never commented on a video of yours before but not showing my appreciation of this would be a horrible waste. I am looking forward to all of your future work

  • June 30, 2010 at 2:57 am

    You know Mr. Rolfe, you may not think so, but what you do , when it comes to things like this, is very inspiring. Thanks, and be true to yourself.

  • kestin46

    June 30, 2010 at 3:17 am

    W0W that was amazing i was actually thinking about suicide but now i feel like life is worth living

  • June 30, 2010 at 6:03 am

    That may be the best video you’ve done. Very moving. I’m 27 and I have no idea what happened to that 7 year old kid. Life moves so slow that it lulls you into this false sense of time. Then before you know it, 20 years have passed.

  • dr3amhak3r

    June 30, 2010 at 9:44 am

    James, this video amazed me and surely other that are big fans of you, once again you proved to all of us what can you do with a camera and imagination while fighting your chilhood mysteries , just brilliant in my opinion, and I truly hope that you continue to amaze us.

  • Toxic

    June 30, 2010 at 9:46 am

    I can say that visiting places of childhood has always been something special for me. The fact of getting to a certain place after a long time recreates the whole atmosphere and feelings that you exerienced in your past. You’ve got in this place, James. Thank you for this video!

  • BigCountry

    June 30, 2010 at 9:48 am

    I know this is just more of the same already posted, but……excellent! Plain and simple! I’ve been a fan for about a year now, but only lately have I realized how talented and well-rounded you are! I really hope you do realize all your dreams, so keep up the great work!

  • Poshojuta

    June 30, 2010 at 9:58 am

    Very touching!
    You’re a very talented movie maker James, whatever you do in the future, being AVGN or something else, I’ll always be a fan of you!

  • xade76

    June 30, 2010 at 10:42 am

    James, I’ve been using this site for about 5 months now (so I haven’t been around here for a while), yet I can relate to you in many ways. I’m gonna be only 18 in a week from now, and my most cherished thoughts are of the memories of when I was a child. Your childhood imagination helped turn you into a fantastic and deep film maker, while mine have blessed me with the passion to create video games. Oh yeah. Your passion started with a dragon in your dreams, while mine started with humble games for the SNES and N64 (yeah, I didn’t quite grow up with “quarter eaters” or an Atari, although I can learn to appreciate the roots).

    Also, like a lot of other people who commented on this video, I created this account only moments ago to leave this message! I wish you the best of luck in your life, and I look forward to keeping in touch with your future creations on Cinemassacre. :D

  • Sh1t p1ckl3

    June 30, 2010 at 10:56 am

    that was touching. i knew what you mean in many ways, you put alot of heart into it. YOUR THE BOMB, MAN , YOUR THE EFFIN BOMB.

  • Snorre

    June 30, 2010 at 10:58 am

    James!!
    I have never missed out on ANY of your video productions since the year 2006! This… After four years, is the first time I have ever commented on one of your videos…
    I just want you to know, that you are a great dude, and a fantastic source of inspiration!
    It’s also awesome to see that all your inspiration and imagination, somewhat came from your subconsciousnes!! Keep going James! And if someone think that your work sucks monkeyfuck, I still believe that you are, by far, one of the greatest guys on the triple W.

    Love from Norway!

  • Will Mendez

    June 30, 2010 at 11:40 am

    James,

    I feel that a good filmmaker is a person who can make you think and your video definitely did that. I could sense of the emotion on your face as you looked onto the dragon remebering simpler times. I think the most symbolic part whether it was planned or not is how you knelt in front of the dragon almost as if you regressed back to that time in your childhood. I couldn’t help but to think back to my own childhood to the things that brought me both joy and to a lesser extent dread. Although that dread was more specific to the things my own subconcious would create.Excellent video and I wish you continued success in all your endeavors.

    Will

  • Migz13

    June 30, 2010 at 1:03 pm

    Again.. phenomenal work James.
    This video is probably the first one you made that impacted me emotionally as much as it did you. I also had my share of childhood memories that made me into the guy I am today and probably the rest of my life.
    Anyway, keep it up and stay inspired as always!

  • Porongoso

    June 30, 2010 at 1:09 pm

    Wow i agree with Snorre, iven following you since 2006 and never posted, because im always lazy to create accounts, etc, but you know after the time cinemassacre goes offline i say fuck that i have to post something and well i dont wanna be repetitive so, James you are great! I enjoy every video that you make, and when i have nothing to do, ive downloaded crappy movies that you reviewed and let me enjoy my day watching old days movies like deathstalker :P well thats it all, sry for my bad english, greetings from Argentina!!!

  • westsider_gw

    June 30, 2010 at 1:58 pm

    Dear James,
    I’ve been watching your stuff for years now… and I really do love it all.
    But after watching this video I finally have to comment on something
    for the first time (like others have apparently also).

    This video for some reason touched my heart or some bs like that
    because it made me think back to my childhood and I fucking cried
    man.

    Made me feel a little better about my day.
    Thanks.

  • June 30, 2010 at 2:04 pm

    wow…

  • M1nD_sL4v3R

    June 30, 2010 at 3:54 pm

    James,

    Long time watcher, first time poster; I have to agree with everyone else, this film really hit home with me and as such inspired me to actually register and comment. I just graduated from SUNY Fredonia with a bachelor’s degree in chemistry two months ago, and I am leaving NY state in a matter of days to live in Maryland and start my career and my own life.
    Watching this made me remember living in NY in my childhood home, and all of the things that inspired and shaped me as a child, which I will now be leaving behind. I guess it’s good to know that there are others in the world that feel the deep sense of nostalgia that I do, and I’m glad you made me remember all those times.
    Your work is fantastic and above all inspiring, and I pray that you are able to continue these small projects well into the future; I am far overdue for this, but thank you so much.

    –Jeremy

  • jfeigl

    June 30, 2010 at 4:02 pm

    Ya dude – every since I watched the TMNT vid in 2006 I was hooked and have been following closely ever since.

    Very inspiring – I’ll buy you beers when you come to ATL

  • June 30, 2010 at 4:11 pm

    I Hope U make A MOVIE It Ill be awesome and unforgetteble like Back to The Future, Or other Classics I Started At AVGN thats when I really so the world of video games And stated Actually buying some Old School, Zealda, Mario and much games.

  • June 30, 2010 at 4:12 pm

    BTW Everybody from the world Follows U
    GREETINGS FROM COLOMBIAM-U.S.A.

  • krakenslayer

    June 30, 2010 at 4:14 pm

    I didn’t cry, but I punched a man who did! :)

  • Blady

    June 30, 2010 at 4:22 pm

    I can’t belive that im going to say but.. This made me cry o_o

  • Ents

    June 30, 2010 at 4:25 pm

    Young you looks like the kid from AVGN Halloween

  • June 30, 2010 at 4:47 pm

    I consider this video your best work. It made me cry…

  • June 30, 2010 at 5:04 pm

    Childhood memories like this is the reason the end of Toy Story 3 had my crying.

  • rokiisun

    June 30, 2010 at 5:06 pm

    A truely inspiring film.

    I believe that every once in a while almost all human beings wish they could go back to the past to relive a memorable childhood experience – but it’s true in what you say, although it feels good to have a taste of that nostalgic feeling it’s also good to live for the present.

    I also agree that the video camera is the best invention man ever made.

  • frostare

    June 30, 2010 at 5:46 pm

    I´m sure this comment won´t do but… That was some DEEP AWESOME AND USEFUL MORAL I CAN STRONGLY RELATE TO. If not everyone…
    I was fighting off memories when I came to the very same conlusion that you did in this video. We have to use our memories to our advantage, even the ones that seem to hinder us. Only in that way we become stronger to face the real problems in our life. Thanks for sharing your childhood with us James.

  • v_lez

    June 30, 2010 at 6:33 pm

    you have show ur soul to us… and its gay!!
    nah i keed, ur work is always really great! congrats

  • baconsizzler

    June 30, 2010 at 7:01 pm

    I admit I started being a fan of your because of your AVGN videos and have rarely watch many of your videos outside of AVGN, You Know Whats Bullshit, Boardjames, and your movie reviews. The drawing on the front page made me check it out, and I’m glad I did.

    I’m not a emotional guy and hardly ever show them even during some of the saddest movies. The way you we’re able to analyze life in general didn’t just tug at my heartstrings, it full on pulled them as hard as they could. I just want you to know this one video has inspired me to finally find my direction in life and go for it full force.

    Thank you for keeping me entertained and I can’t wait till I see your first Hollywood production.

  • Armando

    June 30, 2010 at 7:06 pm

    James you did it again this video is really touching and inspiring Me and you we’re alike in a way as a child I too was facinated by Movies and always wanted to be apart of that life so I made movies just like you have and yes the first movies are always the corniest ones but it really didnt matter what always mattered was using that imagination we have in our minds.

    when i watch your videos I can relate to it and your expierence as a gamer I don’t just watch your videos because your funny and you repeatedly swear I watch them because they have a meaning in them and thats not what most people think when they see them. I may sound like a douche I know but James, your like a big brother to me. even though we never met or will ever meet and live about a 1000 miles apart from each other but we have a connection (WEIRD…. I SOUND LIKE A QUEER!!! LOL) NEVERMIND

    Anyway I am a huge fan I have been watching all your videos from the start and I owe a lot to you as a fan and as a mentor best of luck to you and have a good one

    -Armando

  • Christian

    June 30, 2010 at 7:13 pm

    Its these memorys that keep us going your big screen debut shall come i know it keep going dont giv up and you shall succeed

  • zakdwyer

    June 30, 2010 at 7:32 pm

    You’re extremely talented, James; I don’t know why you’re not on the big screen yet, besides maybe your preference of working independently. Your videos are like a time machine to me, man; I see that NES, or that Genesis, and I’m suddenly taken back into the old days. Those game systems were all that I had – my parents were always passed out or sick from drugs – and those things were what got me through my childhood. In this video, you made a lot of people realize (especially me) that you’re all about nostalgia, and taking your viewers back into another time – reliving the simpler times of entertainment for our generation. Well I thank you for that, and I hope you get to where you want to go in your career (if you’re not already there). The AVGN series, this short film, and all of your videos dealing with nostalgia are much more entertaining than that crap on television. It may sound like just another fan ramble but you know your target audience. And you’ve yet to let them down, as far as I can tell.

    Keep it up, man.

    - Zak

  • Somunchy

    June 30, 2010 at 7:52 pm

    I’ve been watching your videos since 2006, and I watch each and every last one of them, multiple times, usually. But after watching this video, I needed to register an account, because this was extremely touching. A tear came to my eye watching this. I believe that if you keep on moving forward, you’re going to be something great one day, and I hope that you can achieve your dream. Good luck, James.

  • T-Newt

    June 30, 2010 at 8:08 pm

    This was amazing. It’s always great to look back at your past memories.

  • Sakon

    June 30, 2010 at 11:36 pm

    First off in my opinion one of your best vid it calls up old memorys and emotions . i watch your videos now for a longer time it started all on youtube since then i watch most of your stuff and i must say this vid makes me remember that i had in the childhood dreams about dragons too and stuff always returning in dreams but i found my place too it’s a great feeling and from that point you life your life a bit more . And Respect to the timing!

    Carry it on AngryVideoGameNerd(James)

    Greetings from Europe (Germany)

  • tonystark818

    June 30, 2010 at 11:38 pm

    I actually cried at the end of this video.

    I accidentally found you when I was searching for the Ninja Turtles theme on you tube back in 2007. Everything you said about the game was so true and everything you experience with most of the games you reviewed had a similar effect on me.

    I’m 27 years old and I came from the same video game era that you did.

    James, you truly are a master of your craft. You’ll always have my support.

    Tony S.

  • mariogomez

    June 30, 2010 at 11:51 pm

    its amazing how you always get the point in all the kind of stuff you made,
    you’re a great source of inspiration.

    first post since 06, i admire how you and your succes have grown trought time

    entertainment genius

    -Mario from Mexico

  • ShutterBabe

    July 1, 2010 at 10:09 am

    I just recently graduated from high school and have been having a lot of emotional stress lately. Lots of nostalgia has been running through my head and has made me miss my childhood. On a particularly sad day, I checked your website as I do most every day, and found this video… It was the assurance that I had been looking for, telling me that it was alright to let things go… To cherish them rather than to miss them. Thank you James, this really made me feel better : )

  • Reul

    July 1, 2010 at 10:50 am

    I really hope you get to make the big movie, and soon :) it’s been great watching your style evolve over the years . The passion you have for film making shows in all of your videos, even in the nerd videos. But the non nerd stuff lately is amazing, like this one. ;) i never expected i’d feel inspired by someone who hangs out with a shit pickle.
    :) keep going im sure we’ll always support you making things like this.

  • innerfire23

    July 1, 2010 at 11:57 am

    This is the first time i ever leave a comment but i just really want to say:

    You have a HUGE potential James Rolfe, i believe in you at 300%, make those dreams come true !

  • VEDO

    July 1, 2010 at 1:38 pm

    can wait for u to hit the big screen when i see James Rolfe on a movie poster im in

  • July 1, 2010 at 2:02 pm

    Like Sakon said, this is one of the best vids yet, and you are exposing yourselve so much.
    Ive accidently slipped in on your site and i got stuck with your videos early and can see alot of myselve in you and your charactar.
    Thats probably why i like your videos.

    Keep up the awesome work man.

  • July 1, 2010 at 2:34 pm

    That was so sweet! By the end of the video I was in tears. You really are a great filmmaker and person. I believe in you James! Keep up the excellent work! :)

  • raddaluigi

    July 1, 2010 at 5:51 pm

    The effect is weakened by the description. “They told me the dragon is being moved to the front of the park.” Oh, well, it’s still gonna be there.

    Most of my past is gone, but the memories are enough for me to live on.

    …That rhymes.

  • kirkfat

    July 1, 2010 at 6:04 pm

    A really touching film, showing how much you’re growing as a filmmaker. I really hope someone gives you a budget, a project, and lets you run wild.

    I know that you have more aspirations than the nerd, and I fully support and encourage that. The nerd is a guilty pleasure, but these videos are so emotionally and intellectually satisfying in a way that the shit pickle can never be.

  • TheShadowRealm

    July 1, 2010 at 6:31 pm

    Wow really touching, I starting watching your films only after I watched AVGN and found out you had a whole web site, but I gotta say AVGN is my least favorite of your video’s compared to all this….. Though I do love your nerd videos

  • osteass

    July 1, 2010 at 6:41 pm

    Wow.., this is probably the most inpiering film i’ve ever seen, actually getting kinda teary-eyed. I’m really looking forward to the day I can see you in the credits of an awesome classical horror movie. I’m just 15, but I have plans of making lots of amateur films, one in particular, where I have all the scenes and angles in my head allready, just have to get of my ass, and this movie kinda helped me realize that I have to chase my dreams. Thanks, man. Love you’re work.

  • July 1, 2010 at 7:33 pm

    When I was a little (3 year old?) kid I had some kind of nightmare. It was me playing at school with my friends, than suddenly they ran all away or so. After that a dragon came down the sky and started chasing me. I ran away and ran so hard that I started flying. I don’t remember what happened after that.
    I never had this dream again but I think about it like every day. I think because of this dream I am now fascinated by dragons and everything that has to do with them (like the medieval time they “lived” in).

    It’s pretty weird but nightmares actually change people their lives, and most of the time in good ways.

    Great video James, I’d drop a tear…

  • Ninjastas

    July 1, 2010 at 9:46 pm

    James, Im a 13 year old boy that always enjoyed your movies. All your movies inspired me to become a filmmaker myself. Movies are my life now I want to create more and more. Thanks without you I wouldn’t chosen this path.

    http://www.youtube.com/ninjastas

  • nusirra

    July 1, 2010 at 9:54 pm

    i remember when i see your avgn videos at the first time.
    i was seeing something of nerds, and i founded your atari 5200 video subtitled at my language.
    it was at the final of the 2008.
    i liked your video and i tried to found your site.
    now, in 2010, i am one of your biggest fans of brazil.
    but i need ask something: cant you subtitle to your brazilliam fans???
    congrats to your all videos.
    Rafael Santos Pohlmann, Cachoeira do Sul, Brazil.

  • jonovox

    July 2, 2010 at 2:59 am

    I found this to be a moving and very touching story told in a very sincere way. I love how this shows that while you can be silly, you can easily cut the shit and get straight to serious business, and that’s very amicable. This is some of your best work, in my opinion. Keep it up.

  • cadecool123

    July 2, 2010 at 3:02 am

    This is my fist comment ever and all i can say is this brought me to tears. I am 13 years old and i saw the angry video game nerd when i was 10 years old on youtube, i heard the theme, and i thought it was the best theme in the whole world, so 2 years later i found the site, watched EVERY video, and even though im young and wasnt born back in the old video game time i love looking back on history to see what i wasnt born into and I thank James Rolfe for showing me games ill never play for 6 weeks then decide to throw my tv out the window (lol) thanks Rolfe.
    -Cade Nelson

  • checkthisflickout

    July 2, 2010 at 10:02 am

    I must say, as cheesy as this film was it really struck a chord in me. Although I was born in the USA and am American, my father took a job overseas in a restricted country in which I spent most of my youth. So seeing you visit your dragon was a chance for me to vicariously live through you since I won’t ever be able to ever visit my “dragon”. Thanks for making this, I found it moving and satisfying.

  • shikyosword

    July 2, 2010 at 1:49 pm

    that was so amazing james. great work. i really hope you make it to a feature film you definialy deserve it!

  • RetroGeek290

    July 2, 2010 at 2:06 pm

    That was brilliant ! But, whatever you do, please keep doing AVGN, even if you become a huge filmstar, it’s one of the highlights of my month ! I always watch it ASAFP, the F being one of the nerds favourite words.

  • RetroGeek290

    July 2, 2010 at 2:08 pm

    Extra: I was born after all the games like this, but love them. I thank the nerd for giving me games NOT to try.

  • Timpetot

    July 2, 2010 at 2:16 pm

    Oh my god. When i was a little boy, i was terrified by sleeping for myself. I have memories of me lying in my bed, and i wouldnt dare look anywhere but up because then i would se if a ghost would come from any direction. And today, 10 years later, i have started making some movies. and it turns out, my and my friend has been writing on a script for a show called “Ghost humpers”(Patent-pending :P), wich is a parody of ghost hunters. Maybe it turns out that what scared you or anything like that follows you up to this date. I was so scared of ghost and things like that i nearly didnt dare sleeping in my own room. Today, ghost fascinates me, and i read so much about it. Thank you James! PS: whats the song called that starts 07:49?

  • mattj84

    July 2, 2010 at 2:45 pm

    Really well done and to be able to make this type of stuff about yourself without coming off as narcissistic is truly a gift!

  • quixote

    July 2, 2010 at 2:48 pm

    Holy mama.
    By far one of your best vids. I was so touched. I cannot say enough how wonderful this was.

    Thanks for all your hard work James!

  • edgeyberzerker

    July 2, 2010 at 3:01 pm

    Thank you so much for making this. I watched it and felt so nostalgic. I’ll be almost 30 as well, this was something that just tugged my hear strings.
    Keep up the fantastic work that you do.

  • da Zappa

    July 2, 2010 at 3:55 pm

    Bravo, James. I’ve enjoyed your videos since I stumbled on them years ago, and your talent and passion comes through in every one. Your zeal for imagination and film is what keeps all of us watching.

    I had a wooden rocking horse when I was little, and about 7 or 8 years ago I was helping my mom clean out the basement and found it. We were in a ‘purge mode’ and I carried it out to the curb, intending to throw it away. I got all the way out to the trash pile when the memories and past with that horse overcame me and I carried it back inside, in tears.

    I later refinished and repaired it for my nephew. I don’t know if he’ll be as attached to it, but for me it was a way to keep those memories alive while allowing them to pass into the hands of someone else.

    Keep up the awesome work, good sir. When (not if) you make it to the big screen, we’ll all be watching.

  • rubbav1

    July 2, 2010 at 5:38 pm

    Hey, you doing the feature, ah. Tell me if you need any help, I wouldn’t mind. I’m in film school right now so I can work camera, edit, and act (if you’re in the need of over-actor). I’ll work for nothing but the experience.

    Email.
    rubba_mann@hotmail.com

  • Chachamaru

    July 2, 2010 at 8:22 pm

    This was..really touching. :) You rock so hard James. I hope you become a famous director someday.

  • avgnfan96

    July 2, 2010 at 11:00 pm

    this was the best of them all man

  • Jeff95

    July 2, 2010 at 11:49 pm

    Great work James. I have been watching you videos for years and i love em. I am nowhere near 30 years old and at the age of 14 i guess i still have some discovering to do and some things to sort out . I wanted to say how this video touched me greatly and i look up to you for you videos anyways great work, keep thriving for your goal.

  • Jiub

    July 3, 2010 at 4:14 am

    James, this was very poignant. It was also kind of cheesy, but it seemed like you were making a sincere and meaningful observation about something close to you, and that’s a lot more important than not being cheesy. I also have all kinds of stories in my head that I’d love to bring to the real world, and your work, among other things, is inspiring me to try. I wish you the very best of luck and I hope you find what your looking for.

  • Slvn

    July 3, 2010 at 8:10 am

    Thank you James, you’ve given us a lot of joy and laughter with your films throughout the years. May all your dreams and ambitions come true.

  • piratinflas

    July 3, 2010 at 6:24 pm

    Hey James, very beautiful. I’m 30 and I feel a close connection with all your work, all the horror genre, the love to the cameras, effects, edition, old video games, etc. Very inspiring. Keep feeding your dragon.

    Your biggest fan from Colombia.

  • marigold23

    July 3, 2010 at 6:35 pm

    lol, folks. james gets done what he wants to get done- and he’s said he’s got ideas for a few feature films in mind. there’ll be some, i’m sure.

  • VailedX360mania

    July 3, 2010 at 6:56 pm

    Hey James. I a 16 years old teen boy. Whenever I get bored, or urgently need to laugh, I come to your site. Today, I was looking at the videos you posted lately. I came across with this one and watched it. I hoped it would be funny. Now don’t think I hated the video. It was absolutely a master piece. At the scene where you started walking back to your car, suddenly waters started dripping from my eyes. The video is so touchy. I mean, this vid is one of a kind. Thank you very much for posting something like this and letting us know about how it all started.

    I thought you would like to know the first impressions after watching the video. You read it all.
    Now for every and anyone who reads this comment and MIGHT(just saying might) call me gay. I’m not gay. It’s only that this video was really emotional…

  • VailedX360mania

    July 3, 2010 at 6:57 pm

    Also, I’m your biggest fan from Turkey :)

  • fanofbatman

    July 3, 2010 at 7:18 pm

    One of the most emotional things I’ve ever seen (didn’t cry though), and who would think it was made by the Angry Video Game Nerd? James has really become a skilled filmmaker, put in the hands of someone else I wouldn’t care. But this really touched me.

  • canadianteen

    July 3, 2010 at 10:10 pm

    wow james its like u and that dragon had a conection like u were friends and it was hard for u to say good bye very touching and inspireing thanks for all the videos u post up

  • RoamingEvil

    July 3, 2010 at 10:24 pm

    James, that is by far the best thing you have ever posted. At the end, i cryed like a little baby, it was so.. touching.. I cant describe it… i have followed you for like.. 3-4 years now, but this video man.. it was just.. so brilliant. Keep up the good work, especially things like this, because you got the talent. And by the way. This is actually the only “movie” that has made me cry. Ever. Love your work !

  • Guarddogman

    July 3, 2010 at 11:24 pm

    OMG this was a really touching story I almost cried I was really moved I have a little stuffed lamb that my grandma gave me before she died and I can never replace it James your one hell of a dude

  • Ruben Fella

    July 4, 2010 at 2:07 am

    James you have been one of the main reasons i make films, you are an inspiration to all young film makers, thank you

  • cambo1000

    July 4, 2010 at 2:10 am

    ive cried. as your biggest fan i think you are going to be the greatest film maker of all time. it was the saddest thing ive ever seen

  • carvv

    July 4, 2010 at 3:10 am

    That was an awesome video, and I had to register to your site and tell you so. I’m also close to my 30′s, and the video was very touching and relevant to me. I’ve had similar feelings about very formative memories and places that shaped me early in my life. So, thank you for posting this.

    I’ve enjoyed your videos for many years now. I discovered the first AVGN videos on youtube shortly after you made them, and I was hooked. I’ve checked your website for updates weekly or monthly ever since. So, thank you for all the work you’ve done. I really hope you decide to make full length film sometime. I’m sure it will be fantastic.

  • TheValsalvaManeuver

    July 4, 2010 at 3:46 am

    This is one of the greatest things I have ever seen filmed. I could really feel the emotion coming through and I know it was sincere. I’m not really one to believe in superstition or magic, but I really think it was fate that James decided to film this when he did, (spoilers – before the park got renovated). I really believe James is going to move on to do bigger and better things soon.

    James – No matter what, you have my, and your fans’, support 100%. Even if your first big feature film is a big flop, I will drag all my friends to see it!

  • beanieboy182

    July 4, 2010 at 5:19 am

    Truly EPIC film
    Not much else to say than, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU ARE
    :)
    Kevin

  • dannystreet

    July 4, 2010 at 7:00 am

    Well done old bean.

    A perfect little story & movie.

    I was so expecting the dragon to bend forward and bite the head off that pneumatic drill guy though…. A missed opportunity on the dragon’s part I think ?

    Thanks

    Dan

  • Lushingo

    July 4, 2010 at 9:37 am

    James…..

    Congrats…. you made a really big movie!!!! fully loaded with emotions, i’ turned 30 soon, and you made me remember my childhood.

    Congratulations pal!!!

    P.D. Sorry my english, i’m from Chile

  • sidekick_daz

    July 4, 2010 at 11:22 am

    Great video James, really enjoyed it :) Always love hearing you talk about when you first got the film-making bug. Keep it up!!

  • RockX

    July 4, 2010 at 1:22 pm

    Oi,

    That was a very beautiful film, seriously it was very nice, it felt really good and say thanks to that dragon from my part too, coz we all are indebt to him.

    Cya

  • Porsche993TT

    July 4, 2010 at 2:43 pm

    It’s interesting to note that this is the first time you have revealed your age as far as I remember, James. I had always wondered how old you were because in your first batch of AVGN videos, you sounded much younger than you do now so I always guessed you were in your mid-20s… which turned out to be exactly right.

    Great video, I love gaining insight into you and your life.

  • AVGNrox

    July 4, 2010 at 3:57 pm

    James, your art are truly one of the best things on the internet. It’s not only the fact that your stuff is really nicely made, but also that it’s very easy to see that your work is something you care about. The amount of loyal fans is a reality because you put a lot of effort into it and reminds us that you care about us, and are thankful for the support.
    It’s something special about you and your work, and I’m sure I speak for us all when I say that I hope you’ll keep on entertaining us for a long, long time. Really, thank you for what you’re doing.

  • July 4, 2010 at 4:22 pm

    best video youve made by far

  • nivek

    July 4, 2010 at 7:27 pm

    Crap, made me shed a man tear.

  • DarkestFiber

    July 4, 2010 at 7:30 pm

    Really great video, James.

  • JDongs

    July 4, 2010 at 10:02 pm

    Beautiful video, almost teared up. Made me think about myself, my past, and my imagination, and what the hell I’m gonna do in the future.

  • July 4, 2010 at 11:34 pm

    I love AVGN, but I think Jamee should stop doing them and start following his dreams and make movies.

  • July 5, 2010 at 12:31 am

    Beautiful video. I loved it. Like someone else said, it made me think about my past and my earliest memory. Oddly enough, my earliest memory is playing Milon’s Secret Castle at 18 months old.

  • harod666

    July 5, 2010 at 1:39 am

    You moved me to tears James,damn i cant wait to watch your big screen film,I KNOW you will make it.Just having a look at the amount of viewers you have…its amazing how one can easily feel related to you.Just another fan of your work,we love you James.

  • NerdyAce400

    July 5, 2010 at 3:05 am

    When you faced the dragon, and saw it was getting taken away, must have been very emotional for you. It would have for me. It was a great video all the same. At least you have the memories and this video, and pics from it, of the dragon. :)

  • Wolfwood187

    July 5, 2010 at 5:44 am

    Nothing I can really say about this video that most of your fans havn’t said James…

    This joints epic. I was choked up pretty much throughout the whole video. Very few things make me want to cry, this is one of them, Awesome video homie.

  • waga

    July 5, 2010 at 11:34 am

    Gosh sitting on work and my collegues ask why it´s running a tear,
    I have a dragon in sweden as well, I got so god damn touched by this video. This cheered me up to create and producte my ideas I have, I´ll look at this video many times

  • July 5, 2010 at 2:11 pm

    You’ve become a brilliant movie maker of many different types. Keep up your hobby.

  • k22k

    July 5, 2010 at 3:23 pm

    This is the second time i watched this video, and it still made me drop a tear or 2. I NEVER cry when it’s related to movies or touchful feelings, but this… this is just amazing. I probably watch this movie again in future, It just reminds me that life can be beautiful. Thanks James

  • July 5, 2010 at 6:54 pm

    James u are such a great man, love this movie.

  • July 5, 2010 at 7:15 pm

    A very personal and emotional film, thanks for doing it, I’m going to watch it again right now… I really liked it!! :D

  • DMM_poo

    July 5, 2010 at 8:26 pm

    I wasn’t going to watch this, because it seemed kind of lame; I was bored and decided to give it a try. Wow–what an emotional video. Makes me think of my childhood, and my past (just as all of James’ videos do), and also makes me sad because I realize it’s gone forever… I guess that’s why I love James’ videos so much; they help me cling to my childhood (I’m the same age as James).

  • ayshplaysh

    July 5, 2010 at 8:52 pm

    To be honest I nearly pissed myself when the first picture of the dragon came up because I immediately recognized it. I too grew up in Fox Chase, in fact I went to Fox Chase Elementary which can be seen in the background. I remember all those afternoons we’d head to the playground after school and that dragon was the best place to be because of the shower that poured from its mouth. I haven’t been the Rec in a few years but I think sometime this week I’ll head up there and snap a picture of the dragons new resting place for you James.

  • ratfink128

    July 6, 2010 at 1:01 am

    It’s time to say goodbye to the past. Time to move forward and create the movie of my dreams, because dreams are where it all started.

  • trafony

    July 6, 2010 at 1:05 am

    Wow, I grew up with the SAME EXACT FEAR of ET looking at me through my window at night. So much so that I got the creeps when I saw it in your video. I’m a bit mindblown at the moment.

  • wingzero

    July 6, 2010 at 3:21 am

    when i was about 6 i moved from long island new york to north VA. I remember this place a lake were i went fishing with my dad . so when i turned 16 and i got my drivers license i took a road trip to long island with my friends to see this lake. but when i got there it was all gated and there was no way to get to the water. i missed my chance to bring memories back but you didn’t. great video james and i’m starting to get into video making and i was wondering if you had any tips to give me.

  • July 6, 2010 at 6:31 am

    This video was very meaningful and motivational to myself, I often return to places of my youth routinely seeing as how I’ve lived in the same town for almost my entire life. Seeing my old schools be torn down and renovated has almost always been an emotional experience, and still when I go running I always go past my old elementary, middle, and high school. If I detour a bit, I can even go past my old apartment which still has stickers on the windows that I placed there when I was 5. A surge of emotions hits me every time.

    I could go on for hours, but I just wanted to thank you for this video as I found it spoke to me on a personal level, the bit about gaining courage through fear, really rung out, as did the part about looking forward. Thanks again James, and here’s to you achieving your dreams!

  • Microrazor1911

    July 6, 2010 at 7:32 am

    I also want to make movies but sadly WMM just keeps on freezing on me. :(

    But James great video, this is just a masterpiece and hopefully you get your chance to get to the Big Time. :)

  • makkles

    July 6, 2010 at 10:35 am

    Brilliant stuff James.

    Thank you for this little insight into what makes you who you are.

  • ASC1980

    July 6, 2010 at 12:09 pm

    Great video! A greats view of what made you you. I can relate to this because I just turned 30 as well.

  • BlandYoshi

    July 6, 2010 at 9:06 pm

    James,

    Thank you! I’m not sure if you will ever read this but I just wanted to say thanks. I’ve been a huge fan for the past four years or so. I stumbled across you shortly after you made a few AVGN episodes. At the time I was going through a really tough stretch in my life. Your witty and wonderful view on the nostalgia that is my childhood helped me a lot. I have been watching ever since. Anytime I feel down and out I always go back and watch some of your classic videos. Four years later I find myself in another rut. I’ve been having some issues both big and small. This past year has been the most challenging of my life.

    I am at a crossroad trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I’m 25 and just can’t make up my mind. Three days ago I was in a bad car accident. One that I shouldn’t have walked away from yet I only have a few bruises. I’m very fortunate but it was an eye opening situation. I can’t stand still anymore. I can’t just wait it out. I need to do something. I just watched your video “The Dragon In My Dreams.” This really touched me. I need to find my fountain of youth. I need to do something that makes me happy. I need to find my place and purpose. Your videos have helped me slowly regain some of my innocence. A reminder of times when things were so simple and my biggest problem was beating Contra…. and then beating Contra without continuing…. and then beating Contra without using a power up. Back when things were simple. However it is also a reminder of the innocence I look forward to with children of my own some day. Your talents are well beyond comedy and I hope you know that. In a world of every day comedians you are like a Bill Murray to me. Someone that can be touching and make you think while making you cry from laughter. It is a rare feat and your talent is well beyond anything I ever imagined I would find on the internet.

    Whether you see this or not who knows. I’m not one that talks much about how I feel. But I couldn’t go without thanking you. Thank you James. Thank you from myself and everyone else who dreams. Of all the help I’ve been offered over the last few days this is the only thing that worked. Thank you! I wish the best for you in your pursuit for the dragon in your dreams.

    “Only through fear can we gain courage and evolve.” Well I am scared to death and ready to evolve……..

    Thank you,

    Justin Ramsey

  • JakeyJake

    July 6, 2010 at 9:47 pm

    I don’t know if you read these, but this really touched me on a personal level. Granted, I’m only 15, but I can’t help to try and track down my earliest memory and the 1 thing that has stuck to me my entire life.

    Thank you, very much.
    -Jake Hendrickson

  • Angrynerd101

    July 6, 2010 at 11:40 pm

    Who knew such a simple statue of a dragon could make you into such filmaker.
    Thank you for making this film James. You really are a true filmaker.

  • Jakobi

    July 7, 2010 at 4:40 am

    Thank you James for such a beautiful film. It is glad that you understand that many people want to know the man/woman behind a great actor, writer, filmaker, etc. It was heartwarming to hear your mother speak because it is obvious that she is very proud of you and will always be there to support you. Your movies bring an extra dose of excitement and joy to the lives of more than you know. I know that you will get the opportunity to make that major motion picture you dream of, and i will be there at the midnight premire. Never lose site of that dragon James

    Thank you for all your hard work,

    Jakob Carrica (aka that guy from New Mexico)

  • July 7, 2010 at 5:23 am

    James, I couldn’t believe the treasure trove I’d stumbled upon when I saw the first of your AVGN videos, and how much you’ve evolved from the first til’ now.

    I’d like to thank you for the insightful look into not only your life, but my life as well, making me think more introspectively and pushing memories I had shoved aside to the front of my mind.

    I say with all certainty that the very first James Rolfe film to hit the big screen (and no doubt it will) will be the last time I go to the movie theater and have any doubt about whether the film will be good or not.

    Thank you for having such passion.

    -Seth Phelps

  • MalA

    July 7, 2010 at 6:43 am

    Thank you James, your videos is like insperation for me…

    You must know all what you do review not one or two country – every love cinematics and all what you doo ;)

    Hello from Russia!!! Necessarily came in our country ^___^

  • krisz

    July 7, 2010 at 10:40 am

    BlandYoshi: All I can say is, im at the same stage in life (but without the car accident though (hope you get through it though!)) turning 25 and have to find what I want to do.

    Like Him i wanted actually to write a comment here, acutally explaining most of the same things as being told in that comment. Im turning 25 and have to find out what to do. my education ends next year, the final summer i have as a student. The final summer as it has always been: three months without school or so much to worry about, and a lot of time for fun and games. As a kid i played a huge amount of video-games, loved them (and still do) and just wanted to play them. Looking back, that was some of the best things to do. Gather my best friend, watch a movie or play some video-games. we were always told “why dont you go outside? its a nice weather”. but no, it was all about beating that video-game! It was easy, careless and non-frigthening. all we cared about was when the new games came out, what games came out and what to play when! Now, its different. I have to find out what to do, what I want to do with my life after this part of my life is over.

    and yes, its scary to find out that you cannot just stay the same, that you have to do something to get moving, to change. its always scary to think of something that changes. its been like that for everyone, the first time you have to be home alone without your parents, if you have to move to another school (and maybe also city) and now when you have to find your first real job or as it is: find your place in life.

    Just want to thank you for your sharing of your passion. Its always fun to watch your videos, hear your comments on games, movies, characters or legends. Acutally after I saw your trip to Sleepy Hollow, I ended up buying the book because I wanted to read it again. Loved the film with Johnny Depp, and loved the story. This is also why I love most of your work. Ive always loved ghost-stories and horror. Hate to be scared, but still love to read and see whatever I can about ghosts and the supernatural world. Its great to hear that you always now what you talk about, have some great insights into movies/games whatever.

    When I stumbled upon your AVGN videos some years ago, I was just hooked from the beginning. reminded me of my self when I played (and playes) video games. I got so angry at the games when they were bad, hated when something was wrong like you got stuck in a wall because of bad game design or you suddenly lost a lot of life because of a stupid error in the game. It was great to see another person with a passion for games and movies, great to see that someone did actually care if it was good or bad, not just saying “well its a kids game” but asks WELL WHY DOES IT SUCK ANYWAY?!

    If you ever make a feature film, for the big screen, I will love to watch it. With all your experience, all your passion and imagination, it cant go wrong. Would love to go to the theather thinking “yes, now im going to watch a great film” and get a good experience.

    dont know if you read this (of course I hope so) but just wanted to thank you for what you have done.

  • Unjust81

    July 7, 2010 at 12:08 pm

    James,

    Your work is truly a masterpiece. Despite laughing my ass off at every avgn video and all the others, “The Dragon in my Dreams” was rewarding to watch. I too am going to be 30 soon and I have a daughter on the way.
    Watching this video was very inspiring and I will forever retain what you said about “Looking for one’s fountain of youth.” I will relay that message to my daughter once she’s older.
    Nostalgia is a wonderful thing. Keep up the great work.
    Looking forward to watching vids for the future.

  • Want3d Dead7

    July 7, 2010 at 1:59 pm

    wow, man – that was some awesome shit – i found it truly inspiring and actually very emotional. i mea im sure you get praised all the time but thts not because of stupid fanbases and crap, you truly deserve all the praise you get – you’re just awesome, nuff said

  • greatnorthweb

    July 8, 2010 at 1:30 am

    i hope you get to make that feature. i know we’ll buy tickets just because it’s a film of yours. James, dude…you’ve got great visions.

  • July 8, 2010 at 3:36 am

    I thought I’d share a poem that has been an infinite source of inspiration for me throughout the years. Taken from the fourth edition of “The Handbook of Chinese Horoscopes” by Theodora Lau.

    I am an unquenchable fire, the center of all energy, the stout heroic heart. I am truth and light, I hold power and glory in my sway. My presence disperses dark clouds. I have been chosen to tame the Fates. I AM THE DRAGON.

    Good luck and Godspeed.

  • July 8, 2010 at 6:07 am

    A video full of inspiration. If i look to a video like this one about your biography i alwaiys get more inspiration and power to make stuff.

    Greatly made thank you for your inspiration!,

    807

  • Shaddox

    July 8, 2010 at 6:16 am

    Really nice video there James. I registered now just to say how impressed I am. I’m 21 now and I just failed 2nd year in university and have to do it all over again. I meditated (and still am) about suicide and wether I should do it or not.

    Maybe someday I’ll find my own inspiration about what to do in life …

  • July 8, 2010 at 1:27 pm

    James,
    Like everyone else here stated, you are a great inspiration.
    I just have to say that you are such a legend!

    Can’t wait for you big picture!

    Sincerely, Asylum Al

  • July 8, 2010 at 4:55 pm

    James,

    I took the time to register for this occasion! I’ve been following your work for years now and I want to say that I sincerely hope you get where you want to go! If you get to make that feature-film, i’ll be there to watch it!

    P.S.

    Was there no way to transport the dragon statue to your home?! Could have put it in the backyard to remind you every day of how it all started!

  • Stubs

    July 8, 2010 at 6:14 pm

    This was great to watch and I really like your previous reviews of movies, games etc. I’ve found them entertaining and a treat to walk down memory lane again. All the best !!! :)

  • Koobion

    July 9, 2010 at 11:13 am

    James,

    My comment is short and sweet. I just want to say that I hope you take a look at these comments, and see all of the people you’ve touched over the years. You are truely an inspiration, and I forever look forward to your work.

    Thanks :)

  • futurebear

    July 9, 2010 at 3:58 pm

    I have to admit, I am not a huge fan of 99% of indi films. The only one I have enjoyed is, Me, You, and Everybody Else. I have tried to watch several of your films and have never been able to enjoy them. This one was amazing though. It took me back to my childhood as well.

    My first nightmare was kinda weird. Me and my father were camping out our front porch. Not only did we never camp out, he never did anything with me. Anywho, after the tents where made a shadow type figure (now I would call it a wraith maybe) came towards us. Inside the hood you could not not see a face, and there were no legs. It came to us slowly and my father tried shooting it with a shotgun but it didn’t phase it. Eventually it came up to me and the cloth where the arm should be slowly rose as if it was going to touch me. As soon as it did on my forehead, i woke up. It was a strange dream as I had not yet watched any scary movies.

    We only had two and a half channels, abc, cbs, and pbs. Cbs only came in half the time and back then none of those would have anything remotely scary. It is odd that I would have that dream. My next scary dream would be about Freddy Couger (Don’t know how you spell it nor do I care) cause my sister let me watch it, that was about three years later and my first horror film. Horror films had the adverse effect on me. I don’t like feeling scared.

    Thank you for making all your films and sharing with us. I really enjoyed this and really love AVGN. If you ever need some 3d work done let me know.

  • Night_Hawk

    July 9, 2010 at 4:29 pm

    I know theres a low chance james will see this. This really is some of the best (if not the) best stuff you’ve put out. I know a lot of people come here for just avgn, and I do enjoy that, but I can honestly say I’ve watched almost every video you’ve uploaded, and can’t recall one that I haven’t very much enjoyed. Lots of my favorite films I found out because of you (creepshow for example, and you made me rewatch terminator three, and I know like it)

    Well james, I know this probably won’t mean much to you, but I wish you every success, you deserve it so much more than pretty much anyone I can think of, I mean, I see james meeting people like ricou browning, and seems he seems just really happy to meet them. The person I want to meet more than anyone is james. People won’t agree with me, or believe me or whatever, but I know if I could meet anyone, it would be him.

  • ShandorPieEatingContest

    July 10, 2010 at 6:54 am

    I’m absolutely baffled by how relatable I find this. I’m studying sculpture right now, my older brother is a professional stage actor, my older cousin studied to be a film actor and his younger brother makes a living painting and designing clothing, we were all amateur film makers at one point.

    We grew up very close and all had the same influences, (Back to the Future, Indiana Jones, Star Wars, Jim Henson movies, Zelda, Castlevania, Megaman and Tales From the Crypt to name a bunch) but now talking to them years later, these things just fueled a spark that was struck much earlier in our lives.

    I think mine and one of my earliest memories was a fortune telling machine that consisted of an head spinning around under a glass dome that was on a octagonal gold gilded cabinet, it was talking to people as they passed. I think in retrospect it was motion sensitive perhaps; I was being carried and I was leaning over somebodies shoulder, it was very hot. That’s all, I don’t recall a context and nobody from my family remembers it; I’ve never seen it again except in my dreams, but I’ve been fascinated by puppets, robots and such other interactive objects my whole life.

    All four of us have something, a spark, a genesis that we feel we can trace a great deal of our creative energy to. It’s more than that though, it shaped us into who we’ve become as artists and human beings with these memories and dreams becoming allegories to the truths we want to express through our medium.

  • zoidberg

    July 10, 2010 at 7:50 am

    happy 30th birthday james!

  • Postrale

    July 10, 2010 at 9:17 am

    Awesome Video James…

  • jogosnick

    July 10, 2010 at 2:52 pm

    dear James,
    like many people above im not sure ull ever see this,i just wanted to say, how much we viwers can relate to you and how much ur videos touch us, its becouse of YOU and ur videos that i know what im gonna do of my life im going to make movies, i never knew what to do and videos was always one of my options and u helped me break it down to it. i also wanted to say that people like ur videos not because ur funny and stuff but because you pass us a clear messege of how u feel and it makes us feel this way to as i said before ur videos touch us in a great way, and thats why u have so many fans all around the world not because u where luky, but because u fought for it and u diserved it.
    thanks James for everything.
    ————————————————————————————–
    Nicholas C. Lund– Brazil happy birth day james

  • July 11, 2010 at 2:08 pm

    At first I was a bit disappointed that this wan’t an AVGN special or something like that seeing as how the title threw me off, but after watcing it I’m really glad that I gave it a shot. Godd stuff, James. Really good stuff :)

  • amh9388

    July 11, 2010 at 3:10 pm

    It seemed like an emotional reunion. More power to you James, and to all who work with the name CINEMASSACRE. God bless!

  • Duff

    July 12, 2010 at 6:03 am

    After watching this excellent piece of work I just felt that I had to comment on this. In fact, my first comment ever here since the beginning. This comment may not be read by you, James, and may be meaningless, but this is just my words.

    Everyone can relate to this, looking back to their childhood, their roots of their lifes. There are certain things as a child you remember particularly, and may constantly exist in your subconsciousness. This whole video made complete sense to me because I just feel we have things in common. While I’m just 17, I soon have to start make life changing choices, and my childhood is history.

    This video left me with almost tears falling down my cheeks, instead with a lump in my throat, from resisting crying. By watching all of your videos by the years, you have proven that your film-making capabilities could lead you to a big feature film. Well I cerainly hope so. I love your style of movie making in general, how you tell stories, how you engage the audience by cleverly putting all kinds of emotions in your films.

    Maybe all this is just nonsense talk. I want you to reach for the stars, James, I’d love to watch a big featured film of yours in the future.

    Thank you for everything, and good luck in the future,

    “Duff” (you’ve lots of fans from Sweden, we love you)

  • Joshua

    July 12, 2010 at 1:35 pm

    Thats sad man….. I had a swing that I use to play on, I got my first girl friend there, my first friend there… now 5 years later… it’s graffitied to hell…I wish I would of savor’d the moments when I was 10…

  • July 12, 2010 at 3:52 pm

    James I’ve Been A Fan Of Your Films For A While Now And They’ve All Been Great, But This One Touched Me, It’s Great To See You Found The Park And Dragon Again For A Trip Down Memory Lane And The Root Of Your Insperation, I Saw At The End The Old Picture Of You Sat Underneath The Dragon And Was Wandering Did You Re-Create That Picture As The Age You Are Now ? Thanks For Sharing This Great Memory With Us James.

    Christian Collins

  • danny

    July 12, 2010 at 5:39 pm

    I couldn’t help but wonder… Is the title of this video a reference to Frank Zappa’s “Dirty Love”?

  • Kieran Beattie

    July 13, 2010 at 5:03 am

    I, too, am commenting for the first time. I just wanted to say James that this was simply gob smacking. When i say commenting for the first time, i really mean it. I have not commented on any video on the whole internet until now. This shit seriously deserves to be shown in festivals and the like. Good work in this medium is the ability to instil emotions in others. So, thank you, bravo, and good work!

  • Yoyonerd

    July 13, 2010 at 11:07 pm

    Amazing how this video inspired people that never ever comented on anything .. like myself too

    well.. im brazilian , and i dont have a pretty good gramar when writing in english.. but i can undestand perfectly.. i aways knew james rolphe was a blast on film-making, im a fan since the first avgn episodes and aside from the gamming factor,, the sidestory of the videos and the camera angles.. all the screenplay.. it was all very true to me

    and when i saw top 10 movie about making movies i realized that he wasnt just good at it.. he had a passion about it.. and thats touch me because.. i can relate to that;.. i mean… ahh, i cant explain it too well.. but i think we all can undestand the felling

    well i dont know what else to say.. .. just.. SUCESS

  • Valor22

    July 14, 2010 at 2:15 am

    This video really left me speechless… The time it took me to type something after the … was like 5 minutes.

    You’re one great film maker James, you have a really nice voice to listen to and you make one hell of ridiculously funny movies and are also capable of making these emotional movies like this one. I really had to focus so I wouldn’t start crying. And you’re scary movies are also really great to look at, even the Mr Bucket episode is a damn funny one, but still in that ‘funny’ video you’ve made me startle twice!

    You’re incredible James and like the rest of your fans I’d really like to see a big feature film by you.

    Good luck in the future and hope to see lots of lots great movies by you!

    PS. Duff said in his comment that you have lots of fans from Sweden, well you also do in the Netherlands. Good work!

  • irish gamer

    July 14, 2010 at 7:59 am

    This just shows there is a god dont know how but that couldn’t have been luck.Yeah Valor and Duff said you have a lot of fans in Sweden and Netherlands but in Ireland to man.Keep up the good work.

  • AlexanderBosch

    July 14, 2010 at 9:30 am

    It’s something like this that just reinforces my belief that you are so much more interesting and fulfilling to watch when you are your self and following your true passion.

    There is a future for you in film and as an artist, which is shown when you are able to invoke such emotion from such simple and childlike imagery.

    I know people will disagree and while I love your web based series such as AVGN it may be better to be faithful to your true self as a filmmaker and possibly move on to greener pastures.

    -Alex Bosch

  • July 14, 2010 at 11:18 am

    Very inspiring James, I love all your stuff but this vid really helped me understand the ‘man’ and has inspired me to take up my script writing again, keep it up and follow your dream as I know me and many others would love to see a feature film directed by you! Oh and since this is my first comment I have to say big ups to Mike Matei also!

  • stonehengepictures1

    July 14, 2010 at 4:12 pm

    James,
    either you read this or not, that was a great video, it touched my heart and made me register on this website JUST to post this comment. Even though I’m only 14 i have have occurrences like that. My old preschool brought back many memories when i passed it and that’s when i realized how much of my life has passed and the things i took for granted back then are my precious memories now… a few years ago, the preschool was converted into a church. Thankfully my uncle was a worker and let me tag along before they tore down the old school room i used to be in. the moment i went in i remembered everything… i sat in my old desk and glanced down and started to cry as i saw the faint etching of my name in the top left corner right where i left it on the first day i was there…. so many memories lost that day yet so many recollected and savored. Thank you for reminding me of my childhood the way you did with this video.
    Your fan,
    Robbie (youtube- stonehengepictures)

  • Ralle

    July 14, 2010 at 5:15 pm

    Great video James, one of your best. I like all videos you have ever done. You have made me laugh and inspierd me in many ways. And you are a good director, script writter, actor and really good at capture the good moments in your videos. Me and my friends here in sweden really love your work. And i only register to leave this comment. I really hope you will do a big movie someday. You got it in your blood to make movies. Thanks for all the happines you have brought to me.// Ralle

  • NerdNorway

    July 14, 2010 at 5:52 pm

    I can honestly say that this video has inspired me to pay a visit to the places where my childhood memories took place. For that, I thank you.

    Some people say that it’s allways important to be in touch with your inner child, and I realize that to full effect, after watching your video. Nurturing the child with in me, and allowing it to blend in with my “civilized” self, in my mind, makes me a more wholesome and loving person. You are the first person I’ve ever seen to put “this” into words and pictures.

    I trully believe that you have something quite unique. I wish you the best of luck, and I eagerly await your big feature.

    Best regards from Norway.

  • leonardo piccaro

    July 14, 2010 at 9:45 pm

    I got to say something james , you are my idol who teach me everything i now about games and movies. I am only 13 years old and you inspire me to star a carrer as an actor .I didn’t cry for about 2 years since my father dead , but this movie make open my heart and let go everything stuck on my mind. I thank you a lot

    Leonardo Piccaro

  • hate2pay

    July 15, 2010 at 12:44 am

    James, this is a message man. In my humble opinion i think it may be a sign that it is time to move on to big things.

    Or you should by a lottery ticket because the odds of you happening to show up while the workers were there is WAY less than winning the lottery

    what ever you do ill continue to be a fan!

  • brodystone8

    July 15, 2010 at 2:39 am

    This video left me with a giant lump in my throat and I wouldn’t have blamed James for breakin out cryin keep up the good work James your videos are amazing

  • ash356

    July 15, 2010 at 10:57 am

    Woah, to say this just had a big effect on me would by far be an understatement. I wasn’t expecting much, since i’m quite a hard person to move, but this did move me. With the combination of the way you put it, the music used and the sheer fact of you revisiting what started your career was exceptionally moving.
    Even more moving was the fact that, soon i’ll be off to college, and with the courses i’m taking, it’s already going to be the end of my childhood essentially. Not just that but i can imagine a similiar experience occuring when i finally become a doctor (my aspiration), which would basically stem from meeting the people who motivated me to do that, and saying goodbye to it all. They don’t have a hospital in my home-town, so i almost certainly am going to be forced to move on :(.
    To have that effect James, is nothing short of amazing… all the best with your future, and I look forward to seeing that feature film :D

  • xenxander

    July 15, 2010 at 5:16 pm

    ash356:
    that’s not true. With any town that lacks a hospital, you can be the ‘house call’ doctor. You might not make a 6 digit salary but you will be needed. You visit the homes in your home town, tell them “I’m Doctor ]whomever[ and I live ]wherever[, and here is my card.” It’s a very rewarding profession if you’re the ‘on call’ doctor of your home town.

    Now, moving on, to James:

    I know how this feels, at least in relation. *warning, anecdote pending*

    There was this old tree at the end of the road adjacent to mine, that was bordering a retention pond, that bordered the elementary school I went to. It was a very short walk to the school, so myself, my sister, and a couple of her friends would all hang out at this old tree. It had a divided trunk, and was very thick at the base. The left lower side was low hanging branches that could easily support the weight of a child of 8. We used to sit on them as the “bouncy” branches. The upper left side was where you’d climb to hold the garden hose. It was tied to a very high limb, and allowed you to swing from this tree to a neighboring tree. that tree as “unclimbable” as its first branches were too high to really reach or get a perch on. But swinging allowed you to get up to the first thick limb. Then you could swing back to the first tree. My sister and her friends would take turns swinging on the garden hose back and froth while I bounced on the ‘bouncy’ branches below. One of her friends actually fell, because the garden hose snapped. Yes being kids, we didn’t realize that a hose wasn’t a proper rope. She didn’t suffer any real injuries, and after wards, we never tied another hose up. The old hose tie was still on the high upper limb as a reminder.

    *end anecdote*

    This is memorable for me, because years later, after the Navy, and before college, I decided to re-visit this old tree, to sit on its branches, to look up and see the old broken garden hose, to look at the old elementary school… but I couldn’t.

    The tree was torn down, so I was too late. I’m very happy you got to see the dragon before it was torn down, because from my own experience, I can tell you, when you revisit a childhood place, to relive some old memory and it’s not the same, it hurts. It stings in your chest, and you will cry. I know I did, silently, but I cried. I wanted to see that old tree one more time.

    But you got to see your dragon. I would like to know on a personal level, how you felt inside. I saw the video, I saw your expression. But like all pictures, it doesn’t fully tell the story. I wonder, if at all, you can tell me (us) how it felt to see the dragon. Maybe the fact that you got to it “just in time” or that it was going to go away, changes your view on it slightly, but like I said, you got to revisit it even if it was in the nick of time.

    I really want to know what it feels like, if you can type it out, to revisit a place and have it like you remember… and not have it gone by the time you get there…..

  • c-dizzle

    July 15, 2010 at 6:39 pm

    An absolutley fantastic piece of work here James. I have watched the AVGN and your other videos since roughly late 2007, and they’ve always had a real ‘feel good’ affect on me, they make me laugh, make me cringe and this one made me shed a tear. I will always remember watching your videos, as if it were a nostalgia of mine, just to think that you could very well be one of the things I remember when I hit 30. I am 18 years old so I must have found out about you at the age of 15, and even at this age now I can feel myself totally relating to it.
    You are a very special person James, with a fantastic tallent, and maybe one day the name “James Rolfe” could be found in the history books. Another thing that has always impressed me was your ability to communicate with the viewers of your videos, I remember I’ve e-mailed you a few times and you’ve replied every time, one of them was during your Rocky series or something I think, just sending a picture I took in planet hollywood in London, heh.
    From a very impressed and loyal fan, thank you James, and all the best for a promising tomorrow.

  • Steven_wood

    July 15, 2010 at 7:43 pm

    hey this is my first time commenting on this site two. This video really got to me, at first i was sceptical, but at i watched it i got drawn in becouse there was more and more i felt i could relate, and my eyes became watery. and i could really feel and under stand were james was coming from.
    I have studdyed media/film production at college for the last three years, but my coures has ended now, every thing he dose in this short film is done so well. all the camera shots and the editing and the music was done so well. the music really sets the tone in this film and adds the extra depth to the feeling and emotions that are being displayed in the film. i love the cuts to the old drawings that he did when younger then cuting back to the location footage you can really see the resemblance. it would bin a dream/amazing to make anything as good as this back at college, arfter finnishing college i lost my hype for wanting to make videos/Shot films but this film makes me wana get my college friends together to start making films again, keep the awsome work up james :)

  • Cece-InspiredByJamesRolfe

    July 16, 2010 at 1:59 am

    I gave a standing ovation after this was over…it feels Oscar worthy :)

  • chz

    July 16, 2010 at 9:32 am

    This is awesome! You are talented James. Hope you keep up the work and continue filming.

    a fan from UK. Cheers James!

  • July 17, 2010 at 3:58 pm

    lol check out Capcom Classics Collection on PS2,on one arcade game theres this REALLY SCARY BOSS DRAGON THATS JUST SCARY!!!

  • greyfox_1

    July 17, 2010 at 6:09 pm

    hey whats going on james. just wana say keep doing what ur doin james ur just too awesome

  • 8-bit Nerd

    July 17, 2010 at 10:39 pm

    Very touching, James. This video brought me to tears. I remeber the place I started dreaming up movies was Knox Park in Murwillumbah, NSW. I was swinging on the swing and a kid next to me randomly flew off. He flew through the air and hit his head on a tree branch, while he was still in the air. He was unconsious and thay took him to away in an ambulence. The rest of the day I was there I started imagining stuff like a monster broke the chain, so he flew off and died, or a loghtning bolt had struck the swingset and he was electricuted and flew right off. When I went to Knox Park like, 8 years later the swing had been burnt down. 2 years later they replaced it with this plastic crap. I went to swing on it and got really high up, then I slipped off the plastic and hit the same tree, but instead of being knocked unconsious, a long piece of bark stuck straight through my lip. I had to get 16 stiches. I now live in Zillmere, QLD, and every time I think of that slide it brings a small tear to my eyes. Note: The boy that was knocked unconsious was 15, and I was 9-10.

  • TheGuardian

    July 17, 2010 at 10:57 pm

    Wow…James, as a long time viewer, it’s really something to see you so emotionally affected, and yet at the same time I can understand completely why this is having such an effect on you. I’ve never seen any of your other films, but after seeing this, I think I’ll give them a look for sure. I feel the same way about game design as you do about movie making. So what do you say we give it our all for our big respective projects, huh?

  • Biohazzordz

    July 18, 2010 at 10:42 am

    Reliving your past events is just a big wave of nostalgia, when it hits you, it’s so overwhelming. You just want to go back in time and relive the past. I feel the same way, just thinking of something from my past….it’s almost like you can’t take it, but you have to. You’re work was fantastic, but this just hit the Nostalgic Bar (in my case). Let that dragon rest in peace forever. Keep that dragon in your mind, that’s the only way you’ll feel happiness James. Keep up the work man.

  • Mike D.

    July 18, 2010 at 11:43 am

    I have been going to this site for years but only now had to make an account to tell you how well this is put together. You have always been entertaining but this is moving. It is the first time I’ve cried over a movie since Vader told luke he was his father. (I was six years old)
    I’ve never even cried at a funeral!…..What the hell have tou done to me?

  • WingSong

    July 19, 2010 at 12:31 am

    Even though I’ve been watching your videos for years, I had to make an account just to tell you that this is my favorite thing I’ve ever seen from you. I was very close to tears when I saw all the emotion that went into this. I wanted to hug you so badly. XD
    This was truly moving and wonderful.

    Looking forward to more films! =)

  • Doubledare51

    July 19, 2010 at 2:22 am

    This deffinitly affected me in a way completely different than any other video or movie you’ve made. And you’ve been a great inspiration on my part of wanting to make little videos

  • Bradley

    July 19, 2010 at 6:09 pm

    this is truly a great film

  • Shatterhand

    July 19, 2010 at 9:28 pm

    Dear James,

    this is the first time I leave a comment on Cinemassacre.

    I am writing because I think that the AVGN is one of the most intelligent characters of my generation (I am 28, your same cultural “background”).
    What you have invented is just the mere representation of what exactly was the frustration (and consecutive madness) of mine and most of my friends’ childhood. A childhood spent in front of a boiling tv screen attached to a grey nasty square box from Japan. When the nerd talks, he just seems to be summarising all the thoughts that were in my mind at that time, when playing those games, even if, as you are American and I am European, we had different preferences for NES games.

    Anyway, I guess you have had similar praise form other fans, so I just would like to comment on this more “personal” clip.

    Sincerely talking, I do not want to criticise the very intimate topic, I just found pretty pathetic the scene of you touching the concrete dragon.

    What were you thinking nerd?????

  • mmf22_mat

    July 21, 2010 at 6:37 am

    Great movie, very emotional since I really relate to the relationship you have with dreams and childhood memories, wanting to “translate” those raw and powerfull emotions into images and words… I haven’t seen all your films yet since I hardly just discovered your AVGN reviews (it’s hard to find out about guys like you or TGWTG in France…), but trust me I’ll definately check it out. Please keep on riding the dragon and delivering us great videos !
    Anyway, thanks you

  • obzen

    July 21, 2010 at 7:32 pm

    Ironically, about 2 weeks ago, I had visited a park I hadn’t been to since I was about 5 so about 17 years ago give or take. There was an old huge paddling pool which is now completely out of use and grown over etc,
    I had a huge flash back of being with my Mum and Grandma messing about there, It was a pure tear jerker! So I know exactly how James feels!

    Much love man!

  • horrormoviefan

    July 21, 2010 at 9:09 pm

    James, if you read this please take thought of it. You aren’t just some guy who makes popular videos on the internet, you are a big inspiration to many people,dont forget that. Keep up the good work man, and good luck on your feature film. ;)

  • calebribeiro

    July 23, 2010 at 2:47 pm

    Wow. I actually got a little choked up. It was touching to hear about James being frightened as a child because I too suffered nightmares and slept with the lights on many nights. James, please keep doing what you’re doing! I think I can speak for many people and say that we’ve all grown to care about you very much. After watching your videos, I feel that I know you on a personal level. You should have some type of AVGN nerdapalooza! I’d go!

  • Selah4Jah

    July 24, 2010 at 9:51 am

    Wow James I have to admit, I never would of imagined you making a serious/emotional video like this….but to be honest, I think its your best performance ever! I literally got teary-eyed half way through it. Your way more than just an entertainer, your an inspiration! Your gonna make it big one day man, and I’m glad to have the privilege of watching a legend in the making.

  • lg123

    July 25, 2010 at 6:31 pm

    awesome

  • July 27, 2010 at 11:48 am

    Honestly, I cried…
    James, you became such an important character of my childhood and my life, you’re one of my greatest idols. I hope you will have your chance to make your dream come true and make at least one full-length motion picture. It would be a good movie and I would buy it, that’s for sure. Even if I would have to import it from the US.

    Dude, you’re great.
    Greetings from Germany,

  • FatCat

    July 28, 2010 at 3:35 am

    …Man James, seeing a serious video from you is both unexpected and well received by me. the meshing of great music, crayon drawings, and that build up before you see the dragon all kind of came together, well, beautifully. In my opinion

  • July 29, 2010 at 2:51 pm

    I am moved by this Movie

  • keais87

    July 29, 2010 at 8:01 pm

    You’re unique, i mean, maybe the important it’s not the story, it’s how you tell it. The music you choose, your filming abilities, acting…everything. It was touching. Congratz James, just keep up with the awsome work…
    You’re an incredible artist.

  • ninjalinkninja

    July 31, 2010 at 2:23 am

    I think of you as a kindred spirit and an inspiration, James. I just recently(about a month ago) started watching your AVGN reviews, which I had only seen in youtube poops(look those up on youtube, they are very funny edits of cartoons and such) so I didn’t know anything about what they really were. But I’ve watched a lot of your other videos since then and shared them with my band mates, who have come to love them as much as I do.
    Right now I’m in a place in my life where I all I want to do is play heavy metal. I’m in college, almost finished, and I’ve got a band that’s having problems in this economy. We’ve yet to get paid to play, and we can’t find work at all, but your story is a great encouragement to us. Incidentally, I’m writing a song about a nightmare I had about a week ago. Thanks for the great laughs, insights, and inspiration. If you or anyone on here wants to hear a little of our music, we’re at myspace.com/heavymetaldollar. I know this isn’t the best place to get your attention, but on the other hand, I wouldn’t want to bother you either.

  • Slaanash

    August 3, 2010 at 6:17 pm

    That was quite moving, Mr. Rolfe.

    That’s all that can be said.

  • Viajeras

    August 6, 2010 at 7:47 am

    James, I can’t even think of what to say. That’s how speechless this video left me. So incredibly real, so incredibly emotional — especially for those of us who’ve already become adults.

    Just… thanks, man. I always got choked up over laughing at your AVGN videos for the past few years, but this is the first time I got choked up with tears watching you. And for good reason.

  • RichyD123

    August 7, 2010 at 9:01 am

    Wow, I’ve watched mostly all I can find related to you online over the past few years and seeing this pretty much made me cry. Now watching your reviews always leaves me feeling cheered up but this film is so emotionally powerful it has prompted me to make an account on this site! You say you aspire to make feature films, well, I can’t wait for your opportunity to do just that because nothing has moved me to tears in that department since watching Forrest Gump as a ten year old, yet here your short piece pulled the most emotion I felt come from myself when watching a film in my ‘adult’ life. Keep it up, you are an inspiration.

  • nygiants10

    August 8, 2010 at 11:17 pm

    Awesome video. It probly is my favorite one you have done.

  • KillaJake117

    August 11, 2010 at 5:44 pm

    Dear James,

    I’m only 15, and watching this really inspired me to try something different. I’m usually on the computer, thinking about creating games/computers, but after watching this, i really started to think about maybe making “movies” or crappy shorts myself. haha. I may not have been born with the skill to make movies and all that, but i would really like to try it. When i was younger, i always had ideas of stuff that I’d like to make a movie out of, and maybe i can make it some day. Who knows. Well, i hope you make that perfect feature film, and once i see the trailer on the T.V, I’ll rush to the theater, (or the theater website xD) and be the first to buy a movie ticket :)

  • Janer

    August 11, 2010 at 6:21 pm

    Wow that was a great revisit of ones inspiration, it made me feel the rush I get when I open my fathers old anatomy atlas (yeah i love medicine) looking at the pictures and my father explaining how the whole human body
    is a perfect machine, but also delicate like a domino where every thing is connected with everything else…
    It is amazing when u stop and think about what stands behind your wish to keep on going and doing what u love doing best….
    ps.Dudes can someone pls post the name of the music peace

  • Lessis

    August 14, 2010 at 11:01 pm

    This is extremely well-done, more or less flawless in presentation, it portrays perfectly the meaningfulness of the subject to the viewers you are sharing this with.

    How appropriate that the very first thing that inspired you to get into the medium of creative arts (Obviously, film-making in your case) showcases, in all its glory, your potential as a serious filmmaker when you revisit it.

    Everybody in a field fueled by imagination has a ‘Dragon’ of our own, something very near and dear to us that gave us the first sprinkle of imagination or inspiration that snowballed into greater and greater things.

    You’re very fortunate James, as your Dragon has not only helped you find your calling in life but has showed the world how skilled you are at what exactly it brought about.

  • fenix

    August 19, 2010 at 3:52 pm

    touching video…

    first time i feel like crying watching someone else’ memory

  • mikethefoxhog

    August 20, 2010 at 8:01 am

    AND EVERY TIME HE TRIED TO KILL THE DRAGON IT DUCKED INTO THE MOAT

  • PL-QC

    August 20, 2010 at 10:53 am

    Wow, this is very good! The rest of the stuff you make is funny and all, but this movie sincerely felt introspective and was moving. Great job and thanks for sharing this.

  • Duckk

    August 22, 2010 at 4:38 pm

    This ACTUALLY brought a tear to my eye.
    It was awesome, to say the least. And its nice to know the inspiration of an awesome film maker

  • zeromager

    August 29, 2010 at 11:51 pm

    excellent work on this and cinemassacre 200. really shows your passion. keep up the good work on the site and good luck in the future

  • August 30, 2010 at 11:28 am

    This is so sad :( was it destroyed or was it just moved?

  • MikeTupperTheKiller

    August 30, 2010 at 3:18 pm

    Well this has been a great ride. Thank you, James

  • caseymike1

    September 6, 2010 at 12:16 am

    I love your videos both Avgn AND films

    Great video,keep doing what you do best James.

  • Steam123

    September 8, 2010 at 10:57 pm

    oh wow…truly a touching and inspirational video…

    Kudos to u jim and i hope u continue doing what u love and wishing u the best in ur future endeavours.

  • TremulantDTN

    September 10, 2010 at 10:38 pm

    Damn it James.

    You made me cry.

    Very touching.

  • StaffSaul

    September 15, 2010 at 5:01 am

    Amazing vid. It really sucks when they change things that have been the same for years and years, Like that park there. It’s only right to get a little sentimental when something with so iconic in your life gets messed with.

    It’s pretty cool to see what kickstarted everything. Your films really do show a phenominal amount of drive behind them, and I hope to see a lot more for years to come. From behind a computer or in a theatre.

  • Winder

    September 23, 2010 at 12:29 am

    You really made me cry.

  • September 25, 2010 at 4:12 am

    I just now saw this on my youtube subscription when it was posted and I gotta say I think many artists in the entertainment industry and the field of interest go through the same thing. I felt a similar way with what inspired me to become an animator, however I wasn’t as lucky to have such an attachment where it was a certain location. This almost seems like you’re saying good bye to a friend and you’re moving on to bigger and better things, where in a case like me, my inspiration and origin’s constantly preserved and brought back when I seek motivation. I’m not sure if that makes much sense but with what sparked my interest I don’t think I could part with something that sparked my influence, I actually stopped for a bit and looked at what made me who I am today after watching this. James, keep making films like this, I really do enjoy watching theses and I get a better reaction more so than I do watching the AVGN or the reviews. Rock on dude.

  • metawanderer

    September 25, 2010 at 12:23 pm

    Wow! One of your best. I felt moved by this and made realize that it is time for me to face my dragon and start pursuing my dreams.

  • JustinBieber

    September 26, 2010 at 12:03 am

    You moved me, James. I have not cried in a long time. Thanks for making me feel this way. I learned something valuable from this video. keep up the good work.

  • September 27, 2010 at 2:24 pm

    This is the most amazing video about James ever, if you like his AVGN stuff, then you will love this http://www.vizzed.com/vizzedboard/retro/Index.php?ref=65348

  • qudgar

    October 1, 2010 at 11:35 am

    This must be one of your best….thanks for be so open to all your fans, this got me thinking about where is ‘my Dragon in My Dreams’? I have to go and search for him…

  • October 1, 2010 at 11:51 am

    Damn it, James, you really know how to make people cry.
    Lovely film, congratulations on your 300.

  • merripen

    October 6, 2010 at 12:06 am

    Beautiful! I truly hope you know how much I and everyone else enjoys your work.

  • HeavyNedal

    October 7, 2010 at 8:05 pm

    I pretty much made an account just for this. I almost cried because of this. it was very touching. Proably my favorite shortfilm of all time. Keep up the great work James.

  • marco_himself

    October 10, 2010 at 5:16 pm

    How inspiring. This reminded me of a dream that I had as a kid, in which I sat in a capsule in space, floating through the absolute nothing, staring at white dots in the deep black. I saw many buttons in front of me I guess but I was so scared I didn’t even get the idea to try out the buttons.
    And here I am, so scared of the great sencelesnes, that I leave out many of the opportunities I have.
    And in a similar way James, when he finaly gets to making movies, lets say for theatres, will propably have to face a big dragon.
    maybe that’s just nonsense. But I think there’s some reason at least, that we have those dreams, metaphorizing our lives and giving us the will to create something.

  • Gman123

    October 16, 2010 at 4:36 pm

    Hey James my English teacher told me the same thing, that we are drawn to the things that terrify us. She said it the same way you did. I also noticed that you put a chip of paint in your hair.

  • bigdaddycain

    October 18, 2010 at 12:19 pm

    It really is amazing…

    I’ve watched AVGN many years now, and I’ve convinced myself that James Rolfe is a one-trick pony. Shame on me.

    James if I could talk to you face-to-face, I’d tell you that this is the most important piece you’ve made thus far. All the “Simons Quests” and “Back to the Future” video game reviews don’t do your talent justice. You shown a side of yourself that rarely is seen, and inspired people to seek out their dreams at the same time.

    This movie literally had me in tears.

  • October 28, 2010 at 10:16 pm

    That was truly one of the best written pieces I’ve seen in a long time. Showing up at the very site just hours before it was torn down? I don’t care if its true or not, that was some great film making. You and your team rock, Mr. Rolfe.

  • October 30, 2010 at 3:13 pm

    I enjoyed watching this. Thank you for sharing your story with me …with us.

  • walkingstickman

    November 1, 2010 at 2:08 pm

    I found the exact location of where the dragon was at and got a recent bird’s eye view by bing.

    http://oi56.tinypic.com/lf7g1.jpg

    Looks like the dragon is safe and sound in the same place but this film is indeed very deep and personal.

  • jannen

    November 17, 2010 at 7:38 pm

    gotta love you man

  • bladelavigne

    December 8, 2010 at 5:23 pm

    Good job man on this video

  • johannes646

    December 11, 2010 at 6:34 pm

    you got really sentimental when you saw the dragon. it was heart warming.

  • Mina

    December 14, 2010 at 4:02 pm

    Man… watching this was really beautiful.
    I almost started crying.

  • December 15, 2010 at 7:45 pm

    @walkingstickman
    Those satellite images are out of date. The dragon has been removed, but I’ve been told it’s now at the front gate and is a little shorter. I have no plans to go back because I always want to remember it where it was before.

  • countach

    December 31, 2010 at 6:41 am

    The video seems to be offline. There is a error saying: “Oh noes, error playing file. (…)”

  • DevilishGuitar_Guy

    January 1, 2011 at 2:04 am

    James, I’ve been watching your videos from the beginning, all of them, and I could not find this one. But now I’m glad that I did, because you, my funny-fantastic-filmer, have touched my heart with that music, and the idea of lost memories met once again…nearly made me cry.

    So, Here is a salute to you, James Rolfe, to one of the very few people who can make me feel for them

    - Taner Balkaya (a.k.a. DevilishGuitar_Guy)

  • bugsycline

    January 1, 2011 at 7:24 pm

    I gotta say that these types of stories realy touch my heart.
    There is something that I find completely wrong about the way towns and cities seem to always remove the things that made so many memories and dreams possible.
    Much like what was done to Beale Street in Memphis, Maxwell Street in Chicago, “The Hill” in Pittsburgh and so on and so on.

    These things are a part of not only our history, but also our culture. They need to be kept the way they were. Instead our very history is slowly being erased. A sad thing.

  • oxyking

    January 2, 2011 at 8:30 pm

    wow that made me choke up quite a but, i’m sorry none of your inspirations got changed james

  • January 3, 2011 at 1:52 am

    wow …. this viedo really made me feel something …. i think all of us carry a special place like this in our heart from or child hood where we draw inspiration in all walk’s of life to make us do what we do, it takes a true filmaker like you james to make us feel the full spectrum of emotions , from the comedy of your nerd viedos – to the horror of your films- to viedos like this ; thank you

  • Jenifer

    January 3, 2011 at 8:43 pm

    wow i just dont know how to say what i want… but i just want you to know that for you making moves was you way to face the fear… that was you self-treatment and it should be… please dont make videos for us… your fans… make em for yourself… because you want to make them, if you are doing this just for us… please stop, because whats great about your videos its that you dont want to please anybody… you just do what you like and say what you think…. and that what we want…
    Thaks for sharing this with us… and im glad that that dragon exist… cuz thanks to it i have the pleasure to meet you and your work….
    love you James…. please think about what said…. :D

  • January 4, 2011 at 9:33 am

    That’s one hell of a revelation in your life James. You’ve gotten this far with your talent, I hope you can get to cranking out those films you’ve wanted to do but with a bigger budget. You’ve brought so many people entertainment with what you do, I think your next ten years will be the big leagues. Go be the next Sam Raimi.

  • Unluckiest7

    January 4, 2011 at 11:37 pm

    Very…interesting James. Thank you for bringing us along to see this.

  • maskemannen

    January 5, 2011 at 10:00 am

    A movie, game or song has never made me cry before. Some might have provoked sadness, or many other feelings, but never driven me to crying. When you saw the dragon I cried. I can’t explain why, but i did. I have watched everything you have done here on the site, and I have been a fan for a long time now. Somehow this movie went by unnoticed and I didn’t see it until now. In many ways I admire you and what you have accomplished. You have a passion for movies, and you won’t give up. And look how far it has gotten you. Getting money for doing something you love is nothing but a dream for most people, but through this passion you have accomplished it. I admire you for that.

  • John07

    January 5, 2011 at 11:06 am

    Very inspiring, I wish you all the best luck James

  • jman91896

    January 5, 2011 at 11:05 pm

    James,
    I’ve watched your videos for a long time. This comment probably will sound the same as everybody else’s. But you are my true inspiration. I started writing scripts in 3rd grade, but I stopped for a while. I came back to writing them in 6th grade, and joined a group called, “Film Club”. What we do there is get together on Friday’s and make one big movie that I write. The movies range between 15 minutes to an hour. This year (8th grade) we’re making a movie called, “The Last Case” and I was voted the main character. My friend David and I are insanely passionate about movies, and it’s nice to see that others are fascinated by them too. I, above anybody else I could possibly meet, would like to meet you so much. i might even send you a copy of “The Last Case”, if you’re interested.
    Julian

  • darkmetaly

    January 6, 2011 at 8:52 pm

    very nice james. p.s. I love your horror movies.

  • January 6, 2011 at 9:19 pm

    just hearwarming, man. beautiful… im happy you got there in time

  • AikoujOi

    January 7, 2011 at 11:32 pm

    Watched this video on YouTube twice now and I think this was a really good video. I liked it and it made me sad.

    I thought both times I watched the vid that there’s a sad, mellow country song somewhere in there.

    Great work

  • crazycash

    January 8, 2011 at 7:22 pm

    Touching dude, touching. But I saw the bloopers.!

  • January 9, 2011 at 3:48 am

    I’ve seen this multiple times and this brings me to tears every time. It’s beautiful truly it is. I even registered just to say that. I’ve watched every video you’ve made on this site and became a fan since I discovered the Angry Video Game Nerd in Summer 2007. I’ve since watched all the other things you’ve made and it’s weird. I feel like I know you more than I should, as though we’re close friends even though you’ve never met me. I suppose that happens when you make so many videos though. To see such an emotional and significant moment for you, I honestly can’t contain myself. It’s odd, but you actually seem more composed than me over seeing the dragon, and I’m only watching it by video…

    This means a lot to me, these videos started out as just a few mins of mindless entertainment but they have become much more to me. They brought me happiness at a time when all I had was the bare minimum of money to live offf and an internet connection. I felt I could relate to someone who I found interesting and entertaining, and to see the origins, to share such personal memories is touching.

    Thank you James. I know it sounds like a fanboy praise but you added a little extra happiness at a time when I needed it most and this video makes me appreciate your dreams so much. I wish you all the success you could hope for.

  • January 11, 2011 at 3:39 pm

    As much i love AVGN – this is your best film, James. I’d call it the proof, that you can touch the people with funny stuff like AVGN or Board James and even with deep and serious films like this. Maybe we all are lucky internet guys, who can see a guy making his way from youtube to cinemas. I wish you the very very best for realising your dreams from the bottom of my heart.

  • January 12, 2011 at 12:39 pm

    How…inspiring!
    I’ve always had the feeling that you were deep, but this is something else…

  • Thebackgroundguy

    January 12, 2011 at 8:04 pm

    My mom just informed me that I was a Fox Chase several times. Apparently my Grandfather was brought there several times for Chemotherapy when he had cancer. That is amazing, being so close to where someone I look up to so much first got his inspiration. This is honestly very amazing to me. I wonnder if it has anything to do with the fact that I like to make movies now, after all, I am still young, like you were, James. Wow. What a small world.

  • thegreatace

    January 13, 2011 at 8:23 pm

    ditto to everyone. what treasures there are to be had in a child’s mind.
    thank you James for your dedication to your dreams and your personal story.

  • DevilishGuitar_Guy

    January 14, 2011 at 8:28 am

    did anyone else notice that when someone (i.e. myself) makes a long speech expressing his own feelings, other people pretty much copied it over and over?

  • Thebackgroundguy

    January 16, 2011 at 4:37 pm

    @DevilishGuitar_Guy I hope you don’t mean me. I am a huge fan of James. He reminds me of myself, the way I would get friends over and make movies. I even was eventually given the video camera that my dad bought because I used it so much. I love all of the classic horror movies too. I am 14 and decided that I want to get a degree in acting and filmmaking. I didn’t copy anything. I just found it highly ironic that I was so close to where James got his inspiration. It amazed me. Just because you feel a certain way, doesn’t mean everyone else copied you. I didn’t even read yours.

  • Ktwann

    January 17, 2011 at 1:54 pm

    Oh man, not going to lie this film choked me up quite a bit, but it was really cool getting to see the real James Rolfe without being in character or reviewing something.

  • Roark

    January 21, 2011 at 11:35 am

    Touching story. Made me get a greater understanding of James

  • Motoss

    January 21, 2011 at 4:51 pm

    James, I watched this video when you released it and watching it again today I had to register on the site and say something. This has got to be one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen on the internet. I’ve always been interested in memories and how they affect us, and this really went to my heart.

  • nilbog90

    January 23, 2011 at 7:46 pm

    You shouldn’t take yourself so seriosly. This thing didn’t touch me, it made me think about how cheesy it is.

  • TyroneAlfonso

    January 24, 2011 at 12:34 am

    @nigbog90

    your mom’s cheesy. its called douche… she needz it. bad.

  • January 24, 2011 at 1:17 am

    Man, I almost cried over this. Very touching.

  • mcnerven

    January 24, 2011 at 2:36 am

    It’s funny, never did I really expect to find this on a site about angry video game rants and horror movie reviews, but glad I stumbled across this. It’s always touching to see how others gain their inspirations in life and awesome that you were able to connect with one of your childhood dreams.

  • January 24, 2011 at 5:02 am

    James, I have watched most of the films on cinemassacre and this is easily my favourite.

    There is not much I can say that hasnt been said by the folk below this comment but I will rant on anyway.

    I think its fucking wonderful the way cinemassacre, and you’re dreams, have panned out the way you want them. I geniunely think you deserve it, which coming from me a scottish 19 year old who DESPISES most people, I would say that is a compliment.

    I dream I have is that one day I may meet you, Unlikely, but it is a nice thought as you remind me so much, from sense of humour to the same taste of movies and mediocre games!

    The reason I dont really like people is at school, like you, People would ask what I like to do, and I would reply “I like to play Videogames, draw, write scripts and sculpt.” (Could never fucking afford a video camera) and people would get personal satisfaction from shitting all over my dreams. That was 7 or 8 years ago and It still has a huge blow on my self esteem.

    You however are one of the first people in a long, long time to inspire me to embrace what I do and tell everyone else to eat goat shit, which is really cool.

    I thank you James and I hope you all the best for all you’re future projects.

  • FlatronLV

    January 24, 2011 at 5:17 am

    Very inspirational ;)

  • January 24, 2011 at 5:32 am

    super mega depressing, this video makes me want to slit my writsts and drink some orange juice (NATAS) but really why does it get me so down, is it the title, is it the subject? or is it because it is so f$%^&$g creapy.

    I hate it BOOM BOOM BOOM!

    http://www.vizzed.com/vizzedboard/index.php?ref=65348

  • Nightmare19

    January 24, 2011 at 7:59 am

    This is the 2nd time I’ve watched this and I got all choked up just as much as the 1st time. I’m actually holding back the tears!

  • gradual

    January 24, 2011 at 1:25 pm

    lol@ the nerdface at 1:27

  • January 24, 2011 at 1:35 pm

    if you had a huge budget and you could do it really good, you should do a movie where the dragon actually talks to you and tells you to keep making great movies, and keep playing those shitty games LOL.

  • Pedofinder

    January 24, 2011 at 8:25 pm

    this video realy got me thinking myself James.
    When i was a little kid, I always had this dream recurring dream about almost getting eaten everytime by an aligator. I would run into a house that’s hard to reach. I’d climb thousands of steps, and when I finally got in, the aligator was as big as godzilla. I would wake up everytime when it would bite me.
    I asked my parents about this dream once and where it might have come from. Apparently, the first time i went to america as a kid (I live in the Netherlands and i was almost 3 years old), we visited my grandparents in Florida. We saw alot of aligators on the side of the road once and my grandparents’s house entrance was 10 steps up a stair first. After knowing that, I imagined the house they lived in and figured that it was the same house as in my dreams.
    This video made me think about all of this again.
    Great video James, fantastic job.
    Oh and sorry if there are grammar mistakes:)

  • jackevil

    January 25, 2011 at 4:37 pm

    I got to know you as AVGN like almost everyone here.

    But this is by far the best video you ever made.

    Thank you James.

  • K2

    January 29, 2011 at 7:47 pm

    Really touching. And the music score is just beautiful.
    Thank you so much.

  • taylorimes

    January 29, 2011 at 8:07 pm

    By far my favorite video. Thanks for every thing you do, we appreciate it.

  • nisiotis

    January 30, 2011 at 3:18 pm

    Childhood is our most precious time…what we see and experience makes a huge impact on what type of people we become in our adult lives. I think back on places and memories from my childhood almost everyday and cherish those memories very much, Fantastic video James, now I dont feel alone with my thoughts and feelings anymore, Thank you.

  • Cdy2007

    January 31, 2011 at 11:24 pm

    I’ve seen just about all of your videos and this is definitely one of my favorites. Not just because it was so well made but also because it showed me that you went to the same park that I did when I was little. I lived like, 3 blocks from there so I spent a lot of time there and I remember playing around the dragon too. Anyway, I love your videos. Keep up the awesome work and keep rockin’ \m/

  • AtlasNR

    February 4, 2011 at 7:43 pm

    This touched me on a level nothing has before. It’s something I think every single one of us can relate to as we get older. As difficult as it may be, we all need to face the past sometime and move forwards in life.

    I believe it was fate that brought you there at that moment. Nothing else can explain it.

    Thank you James for everything. The films, the webisodes, everything. I really want to see you succeed and make your dreams a reality. After all dreams are where it all began right? I will be here cheering you on.

  • February 16, 2011 at 12:04 am

    This is a great short film; I almost cried, too. Thanks for sharing, Mr. Rolfe. :)

  • DiegoPlanes

    March 1, 2011 at 11:13 am

    From a french fan:

    This video shows to everyone that you were born to make movies.
    I will translate the video and add subtitles in french, if you allow me.

    Stay the same, I think you’re in the right way to make your dreams come true.

  • Senter

    March 6, 2011 at 8:32 am

    I’ve never seen this one before. It’s really beautiful. Childhood memories are those memories you will remember throughout your life. I hope you will always follow your dreams.

  • darkslord123

    March 6, 2011 at 2:16 pm

    that was amazing! it gave me chills and it was inspiring

  • Rockycv

    March 6, 2011 at 5:58 pm

    just WoW….amaizing…

  • Lodmot

    March 6, 2011 at 8:59 pm

    I’ve been listening to the video game reviews for several years now. My son is really into them. As a therapist, I’ve often wondered just who the guy who did all that ranting really was. Now, just as I suspected, I see. What a beautifully, sensitive, well documented and inspiring piece of work! Bravo, Mr. Video Game Nerd!

    Lodmot’s mom

  • natethegreat911

    March 6, 2011 at 10:40 pm

    That was an awesome video, really touching.

  • mirbo

    March 7, 2011 at 3:10 am

    Hope you put this on the next DVD you release

  • Camuseiya

    March 7, 2011 at 1:20 pm

    Awesome and inspiring!! my first memory is also a dream!

  • cobaltnightsky

    March 7, 2011 at 3:37 pm

    James, I only know you through your video. Your make me laugh, you teach me things about cinema, you almost made me cried. Yeah, I’m sensitive, but who cares? Anyway, I am truly touched by this video because I feel that you share real emotions with us, from the internet, all over the world. You point a very important thing in life: from where it all begins. For all of us. Perhaps this dragon was the trigger for your creativity. Perhaps you would be looking for yourself, your deep within, without it. James, I don’t know you, but I feel very honored to know you through my 15″ screen. If I get the chance to come to the US, I’ll make sure to find you and play an AVGN with you, “yeah, a fucking AVGN episode with you, that would be fucking awesome” ^^ I only wish you one thing: that you can go on with what you like. And I wish for all of us that we will be watching, one day, some James Rolfe movies in cinemas. Cheers from France, keep on going James.

  • Nightmare19

    March 7, 2011 at 11:39 pm

    This is the 4th time I’ve watched this video and this time it made me cry. Beautiful stuff James. I hope I can find my fountain of youth when I turn 30, it’s coming soon.

  • MeetMyMeat

    March 8, 2011 at 3:16 pm

    This video inspired me, gave me chills, hell, it almost made me cry. I’ve been following your work since I discovered AVGN in 2006, but this video was the best video you ever made, it literally gave me the chills. If I ever find the time and/or money to come to the US, I will be honored to (maybe) shake your hand. Thanks to you, I’ve started making some short movies as well. I’m only 16, so when I started making films, I had everything at my disposal: A computer, editing software, HD camcorder, you had to do it with your imagination and with what you could build. You probably won’t read this, but I just wanted to say thank you for being a source of inspiration, and just somebody I look up to. I wish you the best of luck in filmmaking, and just life in general. Thank you.

  • March 8, 2011 at 9:38 pm

    Wow bro, that was an incredible video; I’ve always admired your passion for movies. You are sort of a role model for me and i guess for everyone out there who watches your stuff, you’ve taught us to stick to our dreams and make the most out of them no matter how wild or improbable they appear to be. Moreover, to actually see the source of it is actually very touching and although it hurts my man’s pride I admit i had a giant knot in my throat by end of the vid. You are great dude James, keep doing your thing, the effect of your work on people’s life is more profound than you know it. Godspeed.

  • Areguil

    March 8, 2011 at 10:32 pm

    I was choked up watching, so inspiring. I hope he fulfills his life long dream. It’s nice to watch a video of his personal life for change.

  • March 9, 2011 at 4:11 am

    Amazing man, simply amazing (I”m from brazil excuse me from my bad writing) Is so good to see this side of you, I kept wondering how was your life before de AGVN, now I know a little bit more, because you really are a interesting person and character. One of my favorite things is watching your videos, and I congratulate you for your 300 videos and a happy birthday in advance… Thanks for good moments, and knowledge aside from making me laugh and teaching me about movies I never heard… you made me remember my own childhood and dreams, which was great… Thanks a lot James keep up the good work… and for a moment there I thought you’re going to take that dragon home.

  • HeavyMetalFan420

    March 9, 2011 at 7:52 pm

    Wow James, this is mind blowing. I found my self almost crying at the end. I truly do think fate is what brought you there on that important Tuesday. James, you are my role model, and you are my hero. Im in 6th grade now, (11) and I just want to let you know that I have showed all of my friends your movie reviews, and your game reviews, and we all adore you. You inspired me to make movies, not that good of movies, but movies that mean a lot to me. I praise you James. Now your a bit older, but you definitely know how to live life. Keep on Rockin’!!

  • Freaknut

    March 21, 2011 at 3:53 am

    Truly, I am touched. That was so moving and heartwarming that, like many others, I was almost brought to tears. One of your more sensitive movies, for sure. Thanks for the insight to yourself, James. :,)

  • March 31, 2011 at 11:59 pm

    James I really love when you do these type of films, no matter what the subject is. They are always inspiring, and really makes the viewer think about the subject and how it pertains to their lives. Great work. One of my favorite fillms that you have done.

  • MikeWillis

    April 11, 2011 at 9:18 pm

    James,

    This movie inspired me to follow my dreams of becoming a director. I’m planning on doing the 48 Hour Film Project this year, do you have any advice? I am a huge fan of yours and I look up to you. I enjoy AVGN but the stuff you do behind the camera is so amazing and inspiring. I really like The Deader The Better and Legend Of The Blue Hole is the best pilot of any show I have ever scene, if i owned a network I’d buy it in a heart beat. So please follow your dreams and make that feature film, you are an amazing writer and an amazing director.

    Sincerely,
    Mike Willis

  • April 19, 2011 at 9:32 am

    This is absolutely extraordinary. How that dragon went through your dreams and then reflected itself through your whole life.
    Moreover, the day you visit, is the day it is leaving. Amazing James. Amazing.

  • AlucarD13AVGNFAN

    April 23, 2011 at 7:59 pm

    Wow , I watched this a while a go and I had ti re-watch it , I had a little tear come out my left eye…
    You’re such an inspiration to myself and to keep going making movies is also my dream my first memories are playing super Mario world on this really star filled night sky for some reason…
    You’re just an amazing person I was speechless throughout the whole thing and while I have PC’s and all that junk to make videos (I’m 15) , all you had was you’re imagination and passion for what you did , if I one day ever go to the States I would be honored to shake your hand .
    You´ll probably never read this but for all that you do , all that enjoyment that you send throughout the world the fact that you are such an Idol or inspiration that you send for me and others, and that when something bad happens like the earthquake in Japan you always pitch in and help however you can , all I can say is:
    Thank you James …

  • MeIsToneh

    April 29, 2011 at 4:54 pm

    Man, your story was really touching. Too bad the dragon was removed :(

  • Twitch1981

    May 12, 2011 at 1:03 am

    Wow, that was really deep. You know the funny thing? That ET in the Window thing, same thing happened to me when I was a kid. Every time I tell some one there like “ET? How could he be scary?” Its nice to know I’m not the only one who saw him LOL. Keep Up the good work James, you are an inspiration to me, and seeing this video made me want to register to your site so I could leave this comment. God Bless.

  • JamesDean4ever

    May 15, 2011 at 8:52 pm

    Being 27 with 30 fast approaching I was very deeply moved by this video. I love all your stuff but this is one of the best so far. I’m a huge fan and I hope you get the opportunity to make movies on the big screen soon. <3

  • Bioshot

    May 28, 2011 at 8:58 pm

    This is how I felt when Geauga Lake Amusement Park in Ohio where I live got closed down in 2004. When I was little, I used to go there and I went there one more time just a few months before the park closed. It’ll live on in my dreams, I’m sure. It is where I met many of my current friends, including a guy whom I just found out is my cousin. Unforgettable.

  • 037MasterMind037

    June 6, 2011 at 2:33 am

    good shit

  • Blahet

    June 11, 2011 at 6:04 pm

    James Duncan Rolfe, You are my role model, and the reason I’m in New York Film Academy to become a screenwriter. Thank you for your insporation on me.

  • ClassicGamer

    June 13, 2011 at 4:08 pm

    Great stuff James, I always get kind a knot in my throat every time I hear something about someone finding something about their childhood. And it really sucks how they’re moving the dragon, but at first I thought they were getting rid of it.

    Amazing stuff, you are an amazing film person.

  • Skeletonz

    June 13, 2011 at 5:33 pm

    Wow. This almost made me cry. Great stuff, I bet some day you’ll make an awesome movie thats feature length just like you want! I’ll make sure and go see it!

  • Luigi12

    June 18, 2011 at 2:47 pm

    This reminded me of my fountain of youth.

  • NPigeon

    July 8, 2011 at 12:26 am

    Wow. Really great. All I have to say really its awesome to tape something like that.

  • WilsonX100

    July 10, 2011 at 11:13 pm

    James, I’ve been a very long time viewer of your work, and I’ve always loved it. this is a touching, sad, happy, inspiring film of yours, and it shows me that i can do whatever i want to, just like you. You always wanted to do film, and now its your life. And when the AVGN movie is finished, your goal of having that feature film will be completed. You are a very good film maker and entertainer, and i will always continue to watch all of your work, you informed me on so many different things. Games, movies, little facts, camera work and editing, things like that. I appreciate what you do, and i like your connection with the viewers. Thank you!

  • btr88tuxedoblack

    July 13, 2011 at 6:57 am

    I loved this video.

    cobaltnightsky

    is completely right, thankyou James for sharing videos like this, and pointing out that where we come from shouldnt be forgotten and makes us who we are.

    I like these videos. They have real heart and thanks again James for thinking enough of your fans to share something so deeply personal.

    Its also so interesting to learn about what motivates you as a film maker, but more importantly as a human being.

    Excellent work man!

  • July 14, 2011 at 3:03 am

    All of your work has inspired me. Im 16 right now and ive been watching your videos since i was 12. I love making movie, and i hope to make a feature film someday. I love old games, movie, music from the 70′s, 80′s, and 90′s. Back to the future being my top favorite movie. so i love your AVGN episodes. Ive watched almost every single one.

  • NesirtualGamer

    July 25, 2011 at 2:04 pm

    Horifyingly depressing, thank you James, I can t say why watching this makes me so depressed, it makes me tumble into a black hole of dispair which I cannot escape, you should be more aware of this when you post something so existentially black with denial. Thank god for Super Maio World and Vizzed where I can play games for free http://www.vizzed.com/vizzedboard/retro/game.php?id=8616&system=snes&name=Super-Mario-World&ref=65348

    I am so down now only looking to the light and a few nerd videos can lift my depression you have let me down

  • July 30, 2011 at 5:02 pm

    That was emotional man, you did one heck of a job. The playground of my youth was renovated about 10~12 years ago, doesn’t even look the same as it once did. The only thing remaining is a tree off to the side we use to play under, that tree holds a LOT of memories.

  • wesker973

    August 6, 2011 at 4:06 am

    I don’t even know what to say, this was not only art as another amazing, well-made video, but definitely something more than that. I feel as I and probably everyone who watched, were kicked back and reminded of that one special thing that gave us so much inspiration when we were young, like the dragon was for you. For me, I think its the home alone movies, I’ve watched the first two at least 500 times, and they were the movies I watched all the time when I was very little and when I was sick, I get that nostalgic feeling every time I watch them. I feel as they were that one thing that could always comfort me and they still do today. I’m an avid movie collector now, and though my collection is nothing close to yours or Mike’s, its quite extensive and I think that comes from home alone, I just love all movies I see and can’t get enough of them. Thank You for posting this video James, its always nice to know more about the man behind the camera that brings all of us so much entertainment and laughter, and also I feel it reminded all of us of those childhood memories and how we should never forget them, because they helped make us into who we are. I’m 18 now, almost 19 and watching this and your other avgn/cinemassacre videos always remind me of when me and my older brother would play SNES Turtles in Time or N64 Goldeneye, or Ocarina of Time, thanks also James for bringing back those good memories. Since my brother showed me your videos a couple years ago, I’ve become addicted to all of them; you and all the people you work with really are talented, I know for sure that you are gonna go places. Thanks Again for enlightening us all, you’re a good guy James. – Adam

  • zengie

    August 6, 2011 at 11:29 pm

    i have these emotions with music and proud of being a musician!! thanx James keep doing what you do!

  • Rhyan Chapman

    August 14, 2011 at 10:37 am

    Hey james love this video and your cinemassacre 200 video has inspired me alot! if you get the time i would really appreciate if you could like my media facebook page.
    http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Rhyan-Chapman-Media/101300983306679
    i wont message you or bug you or anything haha

    anyways really love this video and never seen you this emotionall before! how did you keep your emotions inside and i dont know how you managed to not cry because i know i did :,(

    hope you movie is like this :)

  • Oivind

    August 14, 2011 at 11:32 am

    This is only the second time I’ve watched this, the first time was so long ago and it was so emotional that I could barely take it . Now I still get chocked up and feel like crying like a baby.

    Mr Rolfe, I envy you .Because I have great difficulties recalling the one item or object that might have shaped me as a person. Although I do seem to remember what might’ve been the earliest of my nightmares(Forgive my poor grammar, I’m Norwegian :P).

    I remember as a little kid ,I had this lamp attached to the roof. It was shaped like a cloud of some sort. In the dark it looked like it had some kind of a face. Of course like many others I was afraid to go to sleep and had a tremendous fear of the dark so that might’ve been my imagination. But in my nightmare the lamp would silently start to move around and then quietly flap what looked like wings and fly down towards me…

    As unfortunately vague as my childhood memories are, I’ve never forgotten this nightmare.

    Ever since this site came to the web I’ve paid attention, even before you posted some of your movies online. Just by reading about them, looking at those stills from your first movies and upwards, makes anyone want to grab a camera. Seeing this movie….I’m almost speechless. When you make your feature film, I’m gonna see it as soon as it comes out in the cinema or on DVD!

    Well done! (and sorry for the long text)

  • August 17, 2011 at 11:19 am

    I’ve been on a nostalgia trip for a few years now and I recently discovered your videos and this website. I love all of your videos, you are funny, informative and genuine. And I think after watching this film I know a little bit more about why I enjoy watching all your work. It reminds me of the good ‘ol days. Thank you James!

  • hiczok

    September 9, 2011 at 7:24 am

    Thats very good video and a moving story. Hope You will never lost Your passion!

  • Loffyglu

    September 10, 2011 at 8:37 pm

    That was an incredibly moving story… Amazing what sort of effect seeing artifacts from our childhood can have on us. (Also, lol, I think I recognize the area… it’s near where I live! XD)

  • sonicasublime

    September 18, 2011 at 11:48 am

    Made me cry. You should have taken a picture at the same place as the black and white one, and compared. And I’d love to see it if you did.

  • LuizFelipeSilvaAntero

    September 18, 2011 at 12:59 pm

    this video is awesome, james, youre an amazing director, you truly are

  • BRTD2011

    October 20, 2011 at 11:19 am

    god…i was thrilled to the bones! though this story has no obvious similarities with my life, still it’s soooooo strong emotionally…..I even cried all the way after the dragon appeared, can you believe this?! i guess what makes this movie so heartwarming is it’s sincerity….and it’s so sad yet inspiring!! Thank you!!

    • MegaManX

      March 23, 2012 at 12:29 am

      I cried as well, it was very touching and I have never cried to a movie or film before.

  • Starcraft39

    October 21, 2011 at 1:53 pm

    Ever since I was a child I was fixated on video game bosses and I never before made the correlation between bosses/dragons and any challenge in life that needs to be met. It’s needless to say that you are an inspiration to all and a beacon of light to nerds of all genres.

    I actually have been struggling in college to find a direction for my life. I’ve always been interested in writing and playing video games and drawing and creating stupid things like board games where once you get to a certain spot on the board you have to load up a game and beat a boss in it. Film is a culmination of writing, visuals, atmosphere, and creative vision. I also learned from your videos that likeminded people exist everywhere, and the world of filmography could be where I can meet them. It makes me want to make my own site and upload homemade videos for people to enjoy without expectation of reward. Anything done in life should have heart behind it or you’re wasting your time.

    If James Rolfe can do it, so can I.

  • Starcraft39

    October 23, 2011 at 6:11 pm

    I probably watch this video every day since i’ve seen it.

  • Starcraft39

    October 23, 2011 at 6:13 pm

    @Vizzed.com Scam.

  • November 2, 2011 at 1:36 pm

    What is the name of the song that plays when you look at the dragon?

  • AndreasDanielAskelin

    December 10, 2011 at 4:57 pm

    You Mr Rolfe is a movie producing genius! The moment you sat down infront of the Dragon made my heart so warm and sorrowfull. It looked like you beat the dragon and you parted as friends and being almost a new man from the experience. Im certain that you will become the next big name in movies soon

  • RhyanChapman

    December 26, 2011 at 8:48 pm

    JAMES great news the dragon is officially staying at the park, if mike or anyone sees this then please inform him! the dragon is staying

  • snowboarderDNT

    December 28, 2011 at 6:46 pm

    Can someone please tell me the song when he sees the Dragon?

  • rogerdodger1998

    January 20, 2012 at 8:26 pm

    This nearly made me cry.

  • January 23, 2012 at 1:07 am

    James, I think you should know that everyone has that one thing they want to hold onto. That one piece from when you were little, when you were still some innocent little kid. It’s hard to let it go, and most people know that if they’ve gone so far as twelve years old. I’m sure everyone here is happy for you, and a little impressed, that you could do it.

    All of your serious videos really inspire me as a person, to do what I want to do (I’m a writer), and find what I want in life. I guess what I’m trying to say, James, for everyone here, is thank you. And good luck. We all consider ourselves your friends, and you should call on us whenever you need help with anything. We’re behind you.

    PS: Also, sorry about not being able to donate. I don’t have any money at the moment.

  • Guru88

    February 6, 2012 at 9:55 pm

    This video is so inspiring… You can really feel the emotions radiating from James and his passion for film making. I can’t wait to see the big movie and see this passion in action.

  • February 8, 2012 at 1:25 am

    this is inspiring, i think its important to find that place inside, before you start creating a place on the outside.

  • Starcraft39

    February 10, 2012 at 7:23 pm

    Every time I watch it I get even more excited about film-making.

  • NinjaRed Estrada

    February 13, 2012 at 1:38 pm

    the earliest memory i had was of a nurse saving my life when i was born. i was born choking on my umbilical chord, and if it weren’t for her, i wouldn’t be commenting. it was this was memory that pops up every now and then that reminds me of why i want to be a doctor, why i want to help others.

    • Spottedfeather

      February 22, 2012 at 4:45 am

      @NinjaRed Estrada You can’t possibly remember the day you were born.

  • SemisolidSnake

    February 14, 2012 at 2:57 am

    Beautiful and inspiring, James. Like so many, it really moved me.

    On a hunch, I decide to check out Google Street View, and indeed, it did have a cached picture of the park with the dragon before it was moved. It’s blurry and far away, but it’s right there in the center. Kind of like the way you’ve described your dreams, except, unlike this picture, those are getting clearer and closer every day for you.

    Anyways, here you go. Keep up the good work.

    http://img189.imageshack.us/img189/4392/dragoninjamesdreams.jpg

  • KevinSchuerger

    February 18, 2012 at 12:11 am

    This was so awesome to watch …. i have so many things in my mind like that from my child hood … it is really hard to let go … i actually never will. Your films are so awesome dude

  • JeramieKruger

    February 19, 2012 at 2:20 am

    An extremely moving piece, James. After your experience with AVGN: The Movie is complete, and you do the tours an dget it on DVD… You should seriously consider a full length documentary.

  • Erwinator

    February 19, 2012 at 1:02 pm

    unfortunately , my place of origin is destroyed. It’s just a field with grass on it now. :(

  • r3dstar

    February 22, 2012 at 11:40 am

    I loved this. I just turned 31, and if it wasnt for my son and my wife, there would just be this big empty hole. Now, I live for them, and age dosent matter. My life is complete and I’ll die a happy man. Still dosen’t mean I don’t want to have fun. Anyways, this really touched me James, thanks for making something like this.

  • r3dstar

    February 22, 2012 at 11:43 am

    My dragon is gone as well, it was the old fashioned haunted house at the Pavilion in Myrtle Beach. You rode these old timey cars through the haunted house, it was great. Obviously there are other things I miss as a child. I’m glad yours still exist.

  • r3dstar

    February 22, 2012 at 11:43 am

    My dragon is gone as well, it was the old fashioned haunted house at the Pavilion in Myrtle Beach. You rode these old timey cars through the haunted house, it was great. Obviously there are other things I miss as a child. I’m glad yours still exist.

  • Arcade

    February 27, 2012 at 5:30 pm

    Wonderful video, this made me tear up.
    My earliest memory was of a beautiful, clear, blue sky, while riding in the front seat of my parent’s car. I was probably about 1 or 2 years old. I remember feeling like I had just woken up, not from sleeping, but almost like I woke up from not knowing how to comprehend anything, and now I could. It was the first time I became self aware, the first time I was really able to think about anything. I remember being so small that my feet didn’t reach the end of the seat, and being so low down that I couldn’t see out my right side window either; all I could see was upward, out the front window, at the clear blue sky. I wasn’t in a car seat either, I asked my mom about it, she said she never had my brother or I in car seats, only infant seats, because at that time it wasn’t law to have a toddler in a car seat. I aways remember this memory, it was like the day I became me, I understood that I was alive.

  • esan169

    March 9, 2012 at 5:02 pm

    When I was a child I had a best friend named Nick. Every day Nick, my brother, and i would pretend to be knights fighting against invisible foes. We built a fort from a tree that had been split in two by lighting. And, that was our castle. We would meet there every day. We’d train with our play weapons and prepare for oncoming attacks. Nick taught me all about the history of the middle ages. About knights and castles and kings. This was my first memories of history. Nick no longer lives near me but he’ll always be my best friend. That fort is still standing in the forest standing as a symbol of our friendship. I recently went back to the fort and I’ll say it was a teary reunion. The fort will always be my greatest inspiration and is the reason why I love history.

    • esan169

      March 9, 2012 at 5:02 pm

      I am now studying to be a history professor
       

  • AGiza

    March 12, 2012 at 2:27 pm

    This video is very awe-inspiring !
    I couldn’t stop referring-it to my own personal life.
    Very very inspiring.
    thanks James ! 

  • HorazStCruz

    March 13, 2012 at 6:19 pm

    I just can’t stop crying. This is truly inspiring, not only for struggling artists such as myself and many others around here, but for everyone determined to make a plan and stick with it, no matter how hard or tough it can get sometimes.
     
     Best regards from Argentina, James. You are a great man. Thank you so much.
     
     

  • Romet

    March 19, 2012 at 7:56 am

    This whole video is a very inspiring “Rocky”-like moment. We all saw your emotions and your dreams, your origin and your struggles. You are an inspiration to film makers, i conscider you my film making Jesus. Greetings from Estonia 

  • MegaManX

    March 23, 2012 at 12:27 am

    Very, very touching James, I hope that you push on and keep striving to make your films of your dreams!

  • DwrekDC

    April 22, 2012 at 12:32 am

    Amazing short film James, we can all relate to you. It is a very moving film. Thank you. Never stop following your dreams!

  • kj6991

    April 22, 2012 at 12:53 am

    This is one of the most moving films I have seen in a long time. I’ve never cried the way I did while (and after) watching this. James we all feel for you, and the courage you had to face a precious childhood memory which inspired you to become who you are…overwhelming.

    Never give up on your dreams or what you believe in! If you do, it’d be like destroying all that which the dragon gave you as a child and as your present self.

  • semperfi2013

    April 22, 2012 at 9:18 am

    Oh my god…….I’m tearing up to an AVGN video…….Because there was a playground, not more than 100 feet from my house that was attached to my elementary school. I spent all of my free time there, and this year they tore up the playground to build another building. I tried to stop the construction crew, but I couldn’t. So painful to watch them destroy the pinnacle of hope in my childhood……..But I couldn’t walk away.

    James…….I don’t know if you’ll get this, but thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing this.

  • Everestman161

    April 23, 2012 at 11:56 am

    Hi James, said it before, but I’ll say it again…What you and all you do ROCK! After watching this video, “The Dragon in My Dream” I can honestly say you brought many tears to my eyes. I enjoy living in the past of my youth and now at age 32 we are both part of an era that is similar even though we are different individuals. I have always wanted to follow my dreams and no one has been more of an inspiration to me other then yourself. Just like the video you posted after M. Jackson past away I myself released a small tribute to the King of Pop and presently working on a much longer documentary on him on Youtube. As we say goodbye to things in our past there’s both a happiness and sadness that goes along with it. No one likes to say goodbye to things from our past that we held so dear to us, but without saying goodbye we lose our ability to move forward which is a must for our own existance. It’s amazing how things that might not seem important are so important that without them we might not be or become who we are. Without this turning into a novel I’d just like to say thank you for making me the person who’ve I’ve become over the past few years. I was involved in a bad accident which basically confined me to my home after surgeries in the hospital and without the laughter and information that you’ve provided me, which in my case was the best medicine I could have ever had, I would just like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for your help in getting through some of the tougheest times in my life. Like I said before I don’t think you realize how much your films help, inspire, etc… some of us getting through our own personal lives and as I’ve past the park that funny enough was renovated not too long ago where I spent most of my youth, even though there wasn’t a dragon or a lot of inspiration, your video touched me in a way that showed me how to respect the past, say goodbye to the past, but never forget the past….Thank you again for helping me in ways you couldn’t possibly understand…Also a thanks to Mike and all of your crew…I wish you only the very best success in all that you do.

  • avgn_shitty_fucking_games95

    April 23, 2012 at 5:08 pm

    WOW James, let me tell you that is one hell of experience that you’ve went through and yet that basically inspired you to make movies and probably the angry video game nerd too. And in my opinion, that NIGHTMARE you had, made you an very acompolished man and I hope in my future, I hope I will have a future like yours, but not making movies and other shit, just make a game reviews and even start my own game review series and when I made my 100th game review, I will tell everyone that you, James Rolfe (angry video game nerd) have inspired me not physically, but through this video that I made my game series and I am one of his biggest fans ever and I hope one day we will meet, if of course you drive through the Ohio region

  • April 26, 2012 at 9:18 am

    Wow… that really took me back to the past. I was probably 4 years old when I met my childhood friend for the first time. With him and with my brother we had most amazing adventures on a roof of a garage that was partly underground, so grass grew on top of it. We fought rock monsters and went back and forth in time to conquer space or to have a medieval war.s and fight dragons All of that was accomplished by 3 kids who were 4-7 years old and had nothing but a roof of a garage and imagination. It was the most fun I have had to this day :) I’m in high school now and and I will graduate next year. After viewing this video I’m planning a trip back there. I’ll visit this land of imagination and wonder after graduation. I know it’s still there because my home city isn’t too far from where I live now. I just haven’t visited it a long time.

  • Eightbitshik

    May 1, 2012 at 7:52 am

    Thanks to your newest mailbag video I was able to know about this movie. I had not heard of it before this morning and when I heard you talking about it and the reaction of others I felt that I had to find it on the site.

    It was very good and I got emotional like I’ve read others have. It’s funny how your movie sparked many flash backs of my child hood as well. You faced a Dragon in yours and I would always hear the steps of a giant in my ear. It’s not confirmed but I believe that when I laid my head on my pillow at night the thumping I heard may of been my own heart echoing through my body but to me as a little kid I was always thought of a giant who would tear my roof off and eat me just like that famous giant did in that that Disney scrooge.

    I am still lost in my life and I don’t know what I want to do but I do know one thing I always do what I want to make myself happy. Not job wise, but life wise. I grew up loving cartoons, movies, games, comics, books and fantasy. I’ve never changed that, the perfect night for me is playing a game on my computer on one screen and having your videos playing on my 2nd. I am not a fan of watching things more then once because I feel I have so many hobbies that I would miss out on something else that is great but I’ve seen every AVGN more then 5 times. You and I are the same age and your memories are usually my exact same memories. When you say things about what you remember I was the exact same way.

    Though we grew up on different parts of the world, I bet if we were neighbors we would of been best friends and to me is why I watch all your videos. I want you to know that being one of your biggest fans that since you are kind of taking a break to focus on your movie we are all here to support you in it because we know you are doing what is best for our entertainment and more important what is best for your dreams and we only benefit from that. Thanks for being you.

  • Hjalmr

    May 3, 2012 at 4:18 pm

    Ironically my first memory was a 3-years old me standing on the playground and remember something, I can’t remember what that was but I do remember that I was thinking. I thought about that I didn’t remember the earliest parts of my life and I thought that in a couple of years I would have forgotten the memory that I held in my mind at that very moment. It was then I promised myself that I would never EVER forget that moment as I stood on the playground, I promised myself that even when I was old and gray and I had forgotten all of my life I would still remember me as a kid standing there on the playground in fear of the things I would forget.

  • Timpanderos

    May 6, 2012 at 1:09 pm

    Great movie!

    Almost immediately it reminded me of this song:
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=moU_0MCFEiA

  • weldedflight

    May 9, 2012 at 9:46 pm

    Touching. It really was. Made me tear up a bit.

  • DaddyOGITH

    May 26, 2012 at 9:34 am

    Too Bad for your Dragon Friend’ he is as Good as GONE’
    Like Beavis & ButtHead Would Say’
    This Future Nightmare SUCKS.

  • damon

    May 27, 2012 at 12:10 am

    I saw this on the sidebar when James had come back from filming the AVGN movie, (or least the parts in Hollywood) and I don’t know. maybe it was fate, just like the day James chose to see the dragon in the same spot for the last time….

  • Eipa

    May 27, 2012 at 6:31 am

    This actually made me cry. Thanks James, what a great story.

  • didal4

    May 27, 2012 at 6:47 pm

    Very touching and inspiring nicely done James

  • Galacticana

    June 9, 2012 at 11:16 am

    This is the most touching video I’ve seen on the site so far. You can really feel the emotion coming through James as he looks up at the dragon. Great story man, I really enjoyed getting to see the source of your inspiration. It’s pretty cool that after 30 years you were able to go back and visit the site of your first memories.
    Thank you for entertaining us all with all of your videos, I can’t wait for the AVGN Movie! I hope I’ll be able to see it in a theatre, I would love to see The Nerd on the big screen. Good luck with the rest of the production, I hope everything goes perfectly.

    PS: This video made me tear up too lol

  • BrakSampson

    June 9, 2012 at 3:10 pm

    Dammit James, you just made me cry like a little girl. Bravo.

    I really enjoyed getting to see a more personal endeavor from the man behind the nerd. Very inspiring, thank you.

  • Old Hay

    August 21, 2012 at 2:12 am

    I have a mental illness that makes it nearly impossible for me to remember events before 2005, so I will almost certainly never have any experience of this kind as long as I live. Sharing this with me means… more than you’ll know. A lot more. Excuse my gushing, James, but thank you so much once again.

  • BaseballPro2

    September 29, 2012 at 8:39 pm

    OH my fuckin god. This is a masterpiece. Thanks James. A LOT. This video will help me percevere to become who i want to be in the future. Since I’m only 14, I have some time. You are a true inspiration. Thank you

  • Rick

    October 10, 2012 at 7:53 pm

    James, man… this video means so much to so many… I hate to be so emotional but… you’re an inspiration… to me at the very least. Keep up the good work.

  • Spottedfeather

    October 25, 2012 at 1:53 am

    Where is this park ? I seem to remember knowing a while back, but I can’t remember now.

  • Edouard224

    October 28, 2012 at 9:48 pm

    I don’t usually cry during videos/movies but this was the rare ocasion.

  • Adlez

    November 1, 2012 at 2:50 am

    Indeed very thouching. Actually one of the best movies I have ever seen. I got goosebumps all over my body and tears in my eyes. I think everyone has his own ‘dragon’ which is a symbol for his own past. And so I think many people can feel exactly what you feel when you think about this dragon. Thank you, James.

  • Doug

    November 1, 2012 at 8:42 pm

    having watched some of my childhood landmarks disappear, it’s nice to know your the dragon lives on, if slightly more humble. i actually giggled when i read that.

  • Damonoxide

    January 16, 2013 at 1:47 am

    This actually made me tear up!…

    I just turned 31, and well, you inspire me! I dunno how, but you did.

    It’s hard to say…

    • Damonoxide

      January 16, 2013 at 2:56 am

      Watching this again…you brought me to tears…

    • Damonoxide

      January 16, 2013 at 3:14 am

      I seriously just cried…

  • David Williamson

    January 23, 2013 at 3:46 am

    Truly Amazing James. You inspire me everyday.

  • February 21, 2013 at 12:08 am

    Really neat story, very emotionally involved. Thanks for sharing it, I’m sure it’s inspired many.

  • Arc Nova

    March 6, 2013 at 11:35 pm

    I can’t believe I hadn’t seen this video until now. What a touching, moving, emotional piece! Watching it, I thought for sure the dragon had long since been destroyed until it was finally revealed. I’m really glad you showed up when you did. Must have been meant to be. :-)

    Now I’m reading the description. Even if it’s a little shorter, I’m very glad to see that it’s been preserved. Perhaps someday a fundraiser could be held to get it completely restored? :-)

  • fleysch

    March 7, 2013 at 8:24 pm

    truly amazing and inspiring. thank you for sharing this with us!

  • Geoff Clark

    March 20, 2013 at 8:19 pm

    I know how you feel James. Recently I had a traumatic experience with losing the love of my life to another man. Last year I returned to the house where I first found out what I wanted to do with my life. My first dream I had was when I was 7. I dreamt of winning the WWE tag team championship with my hero Stone Cold Steve Austin. Now here I am 13 years later. Preparing to start in the business. Thanks to that house I started dreaming of one day becoming the WWE Champion.

  • dartrixs

    March 22, 2013 at 11:12 pm

    Hes a true Dragon Born Filmmaker and also the dragon was only moved to the front of the park so it’s still there!

  • Mickefluff

    March 23, 2013 at 3:25 pm

    I made me an account to Comment this video!

    Well done James! Nuff said…

  • Lazaruxx

    March 25, 2013 at 7:46 pm

    One of the most touching vids I’ve seen. Good that you got to see that dragon one last time :)

  • Slamraptor

    March 27, 2013 at 5:12 pm

    I keep coming back to this video again and again. Even with your upcoming feature James, for me personally this will probably be your all time masterpiece.

    Great work James

    Greetings from a long time Fan from Germany (:

  • flawn scorpion

    March 31, 2013 at 7:37 pm

    wow

  • David Smith

    April 8, 2013 at 11:05 am

    I cried at this, just amazing

  • guinea54

    July 11, 2013 at 3:35 am

    This isn’t just a silly statue of a dragon. It is more than just an inanimate object or thing. Its a symbol. It is a spiritual connection. A connection that was made in the past, and a connection that it made with me right now. For me Its something that is alive. Going back, seeing it for the last time. You aren’t just seeing what you have gained, but also what you have lost. That dragon was once bright and vibrant, in a different time, a special time.. A time that has past long ago..and now it is weathered, rusted and faded. It is dying. Perhaps it died long ago. Just like how things are in our life. My mother just passed away recently and I think back to the happy times and my childhood and I wish I could go back. But the chipped hanging paint, the yellowing and rust have reminded me that its part of the past. Something lost but never forgotten. Like an ancient yellowed photograph frozen into permanence. things change and even the best things in our lives don’t last forever. The dragon was a symbol for me. It was a symbol of things I cherished and loved, a happier time and the sad fact that we must say goodbype. Perhaps this is a very negative interpretation, but that was the meaning for me personally. As for James its a happy ending with a bright future ahead. For me it was more symbolic about the difficulty for me to let go of the past. Sorry for this crazy ramble.

  • Curious

    January 15, 2014 at 9:13 pm

    This one gets me every time. Good stuff James.

  • June 15, 2014 at 4:39 pm

    :’)

  • breeman

    June 23, 2014 at 3:24 pm

    I just realized that Toehider did some of the music for this video! That’s awesome! Great band!

  • July 9, 2014 at 11:54 am

    dam that would scared the buck out of me as well

  • Lance Nelson

    July 17, 2014 at 6:23 pm

    This really hit home for me. I am about to turn 30 (who fucking cares) and I have been struggling with what I am to be doing with my life, having felt like I have wasted most of it on passionless things.
    I never would have guessed that the AVGN would have led me to this deep realization that I am experiencing. I cried for about 6 minutes of that video because I can feel your experience, and it gives me a much needed motivational push into following my true passions in life.
    Son of a bacon-fucker the AVGN guy made me cry… and have an introspective epiphany.
    Sincere thanks, James ~ Lance

  • Merdsman

    July 24, 2014 at 5:36 pm

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